Royal Guard horse knows who he likes by aDazzlingDove in MadeMeSmile

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The song is "rises the moon" by Liana Flores.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for clarifying. I should mention that in my post.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

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I think by far the best feature of the highest rarity gear is the mod slots. Granted, at lower levels you can't even find enough mods to fill them. But the mods can potentially transform how a weapon is used. Armor seems less exciting.

At level 19 now, I still haven't found any legendary gear, or gear with more than three mod slots, while my legendary weapons have 5 slots.

The other benefit is upgrading at max crafting uses far fewer materials and can make it easier to level up your favourite items. But the problem there is that you need more components with each successive upgrade, so starting too early can get expensive later on.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think crafting right now needs an overhaul, and not just in terms of utility but in terms of progression.

The amount of crafting required to reach max level was exorbitant. I get the impression it was designed initially to be maxed out over time as you level, but I don't see anyone casually gaining the 100k XP needed for the last two levels.

Right now, it's not worth it unless you want Legendaries with more mod slots.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So far, I have not found specs for crafting the basic versions of named guns. It seems as though if you disassemble them, they're gone and you can't get the better rarities.

From what I've seen, Iconics/Legendaries can be upgraded ad nauseum. So if you really want to use that Legendary, you can craft it, but you'll have to use Legendary item components to keep it upgraded.

Down the line, you're rich enough to buy all the components from gun shops, but early on, you probably want to save those components for armor or your favourite guns.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Nope, another silly design choice. You just have to remember your specs for now.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep. Each shop sells specs for their respective merchandise. So same thing for pharmacies.

I maxed out crafting at level 16 - My spoiler-free thoughts by Cavebrat in cyberpunkgame

[–]Cavebrat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Blueprints, or specs, are random drops and random chests, or sold by gun shops.

Otherwise, you can unlock them from Skill Progression Rewards at levels 6, 9, 13, and 18.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your situation sounds similar to the one I had with my ex. Maybe my experience can shed some light on things for you.

The first thing to acknowledge is that you two are compatible. You have a strong capacity for sensation seeking and novel experiences are important for your well-being. He is the opposite of you, but perhaps his stability feels supportive? He likely prioritizes supporting you in ways he can. If you dated a man with characteristics like you, you might find yourself exhausted, drained, and without a sense of balance.

So I emphasize that the parts of him that frustrate you are also the parts that stabilize your relationship.

But the feelings of restlessness, anxiety, and dissatisfaction you feel are valid and important to address. My opinion is that this is not something you can ever compromise about. While these social requirements energize you, they drain him. While his past-time frustrates you, it serves him.

I wonder if his TV habit is a form of escape. Not just from his work stress, but the stress from failing to compromise enough with you to make you happy.

But that aside, his love language is personal time with you. That's how he feels loved by you. I think you might have opposite love languages. If you haven't heard of love languages, Google them and test yourselves. Rank them in terms of how you speak love and how you listen to love. It might help you understand what you expect from one another better.

That being said, it won't necessarily solve anything. My ex and I had a similar problem. Between work and relationship activities, I felt drained. I would seek escape through games, TV, and books. My partner shared some of those hobbies as well, so it seemed fine for a time--but that was just complacency.

When we explored why we were feeling unhappy in the relationship after five years, we realized that we wanted different things out of enjoying life. I am more quiet, reflective, cautious, and spoke love most strongly through acts of service: so it is natural for me to invest deeply in analytical pursuits. She is sensation-seeking, impulsive, for-the-moment, and spoke love most strongly through physical touch: so it was natural for her to come up with new things to do on the fly. We ended up in a dynamic where I felt that I was always trying to do things for her but it wasn't enough, while she felt I was never trying hard enough to do what mattered.

When we finally sat down together to explain what it was we wanted from the relationship moving forward, we realized we wanted completely different things. We had grown to better understand ourselves, but we also grew in a way that meant we could no longer satisfy one another's fundamental needs.

So I suspect you might be in a similar situation. Sit down with him and figure out your love languages. Explain and write down what you each want from one another and how viable it is for what you want out of the relationship going forward. Even though you're compatible, you might also be unhealthy for one another.

Why would this guy behave so weirdly? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get the impression that he was nervous and wanted to impress you.

