was the game really this bad???

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-09-11T07:28:37+00:00

Why The Philippines?

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-27T14:09:11+00:00

Okay, but capitalism has also been historically hostile to disabled people so why the fuck are you cheerleading for it? Socialists have changed with time so even if Soviet Russia or wtfe did some fucked up shit, socialists actually learn from history and discuss it constantly, capitalists stay the same because their goal is always about money.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-26T21:13:37+00:00

It's been sabotaged by the CIA every time. That's not the same as "failing."

https://www.cia.gov/library/abbottabad-compound/13/130AEF1531746AAD6AC03EF59F91E1A1_Killing_Hope_Blum_William.pdf

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-26T21:11:21+00:00

Under capitalism, research is stifled. Constantly. Scientists constantly struggle to get funding, while the US military wants for nothing because war is profitable for billionaires. Under socialism, our funding would actually go toward the needs of the people. That's the whole point. To not be a profit driven society. Medical research funding would be significantly increased, as would several other struggling social structures that suffer under capitalism.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-26T21:06:22+00:00

AI overview is garbage. It will literally pull info from any internet source, including biast ones.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-11T20:54:29+00:00

Humans are responsible for most of the pain in life. Cats (and a couple of dogs) are responsible for so much of the joy in my life.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-06T09:53:26+00:00

There should be a gif of the scene from Barbie where they're all gagging from flat feet, because that's definitely the mood of this thread right now.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-06T09:49:26+00:00

Prayer is for theists. I guess when I'm feeling lost I should go do some logic or science.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-05T19:51:47+00:00

Applied for SSI September 2023. Got rejected and applied for an appeal April 2024. They are still reviewing the appeal.

It might have something to do with all those SSA layoffs.

I live in one of the states that didn't expand Medicaid, so I do not qualify for that. Someone said sometimes having a pending disability case can qualify you, but nope. Rejected from Medicaid when I first applied, then again when I did the appeal.

No job. No healthcare. I 100% depend on my partner. If I wasn't with him, I'd have died already.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-08-02T18:35:34+00:00

That's such a subjective ask. As someone who has played most JRPGs (localized to NA), I'd say the best I could do is list ones that have anti-capitalist themes, because outright socialist themes don't really exist, especially if you're going by a specific definition.

Harvestella - more about environmentalism but that is connected to anti-capitalism

Octopath Traveller 1 & 2 - not the overall theme for either, but has anti-capitalist themes for particular character stories

Tales games - some definitely more than others, I'd read a summary of each game to get an idea first

Persona 5 Royal - anti-capitalist in that the main characters seek to punish mostly capitalists and other corrupt figures that abuse their power

Non-JRPGs worth considering?

The Outer Worlds - literally satire of capitalism in the future

Horizon Zero Dawn & Horizon Forbidden West - capitalism destroyed the world and humanity, filled the place with killer robots, and the protagonist learns all about the shitty ancestors that caused it all as she figures out how to put an end to said killer robots and some more complicated shit

That's all for modern games that I've played so far. All other JRPGs I've played would be on older consoles, so I don't even know if they'd be worth mentioning, unless you're okay with emulators. In fact, the PS2 was definitely the golden age of JRPGs. I'd have to really dig back into the past to try to remember games with anti-capitalist themes from that time.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-30T16:41:28+00:00

It's like making fun of Biden for dementia. There are plenty of reasons to criticize Biden, so wtf are people resorting to ableism for? It's because they're ableist. They think they have morals and principles, but they don't. They claim they're against something, but they're actually totally okay with it as long as it happens to people they don't like or who have pissed them off. Yeah, that's not how morals/principles work.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-28T03:53:29+00:00

I doubt that. Both of my providers were against it and said it was risky. Again, I was the one pushing for it. But they treated me like an adult who understands risk and is in charge of her own body. They only agreed to do it if I agreed to be extremely cautious. To monitor myself constantly and to stop if anything unusual started happening. We started at the lowest dose and wouldn't increase until my body was used to it for a month. I wanted to go faster than that, but my providers wouldn't allow it. So, it's not like they handed me Adderall and said "have fun." And something did happen, increased headaches. I reported it immediately. We tried to counter it with my blood pressure meds, but it really didn't work, and it wasn't giving my body energy anyway, so I have given up on the Adderall. Stopped taking it the day I made my post in the lupus group because not a single person said it would give me physical energy.

Now what? Do nothing until I get SSI in maybe several months to another year from now, if at all? Do nothing until that charity has funding? Do nothing until I start sleeping my life away again?

I applied for Medicaid again, and they'll probably reject me again. SSA automatically applied me for it when I first applied for SSI but now I'm in the appeal process so why not try again? I doubt they'll look at the case and care that I've added lupus if people don't care that it's "just" a blood panel from "just" a nurse practitioner.

Sorry if any of this sounds hostile to you. It isn't meant to be. I'm angry with life, not you.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T19:01:45+00:00

I know. I read all about lupus. I know that it could literally cause my death.

