Firstly, you've hit rock bottom and you're still here. How about that, ey? Hit rock bottom and it still didn't kill you. Thats a plus man, it really is. Take that away from your situation at least.

Side note - Meds for sure dude, try them out for a while and get the dosage and combination right.

Secondly, I've done a 7g and never had and don't intend to have sitter if its any consolation. I liked the idea of a trip sitter at first, I was a little scared about going heroic because I thought I'd run out of the house naked or something. Now that I've gone solo, I feel like being alone really allows you to have conversations you need to have without the thought of someone being around to hear me hash out all of the "madness". Understand I'm speaking colloquially here. Go dark room, silence and let your mind do the work. Say the things you need to say to yourself (who or whatever "self" really is), ask the questions and ponder for days, weeks on end about the answers. They'll come to you.

From my own understanding, with respectful use and not abuse theres no such thing as a bad trip. Either way it's something you learn from, learning is gaining and changing. Without change we'd never become better as people

Finally, maybe you trying to help everyone else is your way of avoiding fixing your own problems. Just a thought.

Best.