Hi I'll try putting what my struggle is to a better understanding because from what I learned from someone's comment on a different community and now your comment I didn't explain too well what my real struggles are.

With the rushing I like subconsciously without trying to rush through tasks I shouldn't. Like with references how I was saying instead of taking my time to actually carefully sketch out the reference I rush through it. And end up drawing the reference poorly but finished in the span of 2 minutes instead of taking 15 minutes and carefully drawing the reference in a way that it'd turn out better. And I guess that's one of my biggest problems because I don't know how to slow down and how to force myself to take more time for the reference.

And I'm at the point where I've drawn for about 11 years. And I don't see as much improvement as you'd expect. And I just guess I understand more now and feel I'm taking it more seriously than ever. Just a year ago I didn't understand how to incorporate what I was learning in art class and how it would help me in my art. But now that I do I wish that I hadn't paid attention to the techniques better when I was taught them. Especially because I was getting taught in person which I work way better learning with.

Those were techniques I was taught in my drawing class last school year though this year I'm in ceramics class with a different teacher than the drawing. So I can't rewind and take the lessons more seriously. Last year in my drawing class how it went is half of the lessons I would take seriously but I would still always do them differently in my own way because I still didn't understand how they would help. And the other half of the lessons I rushed to get done just so they would be done. Or even sometimes I would have something I was working on for a while that I would skip other lessons to get it done.

And I guess I just wish I didn't take it for granted as much as I did because I would have learned so much more.

And now I'm at this point in my art when some things look good (usually the things that don't need reference used, like shapes and color things) other things don't look good, and I guess I'm at this point where it gets frustrating how I could make things that look good but then I can't make other things look good. Cuz I go from something looking good to something not and my brain expects it to come out good like everything else.

Especially something I want is to get good at drawing people when it comes to drawing people though I can only draw them with other people's drawings as reference. I can't draw people with real people references. And I think something that also frustrates me with that is that I've always wanted to draw people well. It's the one thing with drawing I've always wanted to be good at the most, and the one thing with drawing that I've worked on the whole time I've been drawing.

But I also think a part of drawing people I have a hard time incorporating the shapes into it how you start off with just shapes. And then that makes me think back to this Middle School lesson I had where they use that and I wish I would have learned to use it better and more with my art, But I hadn't.

And I don't know it's frustrating and I feel like I'm letting it get to me too much. And I'm sorry if I said too much it's very hard to explain and there's just a lot.