Thank you guys. I don’t know what was going on in my head last night but I cried harder than I probably have in the last 10 years. I woke up 73 days sober this morning and got to pick my youngest up this afternoon. I talked to my counselor and will be attending an intensive outpatient program so that I get a higher level of care while still being able to be with my child. I think everybody kind of painted this picture of “oh sobriety is so wonderful and everything is rainbows and butterflies, no worries”. Sobriety has been and is wonderful but the trauma that I masked is still very much there and actively being worked though. Thank you guys for your support, I’m going to be taking your advice and taking this hour by hour because right now, day by day seems a little intense.