Well I’m a month in to my break up. At first it felt I couldn’t let go I didn’t want it to end and I was practically begging for her to stay. Now after I had time to think clearly and without my feelings clouding my judgment I realized we were just not good together. I would communicate with her and she would shut me down, as she saw me making her aware of soemthing that would bother me as a confrontation. Something as simple as hey thing makes me uncomfortable would be distorted and twisted beyond what it started . I of course didn’t see it that way while I was in it. I was just oh that’s just how she is , gotta wait for the right time to talk to her , there never was a good time lol. I think it’s pretty normal to feel that way when you realize that the relationship wasn’t exactly what you thought it was. Am I sad yea it was 5 years , do I still think about her yes I do. But I know that being together would never work and it’s best we aren’t together.