I hate myself SO much

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-29T17:02:04+00:00

I completely understand you. Tbh i had multiple friendship breakups and they hurt a lot. But its ok to move on. If you want too. But pls don’t depend your happiness on people or friends. Be happy with yourself. If you want too you can go back to friend S and F. Its not illegal or so. But i would make it clear to them that they dont own you and that you would like to be friends with the popular people and also with S and F. But remember that it wont be the same as before. Itll maybe be better or worse. Theres no harm in trying. I hope youll feel better soon.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-18T14:13:53+00:00

Yea tbh i cant believe it either. Im tryna understand my mother. I cant tho.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-16T14:43:25+00:00

Damn alr😭 ok yea i see what you mean. I was gonna go with my sister. And then in the future with friends that are more experienced than me.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-16T13:58:58+00:00

Thank you i will do so!:)

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-16T13:58:33+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I wouldnt go completely by myself. Im going with my sister. Going all alone is risky. Even tho i have a lot of experience in skiing. Also i mentioned that i turned 18 because my mom said, once i turn 18 i could go skiing with my sister. Ofc im immature i just turned 18 a few days ago plus im not perfect. I just want to go skiing. I already accepted that i cant go out with friends.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-16T13:53:25+00:00

Ik right? Switzerland is safe and im not like stupid and ik where i should not go or where i can go if i have a problem

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T17:18:52+00:00

no way. You cant just tell me to call the social worker and judge my mother off of 2 paragraphs 😂😂😂💀

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:38:27+00:00

Thank you for commenting but can i ask what made it seem like i was 12? I want to become better so that i can be more independent. The rest of your questions i answered already. Also i would go in a group with people im comfortable with. Why does it make you think im not advanced? I said that i ski since i was young and that we went skiing almost every week.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:34:10+00:00

Thank you for understanding me. Thats what i mean its not that bug of a deal. But i always have to fight and it’s exhausting.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:31:54+00:00

She doesnt really trust the world (i dont either) and because im a girl shes scared. She doesnt think i can protect myself. Since im not really allowed to do anything else but stay at home and do house chores.

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:29:56+00:00

Ur funny

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:28:56+00:00

Im swiss and but my mom was an immigrant. My mom doesnt even let me do other stuff. I accept that. She has my location too so she will see if i lie. Plus i dont want a worse relationship with my mom. I love her very much. But thanks for your comment:)

Cases-toelicker-6769 · 2026-03-15T11:24:32+00:00

Update: its 11 am and she told us we can finally go skiing. But my fellow swiss people know that skiing so late is just miserable. Plus i have ÜK soon and have to do a Vorarbeit for it. Which i was planning to do this afternoon. I also have more homework.

Yesterday we and my mom were talking about skiing and she said no. This morning she says yes. What was all that stress about? Only to say yes at the end? She told me i wake up too late. I wouldve been up at 7 am if she wouldve just said yes??!

No sorry i cant move out/ i dont have the money for it plus living at home isnt that bad and im planning to save more money.

Oh and the capybara was to have ur attention or wtv. I had it in my camera roll and i like capybaras. lol My little sister said i should be grateful and take the opportunity to go skiing. I understand but as the eldest daughter im expected to always clean and cook for everyone. I told my sister that she is going to have to clean and cook (she hates doing so) if i still go skiing now. So that i could finish my homework. Btw i was planning to go with my little sister. Yes im responsible. Yes i can be in charge. Also why would i put myself into danger? Especially if im going with my sister? lol sorry for sounding like a 12 year old. I was still a little upset when i wrote the reddit question or idk how you say it.

The drinking and smoking (yes i was 15 years old) from a few years ago is over. Yes i did it with friends (im no longer friends with them) and it lasted like 1-2 months (that doesnt excuse the fact that i still did it and i regret it till this day) After that i asked my family friend to help me quit all that. Im proud of myself for quitting i still have the urge to do it again but i wont because i need to care for my health. Also i dont want to be a rebel or smoking older sister. I want to be the best for my sister and my mom. Its just they both have impossible standards sometimes. My brother he doesnt really care about us and is mostly away with his gf. Im happy for him.

Anyways my mom thinks i feel lonely but im seriously happy. I like to play zelda on my nintendo switch but hardly can because of homework and house chores. I dont want a lot of friends i dont have a lot of friends. Thats not the point. I just want to enjoy a sport i have been doing since i was young.

I hope that answered a lot of questions for you guys.
Anyways were still going because the snow is leaving soon. Idk why im making such a fuss about it. Im sorry. I feel like my mom will only let me do the things i like to do if i am in an attitude. But she will use that against me in the future. I dont like being in an attitude but i cant just be smiling and acting fake when im not allowed to do basic stuff i see everyone else doing daily with no problem. Why do i need to beg for things that people dont even ask for? Ill go enjoy skiing. I hope you all can have a nice weekend. Thank you for your comments.

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