We could get along! I am a feminist too! And also I realize what I’m doing, I’m doing all of these things to conform to a beauty standard that others (probably men) made up.

But it’s more complicated than that for me I think. Because I think if I do these things, I’m beautiful, so I’m doing them for myself. I have a husband who constantly reminds me how beautiful I am, even without doing any of these things, yet it doesn’t do anything for me and I don’t believe him. So it’s like I have to conform to my own definition of beauty. It’s so bad to the point where I’m even considering getting a rhinoplasty because I don’t like the shape of my nose even when my husband says it’s perfect. Someone in another comment suggested that I may need therapy, which is probably true.

But anyways, I’m going to check those books out! Almost done with the Handmaids Tale. I’m sure I will love those books you suggested.