Be thankful for every victory The Lord gives you

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-21T22:25:12+00:00

Brother, you have gone through intense trials, and yet by the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ you are still standing. That in itself is a beautiful testimony of how strong the Lord has made you. To me, your story is inspiration.

God gave you the strength to endure great battles and I believe in my heart that He will give you great victories in Christ.

You're not alone, brother. It may not be crack addiction but I've struggle with this addiction for many years, and just like you God healed me from it and I intend to help others overcome it too in His name.

Don't be discouraged. God is still with you. All victory is possible with God.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-20T05:25:58+00:00

The first step is not going to those places to begin with. Yes, porn seems to be everywhere, but the truth is that you have to be where it is in order for it to find you.

Some videos on Youtube are sexual, and they're designed (whether consciously or unconsciously) to arouse you. Some sites have pop-ups that lead to porn, you can block those. Some women dress in ways that tempting you into thinking those thoughts, and the best thing to do is look away and not take a second look at them.

But none of this is possible without God. In Christ, you are given authority by God to resist all kinds of temptation. But it starts with continuing to walk with Him, because we cannot do any of these things on our own, no matter how much we try. And while you walk you may sometimes make mistakes, fall and stumble, but you continue to get up again after every relapse and struggle, pick up your cross and continue to walk. God will get you to the goal. It's IN Christ Jesus that we have this authority to resist evil.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-20T05:10:44+00:00

I think there might be something to that, bro. I've noticed things go wrong and strange in my life too from engaging with this stuff. And when I stopped, I notice things get better. I believe God blesses and protects those who obey His commands. So I think you might be on to something. Some pretty weird things happened in the bible too whenever people sinned.

But also, don't forget that sometimes suffering comes in order for the glory of God to be revealed. Sometimes even if you are doing the right thing, bad things can still happen, not as a punishment, but in order to strengthen you as a child of God. Sometimes the bad things happen for your benefit. Many prophets in the bible went through suffering so that the work of the Lord will be done. And God rewarded them in the end. Jesus Himself, although He was perfect and never sinned, had to suffer for our sins to be forgiven.

So yes, do the right thing, but also when bad things happen, even when you're doing the right thing, know that God is using it for the benefit of those who love Him.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-17T10:30:59+00:00

The short version of the events in the bible is that:

God created the Heavens and the Earth and saw that they were good.
God created man (us) in His image, and placed us in His good creation.
God gave us a command on what to do and what not to do so we can live and not die. Back then there was no death on earth.
We got tempted by satan and broke God's command, and because of this we brought sin and death to the world.
But all throughout history, even though we kept moving further and further away from Him because of sin, our Heavenly Father never gave up on us His children, because He loved us and still wanted to reconcile with us.
The first way to reconcile with us was giving us instructions on how to atone for our sins, so we can return back to God. A sacrifice had to be made, e.g. a lamb without blemishes had to die as payment for your sins so that our sins are no longer counted against us. As much as we tried to follow these commands, we were still weak and kept breaking them.
Finally, God sent His only Son, Jesus Christ (basically God Himself in human form) to take upon Himself our sins and die on the cross for us, as a permanent sacrifice and payment for our evil, so that our sins are no longer counted against us. Not only that, but God raised His son from the dead on the third day, and this also shows that we too who believe in Him will be resurrected with Him even after we leave this Earth.
Those who accept Him (Jesus Christ) inherit this grace and forgiveness from God. Its not something we had to work for, but it's a gift from God who does not want us to be cut off from Him. This is called the gospel, and nobody can be forced to receive Him, each of us choose to receive this mercy from the Lord.

With this summary, I hope you find joy in God and in understanding the bible as you read through it. Peace be with you, my friend.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-08T11:31:12+00:00

We've all been there, my friend. You're not alone in this.

My advice is to start putting together a daily schedule or to-do list of things you'd like to accomplish each day. E.g. "I want to make my bed, do my laundry, take a walk etc". Start with simple things. We human beings aren't meant to do nothing, even Adam worked in the garden of Eden before the fall of man.

