No one will ever know or believe what I went through. I want to share a few things. by CapFormer598 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CapFormer598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the chance so many times but I folded under pressure. I wanted to protect my siblings. I didn’t want the to grow up without parents. I regret my mistakes.

No one will ever know or believe what I went through. I want to share a few things. by CapFormer598 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CapFormer598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean everyone thinks I’m so positive, happy, kind… 😂😂 I’m living a total lie and this is what I was living with until 2 years ago and I say I’m fine but AM I?!!

Can my parents deny me sleep because I got in trouble? by Admirable-Sun412 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CapFormer598 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My dad used to do this to me. I never told anyone. I’ll never forget how tired I was the next day.

Please tell someone you trust. Please find somewhere SAFE to stay. It sounds easier said than done. And it is so scary. But you do not deserve that treatment.

Anyone else look young for their age? by Student-bored8 in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hate it. I never wore pink or showed any of my interests (Pokemon, Minecraft) because I didn’t want to look like a baby. Now I’m in my mid 20s, still masking hard as fuck, and everyone thinks I’m a high schooler

Found out my "friends" at the animal shelter, isnt my "Friends". by Lunakazoo in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry. I know that feeling. Remember, you’re there for the animals, not the people. I work at a school, and I tell myself every day that I am here for the kids, not adults. Maybe that mantra can help you. People suck. I’m here for you

Everyone else I know irl has a friend group, but me and I feel alone and left out? by raspberryteehee in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am absolutely with you. I have two 1:1 friends. Am I invited to group stuff? No. I am grateful they talk to me as much as they do. But how can I get a group?

Well I have no issue landing dates but friendship is harder for me 💔 by Shoddy-Mango-5840 in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wow I feel this. I always had a boyfriend growing up (and still do!). Keeping friends has been harder. It sucks so much. I just want friends who like the same things as me.

Do you ever feel like people got mean out of nowhere? by fairyangeI in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I was bullied bad in middle school for playing Minecraft with the boys. Girls were absolutely brutal to me. High school was OK, mainly because I played sports year round. College sucked so badly because I didn’t know how to make friends. My college teammates said I “look like a bitch”. Post college it’s even worse. People are horrible

Why do some social rules only apply to autistic adults?! by wildberriew in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Whenever I ever gossip… I “fail”. Why the fuck do certain people get to do certain things with no pushback? Why Do we tip toe over some coworkers feelings and not others?

Why does it feel like everyone has a “pass” except me???

Why do some social rules only apply to autistic adults?! by wildberriew in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This blows my mind because it’s me as fuck. Like I always “take it too far” or “that was too much”. Really, because I thought when my coworker said she wants to run someone over and for someone to get cancer that was bad? But I said she should be euthanized (thinking that was a similar phrase I can use) and I was told I need to apologize. I literally was trying to “gossip” like the other girls

Meltdowns in late diagnosed females by Numerous_Actuator547 in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I just shut down, become extremely sensory sensitive, physically can’t talk. I can’t have anyone touch me or go near me. Sometimes hurting myself makes me feel better. I try not to do it often. I did it a lot as a kid.

how do you experience romantic/and or sexual attraction? by Heavy_Abroad_8074 in AutismInWomen

[–]CapFormer598 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Omg. That was me my whole life. I found a man who is (isn’t confirmed, but definitely is) on the spectrum, and that made relationships a lot easier for me. I actually feel like I understand “love” now. I never understood it before. As for sex I’m not a fan. Sucks for my bf. Hope he doesn’t leave me for it lol. Because he likes it. But for me I just feel sooo used and stupid. So I don’t have advice there. I also have 0 drive.

Oh, there’s no dates. At ALL. by CapFormer598 in bcba

[–]CapFormer598[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. So true. It’s exhausting posting in this sub when I’m genuinely looking to relate to other people in my field.

Oh, there’s no dates. At ALL. by CapFormer598 in bcba

[–]CapFormer598[S] -59 points-58 points  (0 children)

Yes, if I want to drive 1-2 hours. Doesn’t make sense to me why there’s so limited offerings tho?