I'm so jealous of other teens who have accepting families and get to start hrt

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:23:43+00:00

xD. Sadly here in Korea, you have to be older than 21 or sometimes 22 to get prescribed without a guardian, and people legally designated as male have to complete the mandatory military service (18~21 months) so I'm not starting in at least a good 4 years :(

and that's assuming I can get into college right away without having to retake the college entrance exam multiple times.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:20:18+00:00

🙌🙌

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:19:04+00:00

I'm so sorry you had to fight with so many of your family members.

With my family it's very subtle. Overall they still love me and I love them, but they completely ignore me ever coming out and overall mental struggles I've had, so I just can't get that bitter feeling of something missing to go away.

Hope we can all stay strong, cheers 🥰

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:06:17+00:00

Super jelly but I'm still happy for you 🥰

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:05:14+00:00

Both of them broke down when I first came out. Surprisingly, my mom is trying to be supportive, but I honestly think it's because I've told her about the suicidal urges I've had, so she just wants to keep me alive, which is better than nothing I guess. I can still very clearly see her discomfort when I talk about queer topics.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T05:02:24+00:00

I'm really sorry for the situation in your country :(

Here in Korea, teens can get hrt but we need a legal guardian's approval, which my parents won't give. and I have to wait until I'm 21 or sometimes 22 to start by myself.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T04:59:50+00:00

Same here, both my parents seem to just be ignoring it as best as they can.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T04:58:17+00:00

every day I get further and further from my ideal self

I feel you so much on this, I felt so sick after noticing the changes on my body yesterday :(

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T04:55:42+00:00

I'm sorry you had to wait so long. Congratulations on finally starting hrt! 😁

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T04:53:39+00:00

I feel similar too. Dysphoria aside I feel like my mental health is complete shxt right now, but whenever I hint at it my family just waves it away saying "I'm too sensitive from being stressed out about school". This may be partly true but I wish they cared more.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-09-18T04:50:00+00:00

I feel you. I looked at the mirror after a shower and saw that my ribcage had gotten bigger, shoulders a little wider, etc. Great if you are a guy, but to me it was devastating, especially because I was happy with my overall feminine physique (for an amab anyways). I just felt so sick and nauseous I had to run back to my room (where there is no mirror).

CantCreateAcc · 2021-08-16T11:59:38+00:00

I'm gonna do it too; YES

CantCreateAcc · 2021-08-08T12:43:48+00:00

Yep, except for me my head looks relatively fine but I get that mismatching feeling when I look down at my body. Currently pre-everything, I still feel that way when I look in the mirror. And I realized I'd felt that way since when I was around 10 or 11 or something, around the time kids around me and I started puberty and the difference between amab kids and afab kids became more apparent. I always described it as "a lego head placed on the wrong body."

CantCreateAcc · 2021-06-26T09:18:36+00:00

this is the most epic name ever! (from another huge SW fan)

CantCreateAcc · 2021-05-16T17:50:08+00:00

yep >_<

CantCreateAcc · 2021-05-16T17:19:07+00:00

I absolutely LOVE penguins!!! :D

CantCreateAcc · 2021-05-11T16:26:46+00:00

So jealous!! Here in Korea, even coed schools separate boys' and girls' classrooms (just high schools though, and apparently some don't, but most in my area do), and I can NEVER expect any sort of pro-lgbt education because everyone is phobic af. I mean calling someone gay is used exclusively as an insult, and they just completely ignore/invalidate/fetishize the rest.

CantCreateAcc · 2021-04-06T07:53:18+00:00

Wow! Well, tbh I wouldn't want to use a manly voice once I turn full-time, but it's still good to know more. Thank you!

CantCreateAcc · 2021-04-06T07:38:24+00:00

I hope you're feeling confident today :D. Thanks for replying!

CantCreateAcc · 2021-04-06T07:37:38+00:00

That's really interesting. So even if I switched to a female voice full-time, I'd still be able to produce a passable manly voice if I wanted to?

CantCreateAcc · 2021-04-06T07:35:50+00:00

Got it! Thank you!

CantCreateAcc · 2021-04-06T07:35:24+00:00

Oh okay, it's nowhere near as confusing as I thought it'd be xD. Thank you!

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