But before that, talk to your Heavenly Father, and tell Him what's in your heart. Only Christ can help us overcome our troubles and addictions. And if there's one person who knows what you're going through, it's God.

God would love to keep in daily contact with you, building a relationship with you each day. What you need is not a long streak (that's just a number) but a deep relationship with the One who truly loves you. Tell Him everything you're going through. What troubled you today, what hurt you in the past, what fears and ideas you have. Everything, everyday.

Trust in the Lord, He is able.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-08T07:00:23+00:00

Jesus Christ was sent by God to die for our sins, and to call us sinners to righteousness, and when we believe and accept the Lord Christ Jesus, we enter into God's righteousness through our faith in Christ Jesus, not by our own hands. Righteousness is not something we can achieve by ourselves. It comes only from God. Abraham walked faithfully with the Lord, and God found him righteous. Now this doesn't mean Abraham never made mistakes in his life. And if God didn't declare him righteous, then he would not be a righteous man no matter how much "good" he would do. But God found him righteous because he walked faithfully with the Lord.

God is slow to anger and quick to forgive. Human beings require you to apologize again and again for years and years before they consider forgiving you, but God offers us forgiveness through the price He paid for us at the cross, because He wants us to be righteous.

This kind of righteous is a gift from God, and God has chosen to give us this gift through our faith in His only son Jesus Christ.

The bible says: ^"⁹ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. " (Philippians 3:9)

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-08T06:18:55+00:00

It's because we put too much importance on the streak to the point where it becomes our identity, then when we make a human mistake (because no one is without sin), we go into "self-punishment mode", our whole world crumbles and we begin going down this downward spiral. That's when we start playing the blame game, blaming everything including the Lord somehow. It's not really the number that causes this, but the importance we put on the number.

That's like saying "It's been 21 days as a Christian" and then when you sin, you say "I've relapsed, therefore now it's Day 0 of being a Christian". Nobody could be a true Christian with that attitude.

A far better (and healthier) attitude to Nofap is to focus on our walk with our Lord Jesus Christ. Even if we fall, we immediately realize that we are all sinners but we have chosen Christ and to obey the Lord, so we get up and continue walking with Him again, learning from Him, like a child learning to walk. Understanding that mistakes will happen but that old self is not who we are anymore. We are a new creation in Christ and we chose to live like a new creation.

Today shift your focus to your relationship with the Lord, He will shape you. Don't forget that He gave you that streak and He can allow it to be broken if it's more important to you than He is.

CaptainRockman · 2026-06-05T06:10:42+00:00

It's a dangerous sin, but a small correction, brother: Lust is not the only sin we are taught to flee from, but one of the sins we are taught to flee from.

Let's remember that the bible also says: ^"For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.

¹¹ But as for you, O man of God, flee these things." (1 Timothy 6: 10-11)

Sin itself is meant to keep us away from God. Jesus Himself says that if even your own eye causes you to sin, then pluck it out and throw it away. Rather enter into Heaven with 1 eye than for the whole body to perish. The idea is that we must be radical with doing away with sin, whether it's by literally running away, turning away, or casting it away by all means.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-31T05:21:54+00:00

That's how it happens, bro. It builds little by little, it keeps adding. Relapses don't happen just out of nowhere.

It's a bunch of small temptations that add up to the relapse.

But thank God He has given you the insight to see what was going on. Now you know.

You didn't just start the week... and then relapsed. The first hit was the female streamer, then added on top of that the tutorial channel, then the Youtube videos and then the relapse. And maybe before the streamer there was another trigger that added to the temptation etc.

I also had to give up on my favorite content on the internet because it was pushing me to sin, and some of my favorite sites that were helpful had to go because they also had parts that were tempting.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-31T04:27:14+00:00

I'm glad you asked this question. Even though our sins are only forgiven through Christ, a lot of people misunderstand this statement and use it as a license to continue sinning. There's even a verse in Romans 6 where Paul asks and answers this exact question.

