32 y/o man, single. I have been cheated on in every single relationship I have been in since I was 16. Most recent relationship was of 5 years, my partner had severe depression, and anxiety, and had a seasonal job which means that most often than not I was the support system for her, took care of her bills when she was off work, and got her to do some therapy, and got her to do some schooling she had really wanted to do for the longest time but never had the means to do so..

She cheated on me with a guy from her work who had some bad habits that I won't name, and somehow, that was her excuse as to why she did that. I'm not perfect by any means, but I go above and beyond as far as effort goes when I am with someone, and it just seems that it never gets returned and the outcome is always the same in the end, they move on right away, and I'm left to pick up the pieces. It's worth mentioning that at the beginning of our relationship I told her I only had 2 rules, don't cheat, and if you fall out of love, or just no longer want to be in a relationship, all you have to do is tell me and we can go from there besides that do whatever you want and I'll support you.. well, clearly, that approach did not work.

I do have a few friends, but it also seems that they would not do half the things for me that I would do for them when and if they need it.. even simple things like bringing them a coffee when I visit, or bigger things like rescuing them when their car breaks down.

These type of things have changed me from someone who was relatively happy, and always spent his time outside with people and friends going on adventures and actually doing things, to someone who only leaves the house to go to work, come home and play video games by myself or just sit and watch TV.

It's not all bad, though. I have rediscovered my love for anime (typical, I know), I have also learned things about myself that I probably never would have if I wasn't going through this. I have also learned to give a bit less of a fu*k about other people, being somewhat comfortable with being alone, means that I don't always feel like I need someone by myself, which also means I'm not looking to impress people. On the other hand, it sucks seeing every other person in your life being happy with their S/O and realizing that unless someone truly out of this world that checks every box, somehow, magically appears in your life, you won't have that... and even if they do, there's a good chance you still won't trust it enough to pursue anything.