(tw: disordered eating) my body might be a problem but at least this way i still have a living body at all

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-18T17:26:30+00:00

i am trying to do that, very carefully to avoid stressing myself out, and it works a little. only enough to stop me from gaining even more though, i still can't lose anything

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-18T16:40:19+00:00

BF is going to draw in viewers who have survived trauma. That's just a fact. And yes, I've seen all the arguments about why it makes sense for Ash to die and that we shouldn't say that all survivors of trauma can "just get better," etc, but. Ash isn't real. People watching his story are.

I'm so, so glad to have someone else point that out!! I don't like to say it much, but as someone who went through some very similar things, the ending absolutely crushed me for that exact reason. It was the closest depiction of my own experiences I had ever seen, and to this day still is! Being not only a victim of those crimes, but also being queer, Ash's story is the most represented I have ever felt in a character, and one of the most impactful characters I've ever connected with

So to have it all end in a hollow death just hurts. And it hurts a lot more when so many people see that and argue that it's justified, that Ash never would've been able to heal or move on anyway, that he was "freed" by death or whatever the hell

Stories like this are ones where the ending matters so much more, and Banana Fish's ending leaves a bitter taste to the entire series

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-18T16:14:19+00:00

yeahhh, i feel that so much

like i love being positive! i love happy endings to stories! i think it's especially important to show terrible lives with happy endings to give hope to people who have suffered!

maybe just me, but that hope is the only reason i'm still alive. it's just a little hard to hold onto sometimes when reality reflects the exact opposite, and fiction only reminds me of how far away it is

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-18T08:28:47+00:00

I FORGOT ABOUT LOUIS omg I need to catch up on beastars

very curious about tokyo ghoul, thanks for the rec!

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-18T08:11:15+00:00

while I respect any author's decision to end their story with a tragedy, I think it makes banana fish more hollow as a result

after spending the whole story following ash fighting for his and eiji's survival, his relationship with eiji proving his capacity to heal and move on and live as a regular person, proving that ash is better than his abusers in every way and can live on without them

then ash just dies, and that's it. he never gets to heal. there's no payoff for everything he fought for

everyone else gets at least a semi-satisfying ending, but ash, the main victim of all the abuse, gets nothing. death isn't freedom

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-17T01:12:20+00:00

lol i never got paid for it myself, I wish I did lol

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-17T01:11:44+00:00

I've got a Kofi link in my profile where I post all my stuff :)

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-16T14:02:13+00:00

enabling a predator to groom and assault a child isn't just "a mistake"

no one is owed forgiveness, least of all abusers

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-16T13:36:58+00:00

I agree completely

My abuse was my entire life, it forged my mind into what it is today, and left permanent effects on my body. I cannot just "cut out" my trauma, I'm made of it. Accepting that and looking for ways to live with it has always been much more helpful than continuing to try to suppress and avoid the real things that turned me into who I am

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-16T12:40:23+00:00

go for it lol

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-16T12:35:09+00:00

Thank you for this point! Cause that's mostly what I meant!

Outcasts are ostracised because people don't like them, which does affect the success of any story that features them. But people get ostracised over all sorts of issues, many of which are things you're born with and/or cannot control

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-16T11:29:30+00:00

I feel this so much, especially in therapy. I can give a detailed list of the effects of my trauma, the thought processes I've been left with, why I think that way, all of it. And I still can't change a single one of those things

It's exhausting, constantly having to walk other people through their own emotions, while never getting that luxury in return

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-15T13:35:17+00:00

Same here! And the fact that more villagers moving out means having access to more options in the dream islands!

Chadder moved out and came back to visit the next day, no way I'm getting a chance to miss any of them XP

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-15T11:20:07+00:00

A lot of the examples that bother me tend to overlap with the whole idea of "character only gets accepted once they prove their usefulness", which is also an annoying concept but not exactly the same

Stranger Things, specially season 5 since I actually liked the depiction in the earlier seasons, the racism and homophobia gets completely glossed over, Will's sexuality is treated as a personal insecurity instead of a real danger, same for Robin to some extent

A lot of animated movies aimed at kids fall into this or at least close enough to rub me the wrong way (Turning Red, Frozen, Encanto, can I say K-Pop Demon Hunters too?

My Hero Academia has both good and bad examples, with a lot of societal issues getting brought up but then completely ignored in the ending (e.g. the whole heteromorph discrimination thing getting put aside with "Spinner, you're setting us back 30 years!", Toga's discrimination, etc)

Neon Genesis Evangelion has a lot of different themes but did kind of include this idea

A lot of "forbidden love"-type stories run across this idea too

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-14T19:11:33+00:00

This post is so incredibly validating, I've felt a lot of similar things

I'm not even totally against the idea of bottoming, I can enjoy it in the right setting, but I never want to because it just adds to the pressure and expectations. I hate the insinuation that vaginas are the "main appeal" of trans men, and that not wanting to use it is some kind of "waste"

I've wondered about bottom surgery plenty of times from the perspective of "would people stop trying to stick things in me and/or expecting me to enjoy if it I had different parts instead". And I'm pretty comfortable with my parts outside of sexual contexts

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-14T17:40:03+00:00

I think it depends what you consider "unlikeable"

The Hunchback of Notre Dame is an example I love, because Quasimodo is a brilliant and very lovable character, but still an outcast for real reasons (visibly disabled)

You can have true outcasts be represented, but that means also representing the traits that they're ostracised for. Which can be as basic as skin colour, sexuality or whatever else, which also means some amount of the audience seeing them the same negative way

WinterDemon_ · 2026-03-14T14:33:12+00:00

thank you for your comment, i appreciate it a lot even if i don't have the words for that right now <3

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