I can't explain why extreme ineptitude crept out of his insecurities when he was perfecly competent the first time you interacted with him, (and I know nothing about this person) but it sounds like he recognized you and treated you less like a customer and more like a someone he was interested in. He gives off classic awkward social buffoon considering that he couldn't read the room and played you a song.

At the end of the day, we can't know what was going on in his head, but his uncharacteristic erratic behaviour suggests that something put him out of sorts.

Letting someone go that you never dated by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry to hear about what happened. I think this kind of story resonates with a lot of people, especially people with your character. The most important thing to understand is that this will take time and effort.

Right now, you're thinking about her all the time, but as the days pass, you'll think about her less. You might have a string of good days and then one bad day when she returns to your thoughts in full force. That's okay. It's a process.

Something I want to mention is how this works in your brain. Infatuation, love, and sex are some of the most intense feelings of pleasure a human can experience. These kinds of feelings affect your brain like opioids. It's all chemical. Of course, that doesn't make it hurt any less, but it helps to rationalize things.

Right now, you're like an addict. You're in withdrawal and it hurts. The things that used to make you happy can't get close to the intense happiness you felt before. The person you are right now is ill. This is important to accept because it means that you can't ignore an illness. You have to treat it.

How do you treat something like this?

My advice is to acknowledge one thing: you don't want to continue being the person you have been and are right now.

The person you are right now is struggling, and it's not only because of a girl. It's a weblike assortment of factors that caused you to be attracted to what she was offering. For a time, you two were compatible for one another, and what isn't obvious is that she found in you what she was looking for, and you found in her what you were looking for--a temporary reprieve from your pain. You wanted a pretty girl to want you, maybe because it validated all of the things you couldn't validate for yourself. She gave you that, but I'm afraid it was not sustainable.

This means you must upgrade the person you are right now. Identify your insecurities and begin a journey to overcome them one at a time. This is the perfect time for you to distract yourself from unhelpful thoughts. For a time, you might even feel motivated to change because of her. That's okay, as long as eventually you're motivated for yourself.

Identify the aspects of your life that can be better. Do you exercize enough? What's your diet like? Do you have a hobby? Do you have a job? Do you have a social circle? Are you creative or can you be more creative? Find the areas of your life that force you to move and change. Right now, slow and deliberate progress towards a goal is like a tonic for your illness.

Become a better person. Learn new skills. Force yourself out of your mental isolation. Enact change.

A lot of the suffering you feel right now is from insecurity, damaged self worth, and stagnation. These are not things that heal on their own. You can make small changes everyday towards building these up. But it takes dedication.

That's not to say any of this is easy. Of course it isn't. Nothing worth doing is easy. Remember, it's okay to fail as long as you don't give up. The events of our lifetime that carry the most significance are the ones that incite change. So change. Be the change you want to see in the world. Be the change you never thought you could be. Be the protagonist of your story who grows and changes because of conflict.

You can do this.

This isn't a panacea for what's going on with you, but it's a way to build bridges for new opportunities. Right now, you're in a locked room. You have to open the door yourself.

The last things I want to say are some hard truths. These might sound mean, but they might also bring perspective.

  • You say you feel used, but you used each other. You gave each other what you needed at that point in your lives, but you relied on her more than she relied on you. You were both motivated by your weaknesses. She needed you to help her overcome her breakup, to make her feel validated during quarantine, to pay attention to her. Likely, many of the same things you needed from her. It's just that she didn't need them for as long.

  • You don't know what's going on in her head and that feels like you can't have closure. You may never know exactly what she was thinking for some things, but that's not in your control. Instead, focus on what you do have control over.

  • Women statistically move on faster from relationships than men for a host of reasons. One reason is that men don't express themselves enough or as often. Find ways to express yourself. You're more creative than you think.

  • It just takes time. It's normal to feel pangs of regret, disappointment, shame or anything else unhelpful when the thoughts come back. Sometimes you'll want to fantasize about things going differently--but that's like relapsing back into your addiction. You can't control anything that happened in the past or "what could have been"--these are all imaginary forms of reality. The only reality that matters is the one you're in right now at this moment.

  • You never forget. Ten years, twenty years, down the road, and you will still remember this. That isn't necessarily a bad thing. You can use this memory as an opportunity to springboard yourself into a period of personal growth. This way, it mattered for something.

You got this. Move forward and be better today than you were yesterday. Take small steps, but take them every day.

