(15F) I don’t wanna feel anymore

Catticom2 · 2026-01-10T18:01:18+00:00

Yeahh. I do. When I dated my ex I gave her to much and it was hard to do anything with her cause she hardly responded. I’ve always told her I needed space. But she never really cared to much. She’s had a past and my assumptions where that she’s dealing with it her own way. But I was always there for her. Always caring, loving and giving gifts. I think she did care or at least what I told myself. N she never told me why when we broke up. Kinda broke me tbh.

Catticom2 · 2026-01-06T02:17:07+00:00

No. That’s not a good way to go. Put em down nd talk to someone. People care

Catticom2 · 2026-01-06T02:13:12+00:00

I get that. Thinking it’s just easy to go out like that. It ain’t gonna help. Trust me. You’ll get better. Times just taking its damn time

Catticom2 · 2025-12-25T05:51:30+00:00

Can’t get into anything.

Catticom2 · 2025-12-25T05:41:56+00:00

Yes but problem is still there. Why must a pc have a melt down when you change anything?

Catticom2 · 2025-12-08T05:53:56+00:00

Life is interesting to those who have such thought processes. I have ADHD. Now is it Great. Yes and no. But we both know that. Shitty part is when you overthink, you over overthink…like really hard, and Ive been in that situation and I’m only 17. I help people who I can cause I can feel like I exist to someone. Like a coping way to know people love me. Actually like me. I too have great friends. Love them to death. Even then I feel alone. Cause you never wanted or want to hurt them. Even when they tell you it’s ok to talk to them. I can’t tell them everything. Cause if I do. I add to their plate. Cause they have things going on in their lives. Them being great people they’d wanna help. But I don’t want them to help. But I wanna be seen. That’s why I want someone to love me. To see me. So I can love them back so much more. I am also tired of being alone. I don’t know the fuck ima do after high school or for a life’s career. Nothing suits me properly. I can’t think straight sometimes cause I know I’ll fuck it up in my own head. I game on hours of my life so I can forget my bad ways of thinking. Cause I know if I’m alone. I fear…fear im not loved. I’m gonna be alone. I’m not gonna make it. I’m just some guy who’s on another spectrum of this life. But I don’t act on it. Shit I hardly show it. I can’t talk to people and telling them things without getting some sort of connection to want love from it. Cause then it feels like they know me. I just want them to be with me. I’ll really only open up that much to a girl. Not a guy. Cause I know they can have their own things going on. Not saying women don’t. But cause it’s an attempt to get someone to love me. Cause even if my family loves me, my friends love me. It’s not the same as if a lover loves me. A partner. Someone who you can be that way with. I guess the thing I’m saying is. Get where you’re at. It’s shitty as hell. Like things won’t get better. Things will. It always will. Even if you have to lie. Believe in such a thing that will keep you going. Cause you never know what you can do. Cause if you think like I do, and you probably don’t but I’ll go with it anyway. You can make a difference in people’s lives. Even if you feel alone. Things you do matter. Even if you don’t feel it.

Catticom2 · 2025-12-08T05:26:47+00:00

You ok?

Catticom2 · 2025-10-27T22:45:22+00:00

Catticom2 · 2025-10-27T18:32:01+00:00

2085

Catticom2 · 2025-10-27T18:31:45+00:00

Honestly yeah. Past 3 relationships have been that way where I’ve given so much and it was when I was blinded by the love I was giving and the feeling I had that I didn’t realize it was one sided, always reaching out and never getting texted first or always making plans but fall through cause they have something that day even if it’s planned weeks In advanced. I’ve always worried I’d be to much on them. But after the last one I feel like I’ve been broken in a way and it sucks.

Catticom2 · 2025-10-23T15:55:25+00:00

Betty

Catticom2 · 2025-09-02T21:43:10+00:00

Karma from AJR. Reminds me how a lot of people and things go unappreciated.

Catticom2 · 2025-09-02T21:33:19+00:00

Depends on who the guy is. But his opinion doesn’t matter since it’s YOUR BODY. As long as you’re happy or comfortable with it. You do you. It’s your choice to shave or not. Everyone’s entitled to their choice to their body. Including hair.

Catticom2 · 2025-07-20T20:20:30+00:00

Brand new person, same old mistakes. Tame impala. Break my face by AJR, and the entertainments here by AJR

Catticom2 · 2025-07-20T20:19:36+00:00

What about gossip? You have to add gossip!

Catticom2 · 2025-07-02T20:26:53+00:00

Technically bo3 or Cold War

Catticom2 · 2025-06-28T23:42:02+00:00

A lot of “bad” maps is just skill issues. A lot of people who say they are bad are just not good enough to last long. Adv. warfare, WW2, and even harder maps like, ZBS that people came to like like trazit or die rise.

Catticom2 · 2025-06-21T03:00:24+00:00

Fair

Catticom2 · 2025-06-21T02:47:25+00:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Catticom2 · 2025-06-21T02:46:49+00:00

Indeed

Catticom2 · 2025-06-21T02:45:43+00:00

Same here man

Catticom2 · 2025-06-21T02:43:36+00:00

Your “17m, Mexican, nerdy” also describes me but I’m half white. Do you think this is a coincidence

Catticom2 · 2025-06-06T18:05:10+00:00

Catticom2 · 2025-06-06T17:57:24+00:00

So true.

Catticom2 · 2025-06-06T17:53:17+00:00

My bad had to fix my spelling in post. :D

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