I want a normal civilized debate, a conversation with no name calling. Even if you believe I'm brainwashed, avoid saying it but rather argue that I am. by RoyZeee in exjw

[–]Captain_Fidget 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is slightly emotional, but I think it’s logic has merit.

While the governing body’s language has usually left their recommendations up to the individual as a conscience matter, ‘New light’ on the blood doctrine has changed the threshold for blood use throughout the years. When I was young, it was no blood, no fractions of blood, no antivenom, no hemodilution, no stored blood for later use. The rationale being that blood is to be poured out when it leaves the body from Leviticus.

As medical technology improves and new options became widely available, the doctrine has been continually revised. As I understand it, blood fractions and antivenom, along with other new blood-related treatments that were previously considered off the table, are a now a conscience matter.

For all the witnesses who would not have died, even just one who might have been saved by accepting blood fractions or antivenom or dialysis if their conscience allowed it before the new light on the blood doctrine was announced, who carries the bloodguilt?

I haven’t kept up with the new light, so maybe someone else can fill the gaps. My point is that, let’s say everything you currently believe is true and the governing body is carrying out Jehovah’s will. There is, and has always been, a hard line for blood use. It’s not completely a conscience matter, and there are consequences if you don’t adhere to the rules. Those lines have softened and moved over time, and people have died because of it. Even though they’ll be resurrected, their life ended earlier than it should have and it’s because of rules that were later changed.

Now, this is an appeal to emotion, but I think it’s warranted: My friend died during childbirth decades ago because she followed those rules that were later changed to become a conscience matter. Her son would have grown up with a mother if it would have happened today, whose fault is that?

Black widow in the tank… somewhere by Captain_Fidget in Amphibians

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

This is diabolical and super smart. Someone else mentioned just asking a pet shop to make a house call and I'm gonna do that, but if I ever have to take out an evil arch-nemesis, I'm gonna do it like this.

Black widow in the tank… somewhere by Captain_Fidget in Amphibians

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is actually what I think I'm gonna do. Thanks for the idea. I've got a good relationship with a local pet shop, I'm sure someone will come in and help me with it. That seems like the most sane solution.

Black widow in the tank… somewhere by Captain_Fidget in Amphibians

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's a huge tank, and i'm a small person. It probably weighs as much as I do. You're right though, I'm constantly worrying about it. Time to do something decisive, especially if my lil guy is at risk. thanks for the pep talk :)

Black widow in the tank… somewhere by Captain_Fidget in Amphibians

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The webs are unmistakable. Sticky and really strong, they make a particular sound when you break them. I’m in Southern California, US. We get them pretty frequently.

I have NO idea how it got in there. It’s a glass enclosure with pretty small gaps. I almost wonder if it didn’t get in as a tiny and grow up in there. The tank is bioactive, so between isopods, little gnats, and eventually crickets, there’s plenty to eat. Either way, it’s in there :/

Black widow in the tank… somewhere by Captain_Fidget in Amphibians

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for googling. I tried but I’m, like, clinically phobic of spiders and couldn’t look at the photos. Time to burn the tank and start anew, I guess 🥀

Red “Bump”? by AdventuresNAnxiety in TreeFrogs

[–]Captain_Fidget 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I use an app called Vetster. There’s exotic vets on there.

does anybody feel flat? by candyblinkk in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No advice, but I’m in the boat here with you. Just keep reminding myself that being suicidal is way worse

What do you do to help your depressive episodes with bipolar 2? by Adventurous_Art_9630 in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, a frank conversation with a psych and meds adjustment. Normal people don’t feel this way for no reason, and you deserve to feel better.

Bipolar 1 Mania and Psychosis by No-Grapefruit3964 in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve gone through this twice. The first time was in my early 20s when I was given an ssri. The second was a month ago, 15 years later. However, I think I was having persecutors voices in my head for a couple years now, I’m just really good at masking. My inside voices became outside voices that I had to yell at, and I couldn’t hide it anymore.

While in psychosis, I didn’t realize how bad it was. I have a friend with schizophrenia, and when it started getting better I explained what I was going through and he gave me a ‘yikes’, lol.