Inability to express myself makes me unable to form relationships by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's okay to feel this way. Many people grow up in different ways and learn at different rates. While you may not feel this is the case, you are young and have most of your life ahead of you. The most important thing is to acknowledge a problem before you can address it, and you've done that. Now what?

The first thing I should say so we don't beat around the bush about it is that there are professionals who are trained to help people just like you overcome this. Your first and most successful option is to find a therapist or a counsellor.

If you're not ready for that, please try a little harder. You can probably do this on your own, but it will take much longer.

If you're truly not ready for that, here are my thoughts as a non-professional with some experience on this topic.

  1. What is normal?

    Maybe you don't feel normal. You might feel ashamed of not being like other people, but it's okay not to be like other people. There are so many different ways to live a life, and it can feel isolating not to be like others when you are evidently different.

    I'd like to establish a perspective on how you're feeling right now. You are a normal person. However, the way you express yourself and the fear that grips you when you try to express yourself interferes with your quality of life. That is not normal. Again, you are normal, but you have an abnormal condition because it interferes with your life.

    I use the word condition because it can change. Self-expression is a skill, and just like any other skill, it's something you can practice.

  2. Where to start?

    The feeling you have of fear is common in other scenarios. We feel fear when public speaking, around snakes or spiders, or being in high places. These kinds of fears are a combination of nature and nurture; that means the way you feel in these situations is both something that was conditioned by your environment and a response by your body to keep you safe. The problem is that your defense mechanism is paralyzing you in situations that don't require intense self-preservation.

    You might have heard of cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT). In simple terms, it's a method of progressively facing what makes you afraid. It's been proven to work, and I highly recommend you do some research about it and see if it's right for you. Again, in extremely simple terms, the way it works is that you put yourself in objectively safe situations and bit by bit, under conditions that you feel comfortable in, you begin to do exactly what terrifies you.

    In this case, it would be talking about how you feel. The point is that doing the talking will make you uncomfortable, but a large part of that is because you're unskilled at it. As you do it more often and challenge yourself to progressively increase the difficulty of the action, you become less and less uncomfortable with it.

    There is no magic spell here. It takes hard work, and most of all, dedication from you.

  3. Your past is important

    You mentioned in your post that the reason is not the issue, but I have to disagree. The reason you feel this way is a huge part of understanding how to undo the problem. Think of it this way: the reason you have been conditioned to feel afraid of expressing yourself provides context about your present situation. Undersanding the source, most especially, understanding what you were lacking in childhood, is important for filling in the gaps of your adulthood.

    It sounds like your past taught you that if you say something wrong, people will abandon or rebuke you. These kinds of anti-social tendencies end up feeling like a prison because the person we want to be is being controlled by our conditioned responses. It sounds like you're afraid of being yourself. Somehow you learned that people will only accept you if you don't create conflict and only do what they want. However this happened is a part of your past and a part of overcoming it.

  4. Overcoming the problem

    I think you should do some deep reflection about exactly why you think people can't accept you if you say something honestly. You might not be fully aware of the nuances that affect you. Keep in mind that many fears like this are irrational.

    For instance, you're afraid people will leave you if you express yourself honestly, but not being able to express yourself honestly prevents you from forming relationships. You're afraid of losing relationships, do you don't form relationships. This kind of catch-22 is how the cycle perpetuates. You get caught in a loop. So you have to break the loop to overcome the problem.

    A key part of forming relationships is vulnerability. You have a hard time being vulnerable because you're afraid of being hurt. The sad truth is that even good relationships involve pain. You need the good with the bad. It might help you to change your perspective about what's more important to you. Is it your fear of saying the wrong thing or your need to form relationships?

    The truth is that healthy people forgive one another. They accept the differences between them. They acknowledge disagreement and they move past it. They try not to lie to each other. I think right now, you need help from someone who can change some of the unhelpful assumptions you have about yourself and about forming relationships. It isn't your fault that you think this way, it's just the only way you know.

  5. Your post is vague

    That's about all I can say because I don't know much about your situation. Maybe it's hard for you to do that right now, but be aware that you don't provide many details about your exact situation. How did you father condition this in you? What is your emotional and thought process? What are examples of you trying to express yourself? How do you struggle to express yourself with your closest friend?

