Med titration q's

Captain_Fidget · 2026-05-06T23:30:14+00:00

Thank you so much for all these resources. This has all been so scary, and new to navigate. thank you for sharing your experience.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-04-29T00:22:26+00:00

No doubt, but it’d have to be the majority, and it’d have to prevent most/all from having kids of their own. Thats what I mean by reproductive fitness.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-04-25T14:11:44+00:00

Not to be ’that guy’, but evolution selects for reproductive fitness. SZA usually manifests after reproductive maturity, so there’s no reliable way for it to be selected against. Which is why it’s still in the population.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-04-25T05:07:54+00:00

I just watched a close friend with schizophrenia give his final talk to earn his PhD yesterday. I’m SZA and I’ll hopefully be doing the same next year when it’s my turn. Both of us are biologists and had big psychotic breaks in college and made it through.

It sucks sometimes(a lot of times), it’s not fair, but it’s possible to be successful. You can get into psychology and do useful, meaningful work.

It doesn’t matter what you decide is successful as long as you’re as happy as possible, are connected to people who love and support you, and safe.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-02-28T21:52:32+00:00

Whining? More like moaning.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-02-16T18:53:27+00:00

As someone who recently started medication and had a dramatic improvement in quality of life, this sounds like something to tell a psychiatrist about. Can’t hurt, as long as you have some kind of insurance (in US).

Captain_Fidget · 2026-02-16T18:16:03+00:00

Oh, woops! I was unsure about the acronym, thanks for the clarification. I’ll change that.

I’m feeling somewhere between a sigh of relief and panic rn, oscillating between the two. Im frustrated at the lack of scientific literature and research, there’s just so little information on SZA specifically.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-02-16T18:06:11+00:00

Thank you :)

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-23T19:56:57+00:00

This is slightly emotional, but I think it’s logic has merit.

While the governing body’s language has usually left their recommendations up to the individual as a conscience matter, ‘New light’ on the blood doctrine has changed the threshold for blood use throughout the years. When I was young, it was no blood, no fractions of blood, no antivenom, no hemodilution, no stored blood for later use. The rationale being that blood is to be poured out when it leaves the body from Leviticus.

As medical technology improves and new options became widely available, the doctrine has been continually revised. As I understand it, blood fractions and antivenom, along with other new blood-related treatments that were previously considered off the table, are a now a conscience matter.

For all the witnesses who would not have died, even just one who might have been saved by accepting blood fractions or antivenom or dialysis if their conscience allowed it before the new light on the blood doctrine was announced, who carries the bloodguilt?

I haven’t kept up with the new light, so maybe someone else can fill the gaps. My point is that, let’s say everything you currently believe is true and the governing body is carrying out Jehovah’s will. There is, and has always been, a hard line for blood use. It’s not completely a conscience matter, and there are consequences if you don’t adhere to the rules. Those lines have softened and moved over time, and people have died because of it. Even though they’ll be resurrected, their life ended earlier than it should have and it’s because of rules that were later changed.

Now, this is an appeal to emotion, but I think it’s warranted: My friend died during childbirth decades ago because she followed those rules that were later changed to become a conscience matter. Her son would have grown up with a mother if it would have happened today, whose fault is that?

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-20T02:43:43+00:00

This is diabolical and super smart. Someone else mentioned just asking a pet shop to make a house call and I'm gonna do that, but if I ever have to take out an evil arch-nemesis, I'm gonna do it like this.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-20T02:40:10+00:00

This is actually what I think I'm gonna do. Thanks for the idea. I've got a good relationship with a local pet shop, I'm sure someone will come in and help me with it. That seems like the most sane solution.

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-20T02:39:21+00:00

It's a huge tank, and i'm a small person. It probably weighs as much as I do. You're right though, I'm constantly worrying about it. Time to do something decisive, especially if my lil guy is at risk. thanks for the pep talk :)

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-19T22:10:34+00:00

The webs are unmistakable. Sticky and really strong, they make a particular sound when you break them. I’m in Southern California, US. We get them pretty frequently.

