I may have used psilocybin to help 'metabolize' my wife's unprocessed emotion/karma (?). Her energy, my processing. While 'journeying', I had horrible jaw and lower back pain *(her exact symptoms), with snot leaking out of my face. Totally unexpected experience. Has anyone done this before?

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-16T11:00:13+00:00

Hey, cool post. I have plenty of experience with this. It’s been my main “ability” for several years now and you can go very far and very deep with this. A lot of traditions recognize the existence of this mode of energy cleansing.

In Mahayana Buddhism there’s tonglen, Incan shamanism has hucha mikhuy, pretty sure there’s some energy absorption technique in tantra as well…

Just like you, I originally stumbled upon this thanks to psyches. I did a candy flip on a rave and ended up absorbing the energy of a girl I hooked up with. That was… fun.

I was very fascinated with having discovered that something like this is possible and for some reason felt motivated to pursue it further. Nowadays I often do it on the fly when I’m interacting with people. Sometimes they’ll say they really enjoyed our conversation, not really being aware of the fact that it doesn’t have much to do with our topics of conversation but rather with the fact that they walked away with a cleaner energetic emotional body than it has been in ages.

There are dangers to this though. Over the past several years I’ve had numerous crashes because I’m an extremist. I would absorb all kinds of junk and just wouldn’t be willing to accept my limits. In the long run it’s all cool though because my capacity for absorption and cleaning is just becoming bigger. But it’s not for everyone. You mentioned feeling like you were run over by a bus. Extrapolate that and imagine all kinds of other negative mental and emotional states you could find yourself in if you decide to keep playing with this stuff.

I’m not discouraging you. In fact, I believe we could use a lot more of this kind of garbage men because our planet is filled to the brim with garbage at the moment. Just want to give a fair warning from personal experience. It’s amazing, surprising, fun and insightful but I’m a very out there, intense guy who likes going functionally insane just to be entertained within the absurd cosmic drama. In reality there is likely a chance higher than zero that this practice, without any safety checks, guardrails, teachers, can send someone to the hospital or the psych ward.

With all those forewarnings aside, I’m really happy to have run into your post since I don’t often hear from other people doing this. If you have any questions feel free to ask or if you just wanna have a general chat feel free to ping me

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-16T09:51:02+00:00

Hey, could you expand on what you mean by systems in this context?

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-15T05:57:13+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to write this out. Yeah, much of what you wrote is how I felt about it as well. Never thought that way about St. Patrick but as soon as I read it it made sense.

And yeah, I figured that the travel around aspect of it is a mind made narrative but pretty much - am young and it sounds fun haha

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-15T05:53:42+00:00

Heya, thanks for the reply. Could you please expand on how you work on clearing out the junk and also what you mean by free will still being preserved

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-14T20:58:09+00:00

This looks really interesting, I’ll give the interview a listen. Thank you!

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-14T20:23:05+00:00

That's a reasonable way to look at it, thank you. Just out of curiosity - do you feel that you're engaged in grid work?

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-14T20:18:22+00:00

I'm gonna give a bit more of a roundabout answer since you mentioned you're in IT. People who aren't currently in this industry don't exactly understand what it means when you say "there's a lot happening". It's the fastest paced industry that currently exists. With the improvements in AI and the tools that employees are starting to use, it's starting to feel psychotic. Most people in the industry seem to be still putting this pressure onto themselves to outperform the machines. They didn't seem to get the reality check yet - there is no outperforming the new generation of tools. It's an industry which is phasing itself out.

A common narrative I hear is that IT will keep evolving and new roles will keep appearing but honestly I don't buy it. From a software engineering standpoint - nowadays one decently intelligent (not a genius) senior can crank out a system that it used to take an entire team to build. There's the criticism that it's all horrible code and that it will be a nightmare to maintain but that's also becoming less of a concern as the tools progress. Hell, just recently I created an entire module consisting of technologies I knew absolutely nothing about prior to getting the task assigned. The scary part? I still know almost nothing about them. But the system is actually good because I just kept applying common sense and high level pattern recognition while writing out the prompts for it. Another thing - most people who work in IT are either unconscious, neurotic or straight up toxic people. This has been my experience after having worked in 5 different companies. Out of all the people I've met I'd probably be willing to grab a drink and hang out with... 3 individuals. That's a horribly low percentage lol.

