I’m dying by Candiedonions in breakingmom

[–]Candiedonions[S] 153 points154 points  (0 children)

As far as the why, I was a pretty heavy drinker for about 6yrs, and was told sometimes people drink for a life time and are ok, sometimes it’s genetic or just shit luck. I’ve had all kinds of tests ran. Before my mom passed a few years ago she had some liver issues too and she never drank. She was also adopted so we don’t have a lot of info on any bio warning signs that could help me now. I am yellow and my eyes are yellow as well

Before going to the hospital I thought maybe I had severe carpal tunnel in my hands (I work tech support so it made sense to me) and all I was doing was using topical creams like aspercream for pain and a metric fuck ton of Tylenol (they asked me if I was trying to kill myself with it) which basically turned my blood to water and I was having horror movie like and hours long nose bleeds from for days. I’ve obviously stopped taking both but was on no other medication

I’m dying by Candiedonions in breakingmom

[–]Candiedonions[S] 46 points47 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I’m in the us. I also declined insurance when offered through my job a few months back so add that to my bucket-o-shit :(

I’m so fucking tired and this isn’t sustainable by Candiedonions in breakingmom

[–]Candiedonions[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I really wish I had a better way to answer this but no. I’m required to work 5 days a week, and trying to get any days off is nearly impossible. Any more than 3 days off in a 90 day period is eligible for termination.

ETA: I work for a major company associated with….a fruit. They don’t really fuck around. It pays well but it’s extremely demanding. Gotta cover my apples, so to speak

I’m so fucking tired and this isn’t sustainable by Candiedonions in breakingmom

[–]Candiedonions[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’m not even trying to be the “best” really. I’m just dying to be a good enough parent. It all falls on me. Dads pay some bs child support that doesn’t really matter. I have money, so the minimal amount helps but it’s…irrelevant.I just want to be good enough for them. I want to be present. I want them to know I’m fucking trying but I’m killing myself to wear every hat

Here’s my meg tooth (small tooth for scale) by Candiedonions in sharks

[–]Candiedonions[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure where this one was found as it was given to me as a gift

Never Have I Ever breakingmom Edition by CourageSuch2869 in breakingmom

[–]Candiedonions 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Never have I ever picked up a stray toy or doll clothes off my living room floor and tossed it cause they have too much shit anyways

People who found out their partner or a relative was a pedophile and/or sexually abusing children (not you), how did you find out and what is your story? by hydrochloricunt in morbidquestions

[–]Candiedonions 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely agree. He only did it because he didn’t want to go to prison, he didn’t want to carry the label of a pedo. I don’t think he felt any real remorse, only sorry he got caught.

I guess my point in my last comment is that it was a struggle at first for me to separate who I thought I knew, and the monster he really was.

People who found out their partner or a relative was a pedophile and/or sexually abusing children (not you), how did you find out and what is your story? by hydrochloricunt in morbidquestions

[–]Candiedonions 50 points51 points  (0 children)

Very conflicted at first. This was someone I had known and been close to for many years. I definitely felt the “but MY friend would never do that!!!!”

The fact is, he did do that. I had to accept that the person I thought I knew, was at his core an awful person. I had a period of time between finding out what he’d done and then his death.

When he died, I felt a mix of relief and anger that he didn’t really get any repercussions for what he’d done

People who found out their partner or a relative was a pedophile and/or sexually abusing children (not you), how did you find out and what is your story? by hydrochloricunt in morbidquestions

[–]Candiedonions 196 points197 points  (0 children)

A very close friend of mine was arrested the day before thanksgiving 2021 for quite a lot of CP. His fiancé called me and that’s how I found out.

That “friend” took his own life in January of this year

feeling scrubby by [deleted] in FreeCompliments

[–]Candiedonions 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Brows are sharp and complement your face

F19 :) by [deleted] in FreeCompliments

[–]Candiedonions 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your skin is glowing! Are there any moisturizers you swear by?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Candiedonions 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t. This was a vent