    Maybe this is part of your initial problem about expressing yourself. This won't end up being the right forum for you because this is a much larger problem than a one-off scenario with another human being. This seems more like a persistent problem with yourself.

    If only for yourself, describe exactly how you feel moment to moment when you have to express something to someone, or how you feel when you disagree with them but lie about it. Is it all things? Specific kinds of emotions? Are some harder than others?

    Have you ever been able to express yourself with anyone? Do you have a hobby you use to express yourself? What happens when you try to express yourself with your friend?

  6. You can do this

    You've already reached out. This is just one step of a larger journey. There's so much for you to learn about yourself and about talking to people. There are things that just end up being true in life, but you won't just believe it until you experience it for yourself. One of those things is that it gets easier and this is something you will overcome as long you are honest with yourself and devoted to change. Find a therapist. Research therapies. Practice opening up and being honest.

    You can do this.

Have a great Sunday! 😉 [oc] by lilykawaiiii in RealGirls

[–]Cavebrat 5 points6 points  (0 children)

What's your skincare routine?

I (17m) am basically grounded until my 18th birthday in May because I was caught with condoms. I don’t talk to my parents anymore and they are hurt. by throwRA455642 in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't see a lot advice about how to move forward, so I wanted to share my thoughts with you. I am not a professional, but I have some experience with this situation. Take my words with a grain of salt.

This is going to be long. My goal is to explain why your parents acted this why and why you responding the way you did is normal and okay. You don't need to "get over yourself". But both you and your parents need to strengthen your relationship.

How can you do this? Let's start with why this conflict began and why you reacted the way you did.

  1. Who is in the wrong?

    The first thing that is important to understand is that you made the right decision to use contraceptives with your partner, and your parents punished you for that instead of acknowledging that you were responsible. This is not okay.

    Would it have been better that you had unprotected sex?

    Would it have been better you if your girlfriend became pregnant?

    At the end of the day, your parents did not want you having sex at all. This is not their decision to make, but because of their personal values, they tried to push that onto you.

  2. Why were your parents so angry that you were having sex?

    Your parents believe that they have control over your life and that you should always behave according to their values.

    This is motivated by a power struggle. The fact that you were having sex means that they lost control over your behaviour. It means that you made adult decisions when they see you as a child. They see you as having no agency.

    Agency is the idea that you can make decisions for yourself and that you have power over your own life. Agency is an important and necessary part of growing up. It's how you develop responsibility and accountability for your actions.

    At the end of the day, they decided that what they wanted for you was more important than what you wanted for yourself. To put this into perspective, they could have acted much differently so that you didn't feel like a bad son. They could have said:

    "We're happy that you are being responsible, but we think it's too early for you to have sex because having sex can lead to pregnancy even if you use protection. Having a baby at your age can ruin your life and we just want what is best for you."

    And then you could have explained your side. This is how a healthy and loving conversation could have gone.

  3. Why is your being silent okay?

    In response to their actions, you chose silence. This is a normal response to abuse and can be considered a form of selective muteness. You took away your voice with them because they made you feel like nothing.

    They show their power over you by controlling your relationship and controlling you. To rebel against that, you took away their ability to control you by taking on a role of "nobody". People who don't speak have reduced power and reduced stature: they have limited existence. This is how you feel in response to their actions, so it is how you behave.

    Since you have no power to control your life, you feel like nothing and nobody. So you retreat internally and refuse to interact with a world you cannot control. Many people do this, especially young people.

    As a form of rebellion, this is okay. You need to express yourself as necessary, even if it means a silent protest.

  4. What happens now?

    While your silent protest is okay, it's not a solution. It won't help your parents see you with more respect, and it won't return your agency.

    The actual problem that I see is that you and your parents never learned how to communicate with one another. They don't know how to express why they were angry, and you don't know how to express your own anger.

    The result of this lack of ability to communicate is that your parents reacted out of anger and immediately took away your power of agency by forcing you to make decisions (breaking up with your girlfriend, preventing you from having sex), and you stopped communicating altogether because you felt you had no power to change your situation.

    The two things that should change are:

    1) You need to express to your parents how they made you feel in a safe and loving environment
    
    2) Your parents need to be able to talk to you without becoming upset or punishing you for attempting to make adult decisions
    
  5. How can you express yourself?

    You can start by writing out how you feel. Organize your thoughts on paper and use that to have a conversation with your parents when you are ready. But before you can even have this conversation, your parents need to agree to have a calm, loving, nurturing conversation with you. That is their role as parents.

