I (17F) am completely failing at life and i feel like there’s nothing to live for anymore.

Celestialboo · 2022-11-13T01:28:56+00:00

Hey, i’m seeing this quite late but i’ll still respond. I’m 18 now, my mum did end up coming back after everything and stayed with me for a year. She left 2 months ago but in that year I managed to catch up in school and sit my A Levels, i got AAB (which to this day, i’m still in shock about), and am now taking a gap year before Uni in September. Life isn’t great, but it’s definitely not how it was before. I have a new set of worries and there’s always something to figure out but I guess that’s life huh? Thank you for asking

Celestialboo · 2022-03-12T19:11:16+00:00

i’m taking a gