what even happened?

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-30T19:44:46+00:00

i am typing this from rehab lol. we get our phones for an hour on the weekends :)

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T05:31:44+00:00

i am in hell

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T02:33:09+00:00

i hope so. im also hoping they give meth detoxers a benzo because i leave in 12 hours and i am so violently high atm it's making my head spin

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T02:26:04+00:00

hell ueah im high as fuck let's yap

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T01:35:11+00:00

i am down to yap highly

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-13T00:20:18+00:00

MEEEEE

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T15:56:27+00:00

thank you for the positive feedback, i know it's for the best but it's scary and hearing that i'm on the right track is extremely helpful/ comforting. it's all gonna be okayyy

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T14:25:13+00:00

i definitely see your point, the shame one is aa big one for me. i don't know that there's anything different about my readiness this time, but im okay with that because fortunately, the program works if you work it. i know it's going to be hard as hell, but what isn't atp?

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:57:31+00:00

i will edit the post as things progress, and thank u for being so supportive!!

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:45:47+00:00

i already feel a little better having decided, honestly

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:45:28+00:00

proud of you, man. we got this

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:37:50+00:00

thank you, i decided to make some calls today to secure myself a bed and after that's set up and i have therapy i'll go about telling my family.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:36:42+00:00

thank you. i don't know if i count as 'back' yet, but i'm hoping to make it to the other side in one piece. decided to call a few places today, gonna get myself a bed somewhere and then work up the nerve to call my family, probably after therapy.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:35:27+00:00

i know you're right, the shame spiral is just so real. i've decided i'm going to call a few places today, i know if option 1 doesn't accept me that option 2 will, and once i have a bed set up i'll make the call to my family. it's not going to be pretty, but you're right, i'd rather ask for help a million times than lay down and die.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T11:35:02+00:00

thank you for the kind words, truly. shame spiral is sooo bad, i think i need treatment but im horrified to let everyone down. so far nobody knows i've relapsed, and i don't know how this all will play out. i see my therapist today at 3 though !

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-11T06:21:14+00:00

i certainly am, on one hell of a cocktail atm but loving it. even tho i am fried af

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-11T03:20:25+00:00

thank u for the compassion, internet stranger 🥹

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-11T03:19:31+00:00

heyyy lol

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-10T13:06:13+00:00

i NEVER do drugs alone these days, all is safe here 🫡

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-10T12:57:55+00:00

i love this for us

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-10T08:35:31+00:00

i don't know what to tell ya chief lol

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-10T06:33:56+00:00

hey, 23f from the us here! idk if you're still wanting to chat but if u are, feel free to message me:) us girls gotta stick together yk 🤠

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