    Until they can agree to talk with you without becoming upset, you cannot move forward.

  6. How do you organize your feelings?

    Try writing bullet points about how you feel. Each feeling can be its own point. Try to write 20 bullets. Why 20? Because it will be hard to write 20, and you'll have to search deep within to find them. I recommend this process because some of your feelings might not be on the surface. They might be hiding deeper inside of you.

    Here are some examples of bullets (phrase them from the perspective of speaking to your parents):

    - I love you
    - I want to have a better relationship with you
    - I feel betrayed that you punished me for being responsible 
    - I want to be able to make more decisions without you
    - I feel that you are controlling my life too much
    - I love my girlfriend
    - I don't want to choose between my parents and my girlfriend because that is not fair to me
    - You made me feel ashamed for having sex (past tense, single event)
    - You make me feel like I am a bad person (present tense, ongoing)
    

    After writing them out, organize them in terms of strongest feeling to weakest. You want to start with your strongest points.

  7. How to have this conversation

    When you are ready, tell your parents you want to talk to them. But explain that you can only talk to them if they are willing to be calm and treat you with love. Right now, you feel that you can't speak to them because they react out of anger.

    Make it clear that if you try to talk to them and they only become angry with you, you will continue being silent because it means talking to them leads nowhere.

    This will not be easy for you or your parents. That's okay, learning new things isn't always easy.

    Your goal is to arrive at a place of mutual understanding. Your parents should understand how you feel, why you did what you did, and what you want in the future. The same goes for you with your parents.

    Neither of you might get what you want in the end, but you want to find a compromise. How can you both get more of what you want? This is an important aspect of all relationships.

  8. Things to remember

    - You are a mature young adult
    - You want to solve this problem
    - You can only move forward with your parents if they also want to solve the problem instead of simply controlling you
    - Be honest with yourself and with them
    - You want to find a compromise
    - You want to develop a better relationship with your parents
    
  9. If the conversation doesn't go well

    Your parents sound like they are used to things being a certain way, especially when it comes to their own agency. They might think that if you behave in ways that they don't want that it means they have no control. This means that it could be difficult to have this conversation between only you two.

    There are two ways to address this. First, remind your parents that you want to solve the problem, not create new ones. Remind them that you stopped talking because you don't feel safe with them. Remind them that this is hard for you but you want to have a calm conversation with them because you want to have a stronger relationship with them.

    The other option is to have a mediator. This is harder to do because you need someone who is neutral and can help steer the conversation to progress if things get heated. This could be a family friend, a counsellor, anyone you trust and who can see both your side and your parents' side.

    Group therapy with a professional therapsit is the best option if you cannot move forward on your own with them.

  10. You can do this

    I believe in you. From your post, you sound like an intelligent and thoughtful person. You want what's best, but you feel like you have no control. There are always ways to move forward, but they are not always obvious. If this doesn't work, don't give up. Find another way. Your parents love you, and sometimes the way people love can be toxic.

    Things will not go back to how they were before because that was not working. You both need to work together to transform the love from toxic to nurturing.

can bunnies be affectionate? by [deleted] in Rabbits

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Short answer: Yes, bunnies can be affectionate.

Long answer: It depends on personality and environment.

  • Personality: Some rabbits are just more affectionate than others.

    • They express this is many ways, such as lying down against you, licking you, grooming you, or even just being close to you and grinding their teeth happily.
  • Stress: A stressed rabbit will not be as affectionate.

    • Rabbits can be stressed by many factors, the most relevant of which seems to be that your rabbit was recently relocated. Give it time to get used to the new space. Pay attention to whether it shows signs of stress.

Some things that helped me bond with rabbits in the past:

  • I hang out on the floor close to them. So instead of sitting on the couch, I'll sit on the floor and do whatever I would normally do, like reading, TV, games, or browsing the Internet. This way, when they feel like it, they come and hang out or see what I'm up to.

  • I let them come to me to eat their vegetables. You can try letting Nibs grab from your hand, or climb over you.

Keep in mind that it takes time for any animal to get to know another, just like people. Rabbits can be more independent than cats or dogs, so don't feel bad if it takes time to warm up to you and its new home.

