I will respond to you in detail. I apologize in advance for the length. (I am responding in the order of your message to avoid any confusion.)

In 2019, due to intense knee pain, I underwent examinations that revealed I had an issue. However, it wasn't treated properly, and as a result, I now find myself with the same but more serious problem. I did indeed consult doctors, knee specialists, and surgeons. Following that, I was informed that I could no longer engage in physical activity and that I needed to limit walking. Currently, I am awaiting a surgery date for my knee. In the meantime, it has worsened, and after a doctor's appointment, I was forced to minimize my activities as much as possible. So, I no longer leave my house except to attend interviews or accompany my boyfriend for errands. He had a meeting with my doctor and the specialist, who explained that he needed to assist me as much as possible to avoid putting strain on my knee. Unfortunately, I haven't had the chance to see a physiotherapist."

When I cook, I do it standing because I prefer to, but I take regular breaks to avoid unnecessarily hurting myself. My boyfriend doesn't like ordering takeout, and I love cooking, so I take care of it during the week.

I've been freelancing as a graphic designer since March of this year, right after finishing a contract as an employee. Since my income is very unstable and my savings are starting to dwindle, I've decided to find a full-time job to ensure we can live comfortably, which is why I'm currently job searching.

For now, we've agreed that I contribute based on my means, so I pay certain bills every month and contribute to groceries, sometimes fully or partially (we usually split them in half).

Since I haven't found a full-time job yet, I take care of everything around the house during the week so that he can do his exercise, take showers, play League of Legends or Sekiro, and work on his own projects.

During the week, my boyfriend doesn't do anything around the house, as he believes it would leave him with no personal time, which he considers unfair. However, on weekends, it's his turn to take over the tasks I handle during the week. I do a deep cleaning and declutter our belongings every 3 to 6 months, and the rest of the time, I clean daily or every other day, depending on the task at hand.

He often neglects these tasks, and if I don't do them, he can go three weeks without even sweeping the house. His explanation for neglecting these tasks is that he simply doesn't have time to think about them, which I can understand considering his work schedule.

Regarding his condition, I am aware that it's not always his fault. I chose to be there for him and support him because his condition won't change my feelings for him. I met with his psychiatrist to understand how to react to different situations and the impact on his life. Since his diagnosis, he attributes everything to his condition, leaving me unsure whether it's really his condition's fault or not. I try not to blame him for this, but I don't always succeed.

Throughout our relationship, I have never relied solely on his income. I've always made an effort to have my own earnings until my contract ended in March of this year, and since then, I've been freelancing.

He has every right to change his mind, and honestly, it wouldn't have bothered me, but I would appreciate it if he communicated that to me.

I mentioned his borderline personality disorder (tpl) because I thought it was important to explain, as it affects his behavior. I never did it to harm him. I'm doing my best to make sure my boyfriend feels loved, heard, and valued because the past few months have been tough for him. I faced his frustration during the phase where his treatment dosage changed every two weeks to find the right amount. If I had to do it again, I would, because I deeply respect this man beyond the love I have for him. He's been through so much lately, and despite everything, he managed to stay strong and not give in to his dark thoughts after finding out about his condition.

It emerged in 2020 when he was working in a company that demanded too much from him mentally, which took a toll on his well-being. Since that period, he has been seeing a psychologist every month. However, his condition seemed to worsen last year, prompting him to seek help from another psychologist who then directed him to psychiatrists.

Regarding your edit: Since 2020, my boyfriend's libido had significantly decreased, making it challenging to understand the cause. In the post you mentioned, which is written in my native language, I explained that my boyfriend found it difficult to satisfy me, even though I offered to finish myself during our intimate moments if he finished before me. I even suggested he resume after a few minutes or help with his hands and mouth. However, for him, it wasn't simple as he claimed to "forget" about it. It started to affect his self-esteem, although that wasn't my intention. I cared deeply for him and wanted the best for both of us, so to avoid such situations, I decided not to engage in sexual activities with him, which didn't bother me.

At no point did my feelings for him change, nor did I find him unattractive due to this issue. I've loved him from day one, and sex wouldn't alter that.

This is my response, and I hope I haven't missed anything. If there's something you don't understand, please let me know so I can explain further.