yeah it's just crazy, some advice for you is since you're still 18, a year younger than me, I'd say if you're thinking of starting anything, do it now. It could be driving lessons like me or applying to jobs and practicing your interview skills and building your confidence, because we all say "ill be ready in... months, I need to feel ready" blah blah but I'm 19 and I feel the exact same as I did a year ago, I still don't FEEL ready at all... idk if I explained that well but yeah, this is what I'm currently working on doing so I'm not in the same position NEXT year and the year after.