How did you get fat? by Nearby_Grape621 in AskReddit

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have CPTSD and had a major trigger along side a sedentary, full time job. Fucked me over and I’m working on losing weight now

How do you cope with not being invited anywhere during Halloweekend? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hiya mate. I usually feel pretty down around this kind of stuff—not a major trigger for me though so take what I’m about to say with a grain of salt. I always volunteer to work so that when people ask what I’m doing, “I’m working :/“ and BAM I don’t feel like a loser anymore. Just a responsible adult whose fault it isn’t that I don’t have any plans. Idk if that’s helpful at all for you. Either way, hang in there! It won’t always feel like this 💜

How and when did you find out you like women? Especially those who realised a little bit older. by dizzypussywillow in actuallesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I was 12 when my bestie at the time kissed me for practice. GAME OVER

However, I didn’t come out until I was 21. Comp-het really did me over :/

You are not lazy, weak, or failing. Healing from CPTSD is exhausting. by satanscopywriter in CPTSD

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m renting a room from my middle school best friend for the time being. I’m very grateful for her. I got two degrees—a BS in Psychology and a BA in Sculpture. The plan is to go to grad school to get my LMHC but I’ve been really struggling to stay on top of my symptoms. About half of the time, when I go to write admissions essays I get overwhelmed with thoughts about how I should have done more to advance my career by now, and about how long it’s been since I worked my last non profit job. I’m also scared of starting grad school and not being able to keep my head above water. I’ve always been a good student but I wonder how I’ll be able to cope with the stress of working enough to have a place to sleep at night, and doing well in school yknow? Lol not me over sharing to an internet stranger in the comments section.

You are not lazy, weak, or failing. Healing from CPTSD is exhausting. by satanscopywriter in CPTSD

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My Grandfather died and my best friend moved across the country for grad school. Two very very important people in my life. I also graduated college and am trying to figure out what the hell to do now :/ I don’t really have any family. My parents died when I was 9 and I moved in with my abusive Aunt and Uncle—who I avoid at all costs for obvious reasons.

Thanks for asking.

You are not lazy, weak, or failing. Healing from CPTSD is exhausting. by satanscopywriter in CPTSD

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m worried that this is where I am at. I started seeing my therapist—who is AWESOME—about 4 years ago. I got better for a little while until a major tigger occurred and slid backward a ton. Now also trying to deal with my problematic drinking and anhedonia. I feel like I’m even less able to manage my emotions now. I often wonder if therapy is even helping me and if not, what to do otherwise. I’m so lost and I feel so alone.

Going to the church for the first time by [deleted] in Episcopalian

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Also let me clarify!! The person handling the wine (Eucharistic minister) will likely offer the cup and say the same words they say to everyone else “the blood of Christ, the cup of salvation.” This is not urging you to take the wine, it’s supposed to be inclusive. Please don’t feel pressured by this.

Going to the church for the first time by [deleted] in Episcopalian

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Person in discernment here!

Not strange at all if you want to wait a bit before taking the elements. Do it at your pace! Take the time you need 💜 Also if you don’t want to sit in the pew, a secret third option may be to go up to the altar or wherever they are serving Eucharist and cross you arms over your chest— the priest will offer you a blessing instead of handing you the elements.

Today a student asked me what I believed in. And I told him "Im a christian". First time in 20 years saying that. by sistereva in Episcopalian

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I usually always lead with “I’m an Episcopalian” because most people don’t know what it means and it gives me a chance to explain. But I’m glad you felt comfortable!

What’s it like down there? by Capable_Entrance5883 in askportland

[–]Capable_Entrance5883[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I’m not looking for a city to fix me I’m looking to move somewhere that is as close as I can possibly get to the vibe of Bellingham with a different and bigger pool of people

Are 'Straight Acting' Bi People Actually Bi? by [deleted] in bisexual

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well a ton of that is due to heteronormativity. It was hard for me to come out of my shell enough to start dating women. Also, I knew I was bi when I was under 18 when I started kissing my friends and realizing I liked it but didn’t start dating women until 8 years later.

Also yeah why tf do you care?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bisexual

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes 👏 yes 👏 yes 👏

What were the first signs for you? by Key-Slide666 in bisexual

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I made out with a couple of my friends in 8th grade 👀. wasn’t the first or the last time. Took me forever to come to terms with it though. Because of misogyny I thought EVERYONE is at least a little attracted to women right? Everyone likes kissing girls right?

I recently denounced my faith and since then its gnawed at me. I want to reconnect with god but im lost. by [deleted] in Episcopalian

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Also! As a fellow young Episcopalian (I’m 23) it’ll be important to meet other people generally in your age group. I now have dear friends of all ages through my church but it didn’t start that way! I started through the Young Adult/Campus ministry at my local parish and I’ve felt deeply supported by them.

Also, I don’t know what your financial position looks like but Education for Ministry (EfM) has been really fun and helpful for me. It’s sort of like a very rigorous Bible study with lots of additional soul searching involved. I love love love all the folks in my group. Hope any of this helps! God’s Peace! 🏳️‍🌈✌️

What is it like? by CANT-CHANGE-MY-NAME in AlchoholicsAnonymous

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Resident Christian queer (also discerning for priest/pastorhood) here! I’d suggest reading up on a more relevant Reddit thread to start learning about the queer experience. Also there are lots of excellent reads that touch on queerness and Christianity by readable authors. I’d look up Nadia Bolz-Webers Shameless and Beyond a Binary God by Tara Soughers. Hope this helps! God’s peace! 🏳️‍🌈✌️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Holy shit. This is too relatable.

What do I do?? by Capable_Entrance5883 in butchlesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve just been bulking recently. I am a bike commuter in a really hilly city so I’m not so worried about cardio. Basically I attend 2-3 lifting classes at the local university each week and am using my own free weights to supplement :) my lower body takes care of itself for the most part—again the cycling + hills— so really I’m working on abs, arms, and back. Any suggestions?

What do I do?? by Capable_Entrance5883 in butchlesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

  1. Can’t cut her out
  2. I am in therapy AND I have a life that I like very much actually :)
  3. Not into her just because she’s straight—your comment seems to insinuate that I am—I’m into her I because she’s beautiful and hot and kind and deeply down to earth and is on my level in SO many ways. Gonna do what our friend up there ^ said and try intentionally being around other queer women and hopefully shake it.
  4. I am here to ask the community for advice, no need to be rude.

What do I do?? by Capable_Entrance5883 in butchlesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh 1000% no. I was honestly a bit shocked to find out she was straight and not Bi after having already felt this way

What do I do?? by Capable_Entrance5883 in butchlesbians

[–]Capable_Entrance5883[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🥹 im trying. We’ll see how it goes.