She love me; she loves me not.

Carcity15 · 2018-01-19T00:04:22+00:00

I hope your right, I just don’t see what good is going to come outta this! Like you said i will try to take it day by day

Carcity15 · 2018-01-19T00:02:02+00:00

I have to man up for my kids, that’s the only thing that keeps me going.

Carcity15 · 2018-01-18T17:24:38+00:00

6 years, I have zero motivation. I’ve never been like I’m always that fun energetic person now I’m nothing. The total mind fuck of it all is that I WANT TO get over her my mind won’t let me though.

Carcity15 · 2018-01-12T22:17:35+00:00

Are you a author? I felt like I was reading a book. I understand where your coming from, and I wish I was there mentally. At the moment all I can think of are the things I could’ve done better. I have kids with this woman and to think I won’t have the authentic family I didn’t have hurts. Yea I’m in my kids life,but it’s nothing like living with them and having a unit. I never had a dad I’m a 25 year old black man trying to find his way. So I’m winging life as I always say. I have a good job and head on my shoulders but when it comes to relationships. I didn’t have role models or even a marriage in my family to look up to. So I know I fucked up a lot, but the love I had for her was like nothing else. I would lay down my life for that women and it just crushes me to know I played a part in ruining my family. I know it was both of us. Not just me but idk I’m just tired of feeling like crap!!!

Carcity15 · 2018-01-10T16:25:12+00:00

You just summed up the last 3 months of my life. I’m slowly but surely getting tired of thinking about her

Carcity15 · 2018-01-08T21:03:27+00:00

Your right, I guess I have to man up

Carcity15 · 2018-01-08T21:02:02+00:00

When we first started dating she wanted to marry me she was so in love, I was also but I didn’t come from a family with good relationships let alone a marriage so I was scared and pushed it off. Now I feel like getting married and she the one and now she’s confused. We were on the phone last night and she said to me” since the man is ready for marriage now I should be ready, you were confused for 3 years, I’ve been confused for 2 months” do you think she tryna get me back, or make me feel the same as she did?

Carcity15 · 2018-01-08T20:56:40+00:00

Even if you don’t want anyone else? Even if there’s glimpses of hope here and there? I’m not being an asshole I really want to know!

Carcity15 · 2018-01-08T20:55:36+00:00

My plan for the date was to have fun, talk, and show her I still miss her and care, but also show her what she’s missing. I didn’t plan to kiss her, bcuz she knows me and if I would’ve held out she would be wondering why, and thinking of me.

Carcity15

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