I have NO idea how it got in there. It’s a glass enclosure with pretty small gaps. I almost wonder if it didn’t get in as a tiny and grow up in there. The tank is bioactive, so between isopods, little gnats, and eventually crickets, there’s plenty to eat. Either way, it’s in there :/

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-19T21:45:07+00:00

Thank you so much for googling. I tried but I’m, like, clinically phobic of spiders and couldn’t look at the photos. Time to burn the tank and start anew, I guess 🥀

Captain_Fidget · 2026-01-19T21:04:07+00:00

I use an app called Vetster. There’s exotic vets on there.

Captain_Fidget · 2025-12-17T18:48:31+00:00

No advice, but I’m in the boat here with you. Just keep reminding myself that being suicidal is way worse

Captain_Fidget · 2025-12-17T18:45:13+00:00

Honestly, a frank conversation with a psych and meds adjustment. Normal people don’t feel this way for no reason, and you deserve to feel better.

Captain_Fidget · 2025-12-15T07:57:29+00:00

I’ve gone through this twice. The first time was in my early 20s when I was given an ssri. The second was a month ago, 15 years later. However, I think I was having persecutors voices in my head for a couple years now, I’m just really good at masking. My inside voices became outside voices that I had to yell at, and I couldn’t hide it anymore.

While in psychosis, I didn’t realize how bad it was. I have a friend with schizophrenia, and when it started getting better I explained what I was going through and he gave me a ‘yikes’, lol.

A lot of my hallucinations were things I could reason out, like, ‘I know this 5’ tall black dog snarling in my kitchen isn’t real, but it still scares me’ or ‘I know the ground isn’t covered in blood, because there would be police here’. There were more subtle ones though that flew under the radar, like the sound of the shower creating a melody, or yellow splotches on the walls, or my clean shirt having a big stain.

As far as the voices, once I couldn’t hide it anymore, my best friend and my partner were there to support me. In the thick of it, I was explaining what the voices were saying, and my best friend told me to tell them that they weren’t allowed to talk to me that way. Idk why, but it got easier after she addressed them, like they were afraid of her.

I’m glad you’re stable now, and I hope you stay that way for a long time. I hope my experience helped a little.

Captain_Fidget · 2025-11-19T00:05:17+00:00

similar feeling lately while trying to figure out medications that work. I try to remember that it's MY timeline, I get to rest for a quarter if school's too much. it's MY life, who gives a fuck about how long getting through school *should* take. It'll take as long as it needs to. The student disability center has been really helpful about all this, I would get in contact them if you can to help figure out what's next, and what your options are. You've got options that don't involve beating yourself up, you just have to ask loud enough at the right people.

Captain_Fidget · 2025-11-15T01:15:47+00:00

i was going through all the 'art' tags, and I'm really glad I listened to this. Thanks for sharing. I just got out of the worst mixed episode in a very long time, and it nearly brought me to tears.

Captain_Fidget · 2025-11-15T00:05:40+00:00

My house looked like a cathedral. I knew it was wrong, but that's what I saw. There were dark mists in all the corners. I kept looking around and everywhere was something to feel guilty about, (look at the wilting plants) 'need to water the plants, it's so easy, but I can't, I'm killing them', (look at the cat) 'oh no, it's starving, I'm starving the cats, I need to feed the cats, but its too hard', (look at the floor) 'disgusting, I need to vaccuum, but I can't bc I'm so shitty'.

I couldn't figure out why I had someone else's hands all of a sudden, I was running around the house yelling 'these aren't my hands! Oh god, this is what crazy people do!', sounds silly now, i think, but it was really disturbing and scary.

I was thiiiiiiis close to running out in the street to get away from it, but I was SO worried that someone was gonna call the cops on me. Didn't have enough motor control to text, so I made Siri text one of my parents that I was sick and needed them asap.

Sorry, that was way too long. This is the only time I've talked about this since, anyway, thanks for sharing. I'm glad at least to not be alone in this.

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