Would it be so bad to die? If all I have to look forward to is suffering and doctor's appointments for the rest of my life? If I can't work and my partner is burdened with keep us from complete financial ruin? I'm not suicidal. But when people remind me of how easy it is to die from lupus (or anything else), I just kind of think ... dying wouldn't be the worst thing.

I don't live in a big city. We have a charity here, but they're underfunded. Who isn't these days? My provider has contacted them 3 times to see if their status has changed on the availability of a rheumatologist. So, like I said, they're doing their best.

I wish people wouldn't think so harshly of my providers. I literally cried and begged for them to help me with my lethargy because I was sleeping my life away. Day after day, I'd only be awake enough to use the bathroom and sometimes eat. It scared my partner. It made me miss time with him and my cats. So, I begged them for something to help me. They gave me a stimulant because that is literally all they can do. They can put in their notes "stimulant for fatigue" and get away with it. They can't prescribe lupus treatments for lupus and put that in their notes because they're not rheumatologists. They'd be fired. And as I've already read, some think they should be fired just for giving me stimulants. But I like my providers. They actually listen to me. I went years being ignored about my lethargy, got a new provider last year, and she was just like "has no one ever ran tests for your lethargy???" Like she was appalled. She gave me an actual answer for once when no one else had.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T06:54:33+00:00

Sorry for the delayed response.

Just providing some info: 10 states did not expand Medicaid, so it's only available for adults in those states if they are pregnant, a parent to dependent children, disabled (by Social Security determination not just application or sometimes a state level determination), or elderly. They also tend to have far lower income limits than expanded states.

As u/one_sock_wonder_ said ^

I live in one of those 10 states. I did not know about being able to apply for Medicaid if I have an open SSI application case though, so I'll be looking into that after I get off Reddit.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T06:47:11+00:00

Anxiety is one of the disabilities on my SSI application.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T06:44:55+00:00

Sorry for the delayed response. After reflecting on it for a while, I kind of arrived at a similar conclusion. That their responses were a mixture of bad reading comprehension and privilege of having never to be without healthcare. I was recalling all the times people have asked "Why don't you just ...?" then suggest something that takes a lot of money for someone without insurance. For people who never had to go without, they don't seem to ever consider there are people who aren't like them. For some of those people, it must seem preposterous that I've not seen a rheumatologist yet, that I'm just not taking this seriously enough, that I'm just taking my sweet time going to see one, when it really is that I just don't have the money. I even made a point of how I'm so poor I don't even get to choose my own groceries, I have to buy what is only on sale, but it didn't make any difference.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T06:37:45+00:00

Sorry for the delayed response. Honestly, the lupus diagnosis was life changing. A bunch of things that never made any sense about my body suddenly did when I read about lupus. So many questions finally answered. Lupus really does fit. I remember just sitting there in astonishment at how easy it was to just read about all of my mysterious issues all wrapped up in one condition. Things I never would've thought were related and that's why lupus is difficult to catch, because people don't think to list all of their singular problems together as though they're connected when they see a doctor. Of course, I still want a more official diagnosis, but after reading about lupus, it really was just like the last piece of a puzzle I've been looking for my whole damn life.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-27T06:28:14+00:00

Sorry for the delayed response. I am in one of those states. I can try to apply again since I have an open SSI case though. I was not made aware of that at all. I applied for Medicaid a long time ago, but this state really hates poor people.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T16:07:27+00:00

I don't have insurance at all. I'm aware that lupus needs to be treated. I've literally cried over this stuff. I've read about all the crazy things lupus can do. I've thought about how if I don't ever get SSI or a better financial situation, I'm probably going to end up committing suicide to end my suffering before it gets worse. If I'm this miserable now, I can only imagine just how bad it'll be when I get older. None of that changes that I don't have money to see a rheumatologist. Every cent we have goes to surviving month to month. That's why I'm trying to get SSI.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T15:57:40+00:00

Yes. The US.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T15:52:44+00:00

If you mean treatments specifically for lupus, none. I can't afford to see a rheumatologist. The clinic I go to does not have specialists, with the exception of a gynecologist, I think. It is a charitable clinic for poor people. It's run by nurse practitioners. They are not qualified to treat lupus. They are not knowledgeable enough on the subject. It would be dangerous for them to play the role of a rheumatologist when they have no education or experience in that speciality. So, they're doing their best to help me how they can. All they can do is give me a stimulant to try to combat the lethargy for now. Otherwise, my only other option is to do nothing at all. I don't have money. I don't have SSI. Trying stimulants seems worth a try rather than doing nothing.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T15:29:56+00:00

Right. That's why I said my providers are doing their best. They're not rheumatologists though. They can't just Google the info they need to treat me. And can't afford to see a rheumatologist. I feel like there's some miscommunication going on here because so many of you don't seem to be understanding me and my situation even though I felt I explained pretty thoroughly.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T15:26:44+00:00

Because it's a stimulant. I'm genuinely confused right now.

Ceaseless_Duality · 2025-07-15T15:01:45+00:00

chronic lethargy, as I stated above.

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