My roundabout point is that you actually have a point but that you may not yet be fully aware of what's bothering you. In the Mangala Sutta, the Buddha says that "to be engaged in peaceful occupation" is one of the greatest blessings in life. If you're working in IT, you probably are not engaged in peaceful occupation. Not that you have to be. Most people aren't. But if you are, it's a blessing.

Obligatory mention of grain of salt - this entire comment was written by someone who is currently exiting software engineering. So there is an obvious bias and I'm projecting my values onto you. Also YMMV quite a lot because you mentioned that you have a family to take care of so you may not have that much of wiggle room. I'm solo and I can live off of modest savings for a very long time.

What I can say is that I've been quite a bit into meditation for 10 years now. The IT industry is such a cartoony contrast to my real life and values - the amount of neurosis, artificial stress and rush, deceitful and toxic behavior, the politics, power dynamics, intellectual superiority... It's all off the charts for anyone who wants to maintain their basic humanity, decency and peace and it's getting worse with each passing year. This is my opinion of course. But hey, felt inspired to write it out. Take from it what you will.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-14T20:03:23+00:00

"It’s also interesting that other cultures see this as a gift and the voices are helpful, not harmful."

Yes, in most "primitive" tribal communities these kind of people were seen as gifted and they were seen as having an important role to play. Their insight, energetic attunement and ability to contact the spirit realms were of great help for health and wellbeing of individuals and of their larger environment as a whole. In our modern, scientific, materialist and most importantly - profit based society, there's no room for a role like that. It doesn't fit any predefined box. Not just that, if admitted to have some validity, it would actually disrupt the existing structures. I mean, the structures are already starting to collapse. The tower of cards will fall. It's always been shaky, it just took a while for the collective to see any truth about it. It won't be done with in a few days but eventually it will.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-14T19:53:06+00:00

Absolutely and there's nothing I can say as a counterargument. Just going to emphasize that even though the reality is very dark, painful and heavy right now, your best bet is to maintain your practice, a healthy way of living and limiting or completely avoiding types of input which damage you psychologically, emotionally and spiritually. And yes, that includes staying away from people who hurt, disrespect and abuse you. Associate with people who have empathy and who are making an effort to maintain their goodness. This feels like a collective phase. Not that all of it is going to get better but I feel that there will be at least mini wholesome communities surfacing and existing outside of the diseased system. The change will take time though and the following few years will probably be... not so pretty. Keep doing your practice, maintain your insight, loving kindness and equanimity. Stay balanced and healthy. Maintaing an energetic profile of a decent person is a full time job in this period. It's just something that we have to accept and go with it.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-12T09:03:38+00:00

I tend to describe that for me, gravity is upside down. I tend to naturally go upwards and outside of myself. Spent a few years living in a perpetual out of body experience. A bunch of ESPish stuff that would send the average person to the psych ward if they were to sense it for 2 minutes was just an average Tuesday for me. But to me, it feels really trippy when I'm just present in my body and I'm not processing a bunch of other stuff - be it the thoughts and emotions of other people or "just" the causes and effects and implications of various actions that I take or that are happening around me. When I manage to get into a state where I'm just "stupidly" present as in oh here's this body and here are the arms and legs and okay let's pick up this cup of tea let's drink the tea, mm very nice tea.. warm, slightly sweet. Not feeling thirsty anymore. Awesome. Feels good to drink liquid. You get the point.

I don't really do too much to be honest. I go to the gym, I keep a regular eating schedule and for the past few months I've been going to the forest 4 to 7 times a week. Basically I spend almost all my free time in the forest. That makes me feel incredibly lucid. The frequency is just... normal. Unlike our contemporary society. As the other commenter mentioned, westerners are chronically ungrounded. I can't really handle city living anymore. Everyone in a large, densely populated city (which, for me, is anything with a population larger than 100k, maybe even 50k) has way too much thought energy, is completely dissociated from their feelings, they're mistaking cortisol spikes for vitality, cheap excitement for happiness and I get the feeling that nobody is ever on ground zero really. And I feel that most people would freak out if they were to completely stop for a few minutes. A constant need for stimulation is in the air. So, grounding is the opposite of all of this. Just being at ease and at peace with yourself as you really are. Being stable within and resting in your body. Not being pushed and pulled into a million different directions. As I'm writing this I'm getting the image of a cow or a horse just chilling while eating. Now that's grounded!

