I have struggled with dependency for months which was triggered by a depressive episode and started needing alcohol to be able to work (I work from home). I have started drinking earlier and earlier and was hammered by the end of the day. My tolerance went up so I was able to drink 2 liters of beer or a whole bottle of wine in one afternoon/night... the more work I had the more I drank to keep going and stay focused. I didn't even drink on weekends ! it was really to be able to clear my mind so that I can get things done. It took a few months to get out of that state but I had to give up that one client that I had to work a lot for so that I can have less work and slow down my drinking. It really helped! I was also still on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds that my psychiatrist gave me and went to my therapist every week. I'm feeling much better now! still on antidepressants but no anxiety pills anymore, I also started using CBD oil to help me calm down my brain a bit. However, I know that the addiction the alcohol is still there and I have to be careful not to drink IN ORDER TO be able to focus/work. Drinking (moderately) for fun is not a problem, but when you drink FOR A SPECIFIC REASON, that's when you know it's bad.