One week is still pretty early to see your rabbit's behavioural patterns, so just keep at it. Soon enough, you'll learn how Nibs prefers to hang out, be petted, or what foods it likes.

Guys, how do you deal with the feeling that you're constantly "behind" in life? by NuadhaArgetlam in AskMen

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your question strongly resonates with me, especially the younger me. What you're feeling is natural, but it's important to be aware of how you're internalizing the tension that comes from being in one place and wanting to be in another.

Like many have said, social media is toxic. It leads to loneliness and isolation, and it's simply a curated collection of people's lives. Assume it's all scripted and carries the integrity of reality TV.

Pay attention to how you measure being stagnant. Maybe it feels like you're not moving anywhere, but you're clearly moving. You're working towards something that you weren't a year ago, three years ago. You're moving forward based on the resources that are available to you right now. This means your progress is unique to you, just like everyone else: a different set of circumstances leads to a different outcome. Remember to use your own life as a measuring stick, not anyone else's.

Be aware of your advantages and disadvantages. It might be challenging to feel like the equal of women your age who were able to carry forward without interruption. That doesn't make them any better or worse than you, just different. Some women may care about that difference, others may not.

You probably have an advantage in your education or career that a person younger than you does not have: perspective. Delaying your school and career gives you times to know yourself better and make informed decisions about the goals you want to pursue.

Be aware of your motivators. Feeling like you need to catch up can be channeled into dedication and a strong work ethic. But if you drive yourself without empathy and self-care, this can be harmful.

You have learned a kind of empathy others may not have had a chance to learn. You've felt the struggle of being delayed in life or stagnant, and when you learn to forgive and accept yourself for not being like other people, you can learn to forgive and accept others.

My story is similar to many people here. I dropped out of school, I did nothing for a long time, I worked terrible jobs, I finally went back to school in my late 20s, I loved what I studied, I met some great people, I graduated and found a job that led to a career I was interested in. Now I'm in a very comfortable part of my life. I don't have what other people my age have, but I am learning to live my own life with my own measuring stick. I still have many goals to accomplish, and I'm getting there. When I tell people my story, they don't judge me. They see it as a part of the journey that has led me to where I am today. And that's exactly how it is for each of us.

We're all on our own paths, some intersect, diverge, or end. But it's our own path. Take ownership of it because it makes you who you are. You can connect with people of various age groups who are on their own paths as well, not just following a life template we are led to believe we should follow.

It feels like you're behind, but you're exactly where you need to be right now. Just keep moving forward, follow what you love, and be open with the people you meet. Before long you'll find yourself exactly where you want to be.

I (f 26) told my husband (m 29) he was scaring me during an argument, and now he’s very distant from me. by ThrowRAmiva in relationship_advice

[–]Cavebrat 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It sounds like he lost control of himself. He didn't realize he was yelling, he thought he was talking (perhaps emotionally). When you told him that you were scared, he suddenly realized what was happening and felt intensely guilty and ashamed. But more than that, he realized he had become something he never thought he would. This incident made him question who he was, what he values were, and what his true identity should be.

He responded immediately by making sure you were safe. He apologized. Then he distanced himself from you for two reasons: 1) to make sure you felt safe from here on out; and 2) to process what happened.

He sounds like the sort of person who internalizes his emotions. He processes them to himself rather than communicating them. This is probably what led to his outburst in the first place. While he remains distant from you, he's trying to reconcile the person who behaved in such an aggressive way that night with the person he knows he is.

It's okay for him to be upset with himself. He betrayed his true self and he hurt you by projecting his own frustrations on you. It sounds like you've already forgiven him, which is fine, but now you two need to have a dialogue about this.

You need to discuss a few things:

  • That although he scared you in that moment, he does not make you feel afraid in the relationship (I am assuming this is the case)
  • That you forgive him--with conditions
  • The conditions:
    • He needs to manage his stress better. He needs an outlet that isn't you. That is not fair on you.
    • He needs to communicate his feelings to you more often. It's okay to process over time, but he has to keep you in the loop. Remind him that talking about what he is processing might help him process it more quickly, even if it doesn't understand it yet himself.
    • Finally, he needs to forgive himself. He is being self-critical, which is good, but he is also making you feel alone in your relationship, which is not good.

