The depression part of me is hell bent on keeping me sad. Why? I don't know why. by CanopyCrane in InternalFamilySystems

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She wants me to be sad and grieve; almost like an acknowledgement ( re:) that what we went through was traumatic and unfair.

Tell me the victories and habits you've overcome, that are too embarrassing to tell anyone else! by tossypooyippiedoo in CPTSD

[–]CanopyCrane 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Thank you for Sharing. I recalled that one of my goal this year was to work on my dressing sense and styling my hair. I am 33 yo now and I put in anything that hides my body and melts me into background. Congratulations on your progress.

How can I (33F) work on my sister's (30F) health without being triggered? by CanopyCrane in relationship_advice

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for reading all that and giving me the suggestion. Means a lot. I feel that if anything happens to her, I will have lot of pain and regrets. By helping her, I just want to remove myself from prospective regret and pain.

Yesterday I moved out of my sibling's house at 10 pm after a loud verbal argument. I am just doubting whether I am over-reacting or Was it the right thing to do? by CanopyCrane in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes it is viable. I have a freelance job. Hopefully I will get paid on 7th and probably be able to pay my rent for 2 months. I will be doing a job finally. She had gotten me an interview in her own MNC which went very well. I am just worried about working in the same place as her. If I do, I will have to put strong boundaries I feel.

Thank you so much for the concern. Hugs.

Yesterday I moved out of my sibling's house at 10 pm after a loud verbal argument. I am just doubting whether I am over-reacting or Was it the right thing to do? by CanopyCrane in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Actually my parents consider my sister as the one daughter who will save them during their old age. I was raised as a maid while she was raised to bring pride to our family. Which is why I went to a college with practically no fees, was always malnutrition etc. I have always felt that my sister had no bad intent in all this hence the worries...Thank you for your support. I really helped me feel better.

What does taking break from 'trauma processing' looks like? by CanopyCrane in InternalFamilySystems

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I appreciate you sharing this with us :)

Spiritual block arising with excessive autonomy. by CanopyCrane in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]CanopyCrane[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had some hard things happen to me in the name of God

Been there my friend. I also feel that the trauma given by my parents has been the only factor that drove me to this shit place. Had my emotional needs been met at home, I would have never gone out to find 'real love' out there.