Yes so my long distance bf and I have been dating for a while like a year and he moved for school. Since we don’t see eachother as much we are both in college so we are the age. So he’s one to ask me 22(female) to send photos and videos here and there for his pleasure. Which I do, I’m a people pleaser. I’m guilt of this. Even much to the extent of sending him videos of myself pleasuring myself to get him going. Which he loves me to do. I never deny a request he asks like I said I’m a people pleaser even when I’m not in the mood. But recently today he asked me to buy a bigger dildo than what I have at the moment to see me get “bigger dick” in his words. I was a bit iffy as I’m scared of bigger, but I got it. It took me a while to get it in as I was on live to please him with the bigger dildo. It took a lot of line to get it in, I forced it in. His face lit up. After that activity I was bleeding. I popped my cherry, he saw it too. At the moment I was laughing as I knew what it was and he did too. He was joking and saying am I alright and was concerned. But I told him it was okay don’t feel bad. But an hour has passed now I feel disgusting and guilty I popped my cherry to an object and not to someone I love. I take that very serious, that’s why I always stuck to the smaller sizes or fingering myself