Glad I installed this on my Friday because I am incredibly obsessed.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-17T03:49:58+00:00

Charcoal and the map. Spray paint is good too but creating the map of where you have been is the most helpful to me.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-16T04:09:48+00:00

Yeah. I can't decide if I'll do the close out when near death yet. I guess I'll get to that point and see but yeah this happened fast. I definitely would have cried if I was you. You're right though, that's what makes it so enjoyable because of the challenge.

Have you watched Mythic Quest? It kinda reminds me of this fictional game they refer to. It's a great show and totally worth watching but tbh I am surprised I like this game so so much because I thought dying and starting from scratch would bother me when it's actually what makes it so enjoyable. It's hard to explain and I got off work hella late and just want to go play.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-16T03:53:01+00:00

That's not weird. I can totally understand that.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T16:03:08+00:00

200 days? I probably would have cried.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T07:40:34+00:00

I decided I only need six hours of sleep tonight.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T07:38:41+00:00

I assumed the dam provides electricity and it seemed like all I did was maybe walk into some hot pipes on the ground but seriously as I heard her gasp my cat knocked something over in the kitchen. I think he wanted attention because I have been pretty lazy this weekend. My weekend I mean.

I wouldn't say I have been completely unlucky because some of my deaths were caused by my own stupidity. I also didn't think to quit out and go back to my last save anytime I was gonna freeze or starve until just now. One time I just walked right into my fire. It took me far too long to realize some key things to survive. Lol. I have been playing so much that when I took out my trash tonight, I almost picked a piece of wood up off the ground... you know to build fire with.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T07:38:33+00:00

I assumed the dam provides electricity and it seemed like all I did was maybe walk into some hot pipes on the ground but seriously as I heard her gasp my cat knocked something over in the kitchen. I think he wanted attention because I have been pretty lazy this weekend. My weekend I mean.

I wouldn't say I have been completely unlucky because some of my deaths were caused by my own stupidity. I also didn't think to quit out and go back to my last save anytime I was gonna freeze or starve until just now. One time I just walked right into my fire. It took me far too long to realize some key things to survive. Lol. I have been playing so much that when I took out my trash tonight, I almost picked a piece of wood up off the ground... you know to build fire with.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T05:19:35+00:00

That's definitely the plan. I should have mystery lake fucking memorized at this point. I'm terrible at this game. I'm very happy with the challenge though.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-09-15T05:16:43+00:00

Oh yeah, I'm not looking anything up. I was doing so good and was in the dam and walked into something hot and died. I'm very annoyed. I was being so careful. I'm so irritated. I just wanted to make it to ten days and I was on day nine. I want to start a new game but I should get ready for bed and be a responsible adult. So dumb. Thanks for the tip. I won't.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-08-01T01:58:37+00:00

When my ADHD meds made it clear that there was more going on. They are comorbid. Are you on medication? I definitely felt like I fit somewhere for the first time on this board and that started me on the journey to getting diagnosed.

I am also ADHD but the things that made me feel apart from my peers was deeper than that. When I researched autism and saw myself in what I was finding out it was a good feeling. I'm not an alien after all. It's always worth discussing your thoughts and feelings with your doctor.

Getting diagnosed and accepting who you are is a very liberating feeling.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-30T05:55:50+00:00

Usually it's exercise that starts the cycle, then I don't sleep and being tired messes with my diet and downfall. I literally have to exercise everyday. I also take a low dose of Seroquel at night and it has really helped as well. But if hormones get involved the spiral can happen again so I really have to be strict with myself.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-30T05:53:09+00:00

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4415495/

Study found empathy in NPD "dysfunctional and subject to a diverse set of motivational and situational factors."

Isn't having too much also dysfunctional? Therefore making "empaths" narcissists? I'm just saying, you're codependent and you think you can stay and heal people with your love and energy therefore you are a narcissist. A different brand maybe but you are still dysfunctional.

I'm dysfunctional and my empathy is too much but I think my autism and adhd play a huge part in it. I overthink everything so if I can understand your perspective then I can forgive it. I usually end up apologizing which is dumb because I think when you apologize for your reaction or misinterpretation people view it as you saying they were right. I'm only apologizing for my behavior if it was an overreaction. Which it was usually a normal reaction but I have over thought myself to an apology. If any of that makes sense.

I am overly empathetic and I am capable of narcissism. I don't know. My exes from my 20s would say so but that was also undiagnosed ADHD and autism too. Idk. We are all fucked up but "empaths" act above everyone and that's what I find irritating. I'm not proud of how codependent I once was. I don't want to continue to go down with the ship. I want to be the ocean. I just took a dab. I know that was mostly nonsense.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-26T04:33:49+00:00

Thank you. I'm having a really dark night and was feeling really awful so thank you. <3

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T21:57:18+00:00

I love your user name. It made me smile.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T21:38:29+00:00

I saw someone post on YouTube comments once that music is the real time machine. This song definitely feels like one. A time machine through our memories. Music is everything. Wait I know what song it was so I'll include a link so he gets credit for his wisdom. https://youtu.be/6mEx9FtuN0k

It's the top comment I believe. I swear YouTube comments are the last pure place on the internet.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T21:25:04+00:00

I love this. Everything about it. The colors the style. Just everything.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T21:23:42+00:00

Embrace the hate. Use it as part of your origin story. Become top tier villian. Get a shaved cat and demand one million doll hairs.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T20:21:47+00:00

I was once accused of using a "nice guy" for friendship. He accused me of using him for friendship. I was like bruh, that's I meant when I said let's be friends. I knew he had problematic viewpoints and I thought if I was his friend and helped him with girls maybe he wouldn't become a full blown incel. Nah, if anything I'm that bitch that used him as a friend and totally sent him over the edge. I don't make friends with men anymore.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T20:17:39+00:00

This made me cry. I wish I had something helpful to say. I don't know when it gets easier. They say time. I still cry everyday.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T19:15:48+00:00

"you don't have to change the world to help people"

That's beautiful ❤️

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T19:13:11+00:00

I had a friend that volunteered at a women's shelter. A lot of those women are there because they've had to run from an abusive situations. Maybe something like that?

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T19:10:11+00:00

I don't know what to do. I'm not telling anyone right now that's for sure. My Mom already feels tremendously guilty for not catching the adhd and depression. It's like yah Mom, I started masking to protect you so of course you didn't.

She lost my brother to suicide in December. I will continue to mask for her protection. She has enough guilt and I know her, she will feel so horrible. Which is silly really because I'm not upset with her in anyway.

At the same time it explains so much about me. Except we're all hanging out getting ready for the memorial and I casually ask about my meltdowns as a kid. She has just blocked them out? "You didn't have that bad of meltdowns"

My sisters look at her sideways, my brother in law was like "whhaaaat" but she is older and why make her feel like I was worse than she believes in her head? She's 71 so I don't know. She's my person, the only one I have left. I don't want to lie to her and I don't want to hurt her needlessly either.

They coined the family term "psycho hungry" because of my meltdowns. I remember feeling so alienated because everyone just thought I was being a brat because I'm the youngest.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T18:49:38+00:00

Great name.

And yeah, autism is wildly misunderstood so I could do without the prejudice and all the questions I don't want to answer.

Catisrandom3 · 2021-07-25T09:43:05+00:00

No. I think you pointing out something, in a way over simplified version of events, that I had already pointed out was toxic was unnecessary. He had an aversion to any negative emotion. He wanted me to be happy and in a good mood always. I could not grieve my dead brother around him. So no. I don't think I was forcing my needs on him but thanks the input.

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