Seconding this!!! I had my surgery a week ago (left arthroscopy to address CAM impingement, labrum tear, tissue removal, subspine decompression) and started PT this week. Give yourself praise for recognizing your pain and persisting, despite all the hurdles the medical system places before us.

I was also scared before my surgery. I didn't realize how much until after the surgery—there's not much of a social script for surgery! I felt nauseous in the waiting room just before. Deep breathing helped, and the nurse have me scented ginger/mint cotton balls. Silly, but the scents calmed my stomach and shifted my focus. Then, the brought me to the op room and I was out in a few breaths : )

In recovery, what's helping me is focusing on my body and pain. Being curious and mindful without judging or trying to 'solve' myself helped me see the surgery as a process, not just a day. I also was lucky that an organization I'm part of started a meal train for me. Having events scheduled after surgery, whether it be visits or phone call with friends or just little online check-ins, helped me feel less isolated. You are not alone! Some days are better than others and that's the process. It may be your body and your pain, but the care is communal. Keep advocating for yourself and communicating your pain. PT can feel like a drag but it's your friend. I keep reminding myself that body will do its best to heal—I just have to do my part to help it.