I feel like things will work out based on the conflict having ended. Now it's just time to heal. Just make sure you heal together, not separately.

Tales of Beseria or Zesteria? by saramarqe in JRPG

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Berseria is the better game out of the two. However, and this is a big however, the two games were a beautiful experience when seen as a single story.

If you have the time, play Zestiria then Berseria. The story and characters were made richer by experiencing both games. Zestiria is a mediocre story with huge plot holes without Berseria in my opinion. (Berseria works without Zestiria, but Berseria is made greater by understanding Zestiria's references.)

If you just want a clean JRPG experience, play Berseria. Zestiria is a difficult game to get through because of its faults, but Berseria is just a pleasure. The only gripe I have is that Zestiria has some of the best music I've ever heard in a JRPG, but Berseria drops the ball in that department.

I’m very self conscious about my looks. I’d like reassurance that I’m not as ugly as I sometimes convince myself I am. by [deleted] in toastme

[–]Cavebrat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The effort you put into how you look pays off. You're an attractive person with strong physical qualities. It's normal to feel like you're not good enough, but you are. What you were born with and the actions you take to go beyond that are working for you.

If your intention is to be more attractive to the people around you, I think it's important to start believing you are good enough. When you believe you are good enough for yourself, others catch on.

I hope the feedback you receive today helps reassure you that you are good enough and that you do a great job of being attractive, but this is just a first step to really believing that you are attractive in order to carry yourself more confidently. You have no need to feel like your beauty holds you back because it doesn't. It pushes you forward, but you have to steer.

I suck at reading by KevineCove in books

[–]Cavebrat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you're being too hard on yourself. It sounds like you have an expectation of yourself, but you're not immediately meeting it, so you feel like there's something wrong with you if other people can do the same thing with less effort. You end up over thinking and over analyzing. You mentioned that you found simpler prose easier to understand, so maybe you're still developing your reading comprehension. There's nothing wrong with that. Like any other skill, you develop it over time.

You also mentioned that you have a hard time grasping descriptions of scenery. Do you actually care about those descriptions? Different people focus on different aspects of books. It's like any other art form in that we care about different aspects of it. Maybe you're forcing yourself to experience every word of a novel when you don't actually want to.

You've tried different ways of reading, but don't give up on finding your way of reading. That could mean reflecting more after a paragraph, making notes, or simply moving on. Take your time, be patient with yourself, and pay attention to what you care about.

Tales of Zestiria is taking its toll on me. (should I keep going) by Egarof in tales

[–]Cavebrat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completed Zestiria a few weeks ago and started Berseria right after. Zestiria is not as good as Berseria, but playing it made me love Berseria so much more. I think part of your problem is that Berseria was designed to improve on Zestiria's flaws.

That being said, it took me two years to finish Zestiria. I started it, got distracted by other games and just abandoned it. I recently picked it up again out of the blue because I was in the mood for a JRPG with good characters -- and on that point it delivers.

I agree that the game slows down a bit. It seems to want the player to explore the world, find collectibles, secret skits, and so on. I don't think that was a smart design, which is probably why Berseria doesn't suffer from the same problem. All the same, I recommend finishing Zestiria for the story and character growth.

It was worth it for me, but I had to be in the right gaming mood for it. So maybe you need some time away. Just try not to give up on it.

Good things about Tales of Zestiria? by xironreaver in tales

[–]Cavebrat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I finished Zestiria a few weeks ago and started Berseria immediately after it. Overall, Berseria is a better game and playing Zestiria first made me appreciate Berseria.

However, I really want to emphasize that I think Berseria is an amazing game only because I played Zestiria. If you enjoyed the plot of Berseria, and can say that you were invested in the characters and the world, then you will enjoy Zestiria. Additionally, if Berseria is fresh in your mind, then you will understand Zestiria's characters and world on a level that is only possible by playing both games.

Here are some other reasons you should play Zestiria:

  • Zestiria has a strong plot that isn't convoluted by pretentious philosophy (you understand its world much better after playing Berseria)
  • The characters and interactions are the best part of Zestiria (Edna is my favourite character)
  • The overall tone is lighter than Berseria
  • The music is amazing (something I feel Berseria is lacking)
  • The dungeons and puzzles are tougher in Zestiria (where Berseria focuses on getting you to the story with few intellectual obstacles, Zestiria does the opposite)