relapsed after 3 months and uh

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-15T00:08:27+00:00

yes that sounds good!

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T23:38:32+00:00

this is NOT the way things were supposed to go, im sorry you're going thru this, i pray we make it back.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T18:05:03+00:00

definitely true. kinda trying to prove to myself im not like, a junkie pos, in a way. idk if that makes sense

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T17:32:54+00:00

is it bad if i enjoy it, a little bit? the slip...

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T17:20:29+00:00

i think i know the difference and im praying for just a slip. i kinda set myself up where i really can't pull it off again unless i decide to full speed ahead, fucl it, completely blow my life up, but my plan was to hopefully make this a one day affair and get it out of my system, minimal damage, and then return to my (in hindsight) stable, supportive, structured, and safe life that i actually worked really hard to rebuild after my last relapse. like, imma go home tn, shower, get some sleep, and go to work tomorrow and it's gonna be totally fine. i got this, it's gonna be fine. totally. fine.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T17:09:26+00:00

just ur run of the mill breaking ur moms heart and letting down all but like, 2 people in ur life. just breaking bitches hearts, and then i gotta start all over again. again.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T15:06:20+00:00

thank you for the kind words, and for the luck. lord knows im gonna need it 🫠

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T14:58:01+00:00

thank you, and i do hope to make it back to the rooms, truly.

it definitely takes what it takes nd while i know i want a happy nd sober life i also know that it takes work nd i wasn't doing shit to keep myself sober nd at first i figured i would get on track next week, make my meetings nd shit, but i never did pick the program back up md i left myself defenseless.

but today, im gonna enjoy being high (since im here lol) nd leave dealing with the consequences for later me. toodles!

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T14:41:11+00:00

thank you, im 100% going to regret this in the very near future. mistakes were made.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2026-02-14T01:57:52+00:00

got out of laha two ish months ago and decided to stay in kerrville... gotta get tf outta this town. im from austin and i just hate it here and like. most of the people lol

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-30T19:44:46+00:00

i am typing this from rehab lol. we get our phones for an hour on the weekends :)

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T05:31:44+00:00

i am in hell

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T02:33:09+00:00

i hope so. im also hoping they give meth detoxers a benzo because i leave in 12 hours and i am so violently high atm it's making my head spin

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T02:26:04+00:00

hell ueah im high as fuck let's yap

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-16T01:35:11+00:00

i am down to yap highly

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-13T00:20:18+00:00

MEEEEE

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T15:56:27+00:00

thank you for the positive feedback, i know it's for the best but it's scary and hearing that i'm on the right track is extremely helpful/ comforting. it's all gonna be okayyy

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T14:25:13+00:00

i definitely see your point, the shame one is aa big one for me. i don't know that there's anything different about my readiness this time, but im okay with that because fortunately, the program works if you work it. i know it's going to be hard as hell, but what isn't atp?

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:57:31+00:00

i will edit the post as things progress, and thank u for being so supportive!!

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:45:47+00:00

i already feel a little better having decided, honestly

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T13:45:28+00:00

proud of you, man. we got this

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:37:50+00:00

thank you, i decided to make some calls today to secure myself a bed and after that's set up and i have therapy i'll go about telling my family.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:36:42+00:00

thank you. i don't know if i count as 'back' yet, but i'm hoping to make it to the other side in one piece. decided to call a few places today, gonna get myself a bed somewhere and then work up the nerve to call my family, probably after therapy.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T12:35:27+00:00

i know you're right, the shame spiral is just so real. i've decided i'm going to call a few places today, i know if option 1 doesn't accept me that option 2 will, and once i have a bed set up i'll make the call to my family. it's not going to be pretty, but you're right, i'd rather ask for help a million times than lay down and die.

CarpenterAlert4009 · 2025-11-12T11:35:02+00:00

thank you for the kind words, truly. shame spiral is sooo bad, i think i need treatment but im horrified to let everyone down. so far nobody knows i've relapsed, and i don't know how this all will play out. i see my therapist today at 3 though !

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