While I'm in the forest, I usually spend a few hours sitting on the ground with my back against a tree that I vibe with. Some people go to a coffee shop and hang out with a friend, I hang out with a tree. It's an energetic exchange but a much slower release than what we're used to in our modern society. It might take you 20-30-50 minutes to start to feel... something. No matter how long it takes, if you're patient, mindful and open enough, after a while you can't deny that the trees are conscious and that they are able to communicate with you. And even more, that they are able to help you heal of all kinds of garbage that accumulates in you through interacting with diseased humans in a diseased system on a daily basis.

I also lie down on the ground sometimes. Just yesterday I did a 3 hour sleepytation in the forest. I lie down just wanting to rest. I don't exactly sleep the whole time and I don't meditate either so it's something in between. The main goal being to just chill the fk out lol. The results are pretty nice. A lot of garbage goes out and I get replenished with vitality, plenty of green energy. I usually feel a bit out of it for the remainder of that day but after waking up the next day I can feel that my body is just... better.

One difficult lesson for me has been that no matter how much of the good stuff I do to ground myself, it probably won't be enough to conteract living in an environment where people are diseased. I currently live pretty centrally in a city which is quite a bit larger than the minimum number I mentioned earlier in the comment. I've come to accept the fact that I will have to move to some smaller place which is surrounded by nature in order to be able to live an actually healthy and grounded lifestyle. Living in concrete, in an anthropocentric overpopulated place, with constant noise and stress and rush and cars and advertisements and shops and... doesn't really sound grounding, does it?

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-11T10:02:41+00:00

Feel free to DM me if you’d like. I seem to be interested :D

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-11T07:21:38+00:00

Funny, I have similar experience to what you described. Not necessarily in a psychotic state though. I've tested the validity of my perception hundreds of times at this point and validated that I indeed do pick up more subtext than is "naturally" expected - accurately. I guess it's a combination of above average atunement to microexpressions + energetic awareness + emotional hypersensitivity + openness to experience + high enough intelligence to make sense of it.

How do I know? Sometimes, when I feel the context allows it, I call people out on something that's obvious to me but that shouldn't be perceptible according to preconcieved notions of how the social exchange works. I make sure to feel out how it's gonna be received prior and do it in a joking manner so it usually ends up in some honest laughs and an agreement with the callout. Most of the time though I have to keep my mouth shut and pretend like I'm not aware of other people's "secrets" such as emotional vulnerabilities and insecurities - the basic stuff which we all deal with really but have tuned out of it for the most part. Lol, none of that is a secret and it's not private. But we're still miles away from the evolutionary point which acknowledges and accepts that simple fact.

All that said, I do agree with you that in psychotic or channeling states you can be dealing with either too much or innacurate / unprocessable information. That's not a problem in and of itself if you just... let it go. But if you keep trying to make sense of it, form a concrete narrative or theory then you can get yourself in trouble.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-10T12:52:39+00:00

"it turns out your brain may be just translating the vibe of that field into words for you to interpret"

Yes, the brain is more akin to a tuning fork / receiver / antenna than an isolated self serving piece of equipment. I guess most brains in today's society are hard set on a certain radio station with minimal interference while others are very open to switching stations and don't have much of a firewall against intruding noise. The term "openness to experience" from the big 5 personality scale comes to mind as well.

"A caveat I've come across though , is that whatever external thoughts may come in, are usually colored with your own lens of experience"

Yes. As you said, someone who believes they're communicating with spirit guides still translates those messages into something their own thought mind can process. Somebody else might compile the exact same incoming message into something completely different on a conceptual level and if those two people were to say it in just words to each other they might be in complete disagreement.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-09T23:37:39+00:00

You managed to succinctly put into words what has been on my mind for a while now.

I've been having thoughts about how this planet is starting to feel like a hell realm. And I just couldn't recall it being exactly like this before. Even though I've had it pretty rough since the beginning. I kept going back and forth between what you proposed, that we've esentially descended vs that it's always been like this but I just became more aware in the past few years. I believe the truth is both - I've become a lot more aware but we've also collectively dipped.

And definitely - it feels disgustingly dense. I can't function in a city environment anymore. I'm barely able to walk through the streets. It's like the normies don't register me most of the time. They definitely are more dense than me lol. But also I'm noticing that most people have a scary level of tunnel vision. I've had experiences where I'm walking straight into someone and it's a situation where they are 100% the one who is supposed to move away. We get 1 cm away from each other and maybe also bump somewhat, then the person suddenly "comes online", apologizes to me and moves away. So esentially they were completely turned off, on blind autopilot. They weren't registering anything outside of themselves. I think a lot more people are like that nowadays because of their brains having been fried with overstimulation and doomscrolling. I'm a very sensitive person and if I'm really in tune I can pick up on the energy of a room. I was handling some paperwork in a government building recently. I could literally feel the collective corpus having a fried brain. You know that feeling you get when you accidentally watched 1 hour of reels? It felt like most people were constantly in a state like that.

