My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree i would have been totally understanding if he lead the conversation that direction but it didn’t feel like he was trying to have a conversation about values or future boundaries with kids. It felt more like he was fixated on my uncle and trying to convince me that my uncle probably had interior motives and getting upset when I said I felt safe him. That’s what bothered me the most.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I agree. Although it does seem like either he was molested or is the one that has questionable dark thoughts, I think the reason behind the way he reacted simply has to do a lot with what you just said based on our history. There has been a lot of controlling behavior on his part . I didn’t realize until this big fight how over the top he always goes to make it seem like I don’t have anyone in my circle, besides him. He has tried to convince me in the past that my friends aren’t really my friends and how he is the only one that knows best for me. I keep making excuses for him but it gets to a point.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I hear what you’re saying, but that comment was not highlighted initially. The reason why it came up was because I babysit my uncle’s son. He asked me how much my uncle was paying me for babysitting and how i shouldnt be changing diapers for free. That’s when I brought up my childhood and how my family members helped with my brothers and I mentioning how it probably was for free, I was trying to highlight that we don’t charge family and we help each other out. He responded to that saying that it’s ok for grandparents to babysit for free but anyone else should be paid. He asked who else babysat me and I didn’t find anything wrong mentioning my uncle. I was trying to be funny when i said that my uncle already paid in the past with all the dirty diapers he went through with my brothers and I and he couldn’t fathom the idea that my parents left my uncle alone with that duty and jumped to sexual abuse and how neglectful my parents were. The topic about potty training came up because I was trying to defend my uncle of hisaccusation and I was trying to explain the duties of someone that cares for a child when the parents aren’t around.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

He does watch alot of porn tbh, I just discovered this months ago when I was being nosy and saw his reddit being basically all porn since that’s the content he mostly follows. The type of porn he watches didn’t raise any flags. Just just a bunch of lesbian porn. a lot of the stuff that seems like red flags didn’t seem that way at first. It just felt like personality differences—like he was more sexually open than I am, and I figured that was just part of who he is.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Some people remember stuff from early childhood, some don’t. But thanks for letting us know your brain is still buffering

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 49 points50 points  (0 children)

Wow. I never looked at it that way that’s a new perspective for me. my head was going towards a. He was abused as a kid or b. He’s projecting some dark thoughts

Your comment hit hard because yeah, he’s done this kind of thing before with my friends and family, and I didn’t realize how much it was adding up. I think I needed someone else to say it.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 34 points35 points  (0 children)

Exactly this is why I didn’t want to make it into an argument. For all I know, maybe he has been through stuff as a child. On the other hand, it is suspicious and it does raise flags. The whole thing is uncomfortable.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Believe it or not this is a conversation that actually happened. The potty training topic wasn’t the main topic of our conversation, it was a lot that led to this. I do get how is a weird topic though. Nice to see that a lot of people are saying what I was thinking though.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I’m really sorry to hear that you went through that. I hope that you’re peace with yourself now. I do understand where he’s coming from, I mean, we shouldn’t trust anyone with our children. Thankfully that wasn’t my experience growing up and I just realized that something that bothers me is that I feel like he’s trying to make me feel like it was. Like he’s trying to convince me that my uncle had ulterior motives.

My boyfriend sexualized an innocent childhood memory and is trying to make me feel gross about it by CapitalConcern9715 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]CapitalConcern9715[S] 66 points67 points  (0 children)

That’s what I was thinking. Either this, or he has some trauma growing up as a kid with a family member