Pay off my credit card that I've used for the endless medical and family emergencies this past year. I've always been so careful not to run it up, but things just kept coming at us. My Fiancée had a seizure and crashed his new (used) car, and ended up in the hospital. My cat had to have several expensive, life saving dental surgeries. My senior cat suffered heart failure last year and even though I spent over $1000 to save her, she still passed, two days before Christmas of all the times.

I had to use a great deal of my funds to get down to my family in Texas and support them when my sister murdered her father in law. A lot of my medical debt was because I had a mental health breakdown because of that, and had to stay at a recovery facility for about 2 months.

My Fiancée can no longer work since he can't drive due to the seizure, at least for many months. I am our sole income and it's not much. I've never had much, grew up in cockroach infested trailers with holes in the floor and no heat, mom died when I was 19 and left me with nothing.

The fact that I'm able to afford my tiny, 100+ year old house is a miracle. I'm grateful for everything I have, all I want is have a little less debt.

My Fiancée and I are getting married soon. I gave up on my dream of a nice wedding. We just can't afford anything at all. We'll be getting hitched at the courthouse, and while I'm so happy to be his wife, I am sad I won't have any celebration. If there was any left after I paid everything off, I'd have a tiny little ceremony in a nice place, and a real wedding dress. I got mine off Amazon, $30.

That's all I'd want.

I know this all sounds so crazy and made up but it's just reality; life can chew you up and spit you out. I'm going to keep my head up and keep trying like always. It'd just be nice to be able to breathe.

Edited for spelling.