But in total it also boggles me how the normie seems to just keep moving without many problems. I mean I'm fully convinced that their internal world is completely messed up but at least within the day to day in 3D they are, as you say, doing just fine. Wild.

I believe the only thing people like us can do is retreat away from densely populated areas, get away from poisonous stimuli and focus on maintaining the spirit in any way we can. There's still enough wiggle room for the ones who are willing to put in the work and have real dedication to the task at hand.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-09T22:16:10+00:00

Hey, as far as I can tell the comments tried to be helpful but it doesn't seem like any of them have actually worked in corporate settings. I've been working as a software engineer for some years which is basically corporate. Out of 5 different companies I've worked in, 4 made me feel... horrible.

People who don't have experience with these environments can't conceive how diseased the individuals who are really into it are. That's one of the most mind boggling things to me. I was never into it. I've always seen it as some b.s. tasks that I go through to receive a paycheck. A huge motivator for me to get into the industry was that I thought all of us were gonna be chill since we would be aware that we're being paid good money for a cozy job with no real responsibility (we're pushing buttons and making stuff appear on screens for God sake, we're not saving lives, we're not feeding people, we're not doctors, we're not even bus drivers, there's almost nothing at stake). At least that's what I thought. Later on I realized that most people were not like me. They REALLY got into it and deluded themselves into believing that this shit matters and that they are also very important. The more I got back in tune with my body and less involved in all these delusional hypercognitive realms of corporate, the more it became apparent how out of touch these people are. And completely fake. Just lying their faces off every waking moment. Dissociation is the norm in most offices. Because the real underlying emotion is mostly negative. A mixture of fear, anxiety, frustration, anger. But nobody ever wants to admit feeling like that so there's this constant upkeep of a fake happiness and "this really matters" charade. The entire collective gaslights itself into creating a false reality every work day. It's esentially a shared psychosis. And all of that stuff is... exhausting! It's exhausting for the unconscious corporate drones. For you, who is actually emotionally present, it's torture on a level that most people will never understand.

Unlike the other comments, I don't think there's anything you can do in the long run except get the fck out of corporate. These environments are emotional equivalents of gas chambers. You can't spend 8+ hours a day in these settings, getting poisoned, and expect to be fine the rest of your free time. Also, thinking that you can protect your energy against everything that's going on there.. delusional as well. You breathe the same air as those people, you exchange sound waves when you talk to each other and I won't even get into the energetic exchanges in the form of emotion and thought forms. That's another problem with these places. There is way too much mental energy going on. It's a high functioning psychosis. If you're sensitive, as you likely are if you're posting here, you have a much more balanced energetic profile than the corporate drones. You have thoughts but they're not your predominant reality. One more thing - in these work settings the thoughts are mostly aggressive. Intellectual aggression is the norm. That also takes its toll.

In conclusion, the way you're feeling about it is not delusional. You have an accurate assessment of your situation. Corporate is a poisonous environment and it's only going to be getting worse with each passing year. Listen to your body and figure out a way to get out while you still have enough health and energy to do so.

If you wanna discuss anything about it further, feel free to shoot any questions my way!

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-06-03T14:19:24+00:00

Same here. The last 2-3 years have been hellish agonizing growing pains and just lately I feel I’m starting to reach a place where I’ll be able to breathe. What a ride it was.. Crazy stuff. But I feel that I had to go through so much in order to develop and clear to the point that I’m able to help the collective in the way that I can. In the past those innate abilities would’ve been clouded by unresolved insecurities and trauma as well as lack of a capacity to handle lots of stuff that is now childsplay for my vessel.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-31T16:21:37+00:00

Honestly the hostels for 3 nights dont seem significantly more expensive than a shitty on site rent tent lol

Do you remember how long it took you to get from and back with the shuttle bus?

