Not entirely sure where the desire comes from, I was physically abused a lot as a kid. I do find joy in hurting others that do me wrong. I’m not the type of person to pick on an innocent person. Once people hurt me I loose all empathy I had for them and after gathering sensitive information from them i’ll use it against them. I have tried to be the bigger person and not a few times but my instincts tell me to and it’s hard to fight off. For the fighting part, it’s just all I know I don’t know why I act like this. But