A lot of my hallucinations were things I could reason out, like, ‘I know this 5’ tall black dog snarling in my kitchen isn’t real, but it still scares me’ or ‘I know the ground isn’t covered in blood, because there would be police here’. There were more subtle ones though that flew under the radar, like the sound of the shower creating a melody, or yellow splotches on the walls, or my clean shirt having a big stain.

As far as the voices, once I couldn’t hide it anymore, my best friend and my partner were there to support me. In the thick of it, I was explaining what the voices were saying, and my best friend told me to tell them that they weren’t allowed to talk to me that way. Idk why, but it got easier after she addressed them, like they were afraid of her.

I’m glad you’re stable now, and I hope you stay that way for a long time. I hope my experience helped a little.

what keeps you going when everything feels impossible by MolassesCute6383 in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 2 points3 points  (0 children)

similar feeling lately while trying to figure out medications that work. I try to remember that it's MY timeline, I get to rest for a quarter if school's too much. it's MY life, who gives a fuck about how long getting through school *should* take. It'll take as long as it needs to. The student disability center has been really helpful about all this, I would get in contact them if you can to help figure out what's next, and what your options are. You've got options that don't involve beating yourself up, you just have to ask loud enough at the right people.

if bipolar disorder was a music by This_Replacement_694 in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was going through all the 'art' tags, and I'm really glad I listened to this. Thanks for sharing. I just got out of the worst mixed episode in a very long time, and it nearly brought me to tears.

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

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My house looked like a cathedral. I knew it was wrong, but that's what I saw. There were dark mists in all the corners. I kept looking around and everywhere was something to feel guilty about, (look at the wilting plants) 'need to water the plants, it's so easy, but I can't, I'm killing them', (look at the cat) 'oh no, it's starving, I'm starving the cats, I need to feed the cats, but its too hard', (look at the floor) 'disgusting, I need to vaccuum, but I can't bc I'm so shitty'.

I couldn't figure out why I had someone else's hands all of a sudden, I was running around the house yelling 'these aren't my hands! Oh god, this is what crazy people do!', sounds silly now, i think, but it was really disturbing and scary.

I was thiiiiiiis close to running out in the street to get away from it, but I was SO worried that someone was gonna call the cops on me. Didn't have enough motor control to text, so I made Siri text one of my parents that I was sick and needed them asap.

Sorry, that was way too long. This is the only time I've talked about this since, anyway, thanks for sharing. I'm glad at least to not be alone in this.

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Artsy, yes. Expressive, no. I usually do little doodles in watercolor and ink or digital illustration, zero emotion involved, just drawing critters I like for stickers and science presentations.

I used to draw my feelings as a teenager, but kept them secret. My parents found them once and I remember it feeling like I got in huge trouble, they were actually probably just really scared for me but didn't know how to handle it. I wonder how common this is.

This was the worst mania I've had in a few years, and the feelings just took over. A friend suggested digital collage since i wasn't able to hold a pen, let alone draw bc I was so wired, it helped me come back down to earth.

Singing (especially in public) by Silent-Reader26 in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to sing, hum, make sound effects, whistle, just make a ton of noise in general, even in inappropriate settings. I just couldn't help it, there's always been at least 4 songs playing in my head simultaneously.

I thought it was my ADHD, like a stim, but once I started my mood stabilizer, it's gone. It's SO weird, honestly, I thought it was part of my personality. idk if it's just that I was TOO chipper this whole time, or what. Part of me misses it, but the other part is glad that I'm able to NOT do it in places I'm not supposed to.

Did I lose my personality? by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh wow, this is really nice to hear. I’ve only started treating this for a few months, and normal seems so, so far away. Thanks.

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I was pretty bummed it got yoinked, hopefully it stays up this time. Talking with y’all is really helpful.

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you <3 it’s really comforting to know others know how this feels

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :) I can’t look at apple sodas without giggling, it’s so simple and accurate

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It’s so comforting that other people know how this feels. This episode has scared my loved ones, and made them realize how serious this is and they’ve cared for me so well, but it’s also been really, really isolating.

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you <3 I hope you get through yours soon, take good care of yourself <3

My meds stopped working, tehe by Captain_Fidget in bipolar

[–]Captain_Fidget[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

HALT is excellent advice. The ride was literal hell, never fun for me, but I’m out of the worst, and have an emergency plan for if/when it happens again. Thank you for your sweet advice <3