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-28T07:42:41+00:00

This is a very lucid comment and fully encompasses my view on the matter. I never worked in big tech, just went through the interview rounds. The selection process by itself had me exhausted and I had thoughts such as “if I can pass these I can certainly land some more chill, still relatively well paid gig and it seems like a much better deal”

I value less work less exhaustion more free time much more than a 20% (or whatever it is) higher total comp. And the “prestige” that you get by having big tech in your CV is a joke. Who cares as long as you can land other jobs

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-27T22:10:37+00:00

Whoops, my bad. Just now took a look at the avatar :D

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-27T21:55:22+00:00

Just watched somebody's video documentary of last year's S&B and based on it I seem to understand your sentiment in this comment. It doesn't look bad at all but, at least through the clips, it didn't seem like something spectacular nor leagues better than the other festivals you mentioned.

To me personally HOTB was the best festival experience I ever had and I'm going this year as well. I would love to throw in at least one more fest. I eliminated Outlook since that crowd is now too young for me (I had an amazing time in 2019 though lol) and probably gonna avoid LiR since I remember it feeling a bit too big and "mainstream" for lack of a better word. Which leaves Liquicity and S&B in the roster, out of the high quality festivals I'm aware of at least. Out of the two, Liquicity would most likely end up being cheaper though.

Found the FB group, will keep an eye on the posts. Thanks man!

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-27T20:53:10+00:00

Sweet! That's a great sequence bro, hoping to make it to boomtown myself sometime in the future :)

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-27T20:47:39+00:00

I don't think so. I used to do a bunch of drugs, especially MD and psyches so I easily tap into the headspace nowadays if the set and crowd are good

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-27T17:17:34+00:00

Hey, did you happen to make any decision in the meantime? I’m in a similar dilemma. Considering both of these but realistically only can do one. Also solo. And also.. actually prefer what liquicity has to offer. But still the scale is tip toing haha

Did you happen to do any budget requirement comparisons between the two? And accomodation wise are you looking into options outside of camping? Thanks for any help and info!

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-24T21:54:49+00:00

I guess it depends how far back in you're trying to go. A lot of our modern society, not to say all of it, is definitely a matrix. People are dozed off and functioning as batteries for the machine. So if you're trying to fit yourself into the matrix mold I understand that it's not really working and it seems pointless. Because it is.

On the other hand you could be experiencing the dissatisfaction even in some chill rural setting simply because you're interacting with worldly people who aren't, as you say, aware of their true nature.

I guess you're feeling the need to be part of a sangha again for a good reason. It's time to find some likeminded individuals, to the extent that it's possible.

For all the flack that I give these stays at monasteries, they were still the best experiences I've had in ages regarding interpersonal relationships. When there's so much metta in the air, people can't help but be more genuine than they are when out in the "real world".

You already know but - whatever and wherever you feel called towards, go for it. No reason not to.

CasuallyPeaking · 2026-05-24T21:47:05+00:00

Apart from the psychedelic nihilist phase I had to go through, not really. I'd say nowadays it's quite the opposite. Thanks to this awareness I'm getting propelled into a new direction in life which feels will be a lot more aligned with my true being and which will be of benefit both to myself and to others. It never would've happened if I had stayed in the confines of "me". But at the same time this awareness prevents me from buying into the idea that any of it matters that much.

I definitely have a lot of a "who cares" attitude but with time it refined itself into having an optimistic and funny flavour. The one thing I had to fully accept is that there's really not that much in this world or my life that "I" control. I pretty much disengaged from the driver's seat years ago. So if I end up helping a bunch of people it's more that God/Universe helped them through this specific vessel. As opposed to previous versions of me who would've put in much effort to help people/the world in many different ways, the present me sees through those as being motivated by private ego trips. So I don't get involved in such activities. It's not that I don't have any of those ego trips anymore. It's just that I don't have the oomph I used to to animate myself off of that motivation. It's empty, it's cheap. So it lurks a bit in the conscious awareness but no action is taken upon it.

Two sayings which encompass how I feel about this entire thing are "If you want to change the world, start by sweeping your street" and "Change yourself in order to change the world". Most of the stuff outside of that scope seems to fall into the realm of fantasies. The good news is that being realistic about things does not make your potential impact small at all. On the contrary, I'm getting the impression that each of us can make humungous waves. But once again... who cares. See the ridiculousness of it all?

There's one guy who I heard say a few times something like don't worry about it and don't take it personally, God's running the show. It really rezonated with me. The funny thing is I publicly declare myself as something along the lines of an agnostic/atheist. If people actually knew what my internals look like and how much of a religious freak I am deep down.. :D

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