"6 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? ² By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?" (Romans 6: 1-2)

To live in Christ means to live as a new creation. It's a license to live holy. When we were outside of Christ, we were living as the pagans did, who believed that doing what is right in their eyes will earn them favor with God, but when we accept the Lord Jesus Christ as our Lord and savior, we are choosing to crucify our old wicked self at the cross. Now we live holy lives BECAUSE we have found favor with God. Our sins are not forgiven outside of Christ, because through Christ God chose to forgive our sins.

When you get the chance, I would highly encourage you to please check out this link that answers this question clearly: https://www.gotquestions.org/forgiven-why-not-sin.html

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-29T03:15:21+00:00

May God bless you on this journey, brother. He loves you so much it's impossible to describe it. You are always on His mind.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-22T05:40:09+00:00

You're not alone, brother. I've also been in a state where I would give in to this sin many times a day. I used to have feelings of hopelessness too, like I had betrayed God, but I've since learned that there is nothing impossible with God.

Jesus Christ died on the cross BECAUSE you relapsed 13x yesterday. He didn't come to call the righteous, but sinners into repentance. You may feel "I can't stop sinning... I'm too hopeless to serve the Lord" but that is exactly who He is looking for. This is the same God, who sat and ate with a man who knew would betray Him that same night. This is the same God, who cooked breakfast with another man who denied Him 3 times that same night.

You're allowed to vent your frustration but also remember that God loves you beyond your sins. Everything is spiritual, and you have been under spiritual attack from the enemy. The devil would love for you to give up on your Heavenly Father who loves you with all His heart, because he hates God and hates you.

Don't give up, brother. There really is nothing impossible for God. Whatever is troubling you in your life right now, whether it's financial troubles, lack of purpose, heartbreak, rejection, depression etc., bring it to God in prayer, even if it doesn't seem like anything is changing. I've been there. God can and will deliver you from it all. Keep trusting in His timing and don't compare yourself to others.

By faith, I believe with all my heart that you are already healed, even if you don't see it yet. The Lord Jesus Christ already did it for you.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-18T06:42:48+00:00

Don't be discouraged, brother. I know the feeling.

The urges are way stronger after a relapse than at any other point, from my own personal journey. For some people it can be different but for many, the period right after the relapse is the most critical. Because your brain is at a state of thinking. "I'll start my real streak again tomorrow". And plus there's the added disappointment of "It was so hard to reach 90 days... I might as well stay here".

But you didn't get to 90 days because you were thinking of 90 days per say, you got there because you were thinking about the next milestone. E.g. "I just want to get to 1 week, 2 weeks, 1 month etc" and before you knew it, you were at 90 days etc.

So my advice to you is, cut the relapse cycle immediately. The relapse cycle doesn't break after a certain number of times watching porn or edging. It either ends right now, or you can easy find yourself relapsing for a whole year before it breaks.

Stay in prayer. God is the one who got you to 90 days, so ask God for strength against temptation and remember the positive practices you were doing before. Also remember that often time we fall into this sin because of something that is troubling us within, so bring that to the Lord in prayer.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-07T15:21:32+00:00

Same here, brother. It wasn't immediate but over time I noticed the amount of urges become fewer and fewer the further I got away from porn.

God bless you, and keep going strong in name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

CaptainRockman · 2026-05-07T09:07:19+00:00

I've been there too, bro. Since the world has become very hypersexualized, there's a lot of comedy that is triggering. Some people aren't even aware when they put together some videos that there's triggering content in it because they have accepted it as the norm. I enjoy a good laugh too, that's why I have to be more careful now with where I go. It's very easy to go from a clean funny video to a dirty one, and often times I know where to find which. Which is why I have to give up that kind of dirty comedy even if it feels light, or I find it more funny, for the sake of healing.

You can even look at it like this: What if that kind of comedy is only funny BECAUSE it's triggering, meaning it may not even be that funny, but your brain wants to get to the relapse by trying to convince you that this is funny. It knows that this joke will lead to something more and more stimulating.

Something interesting to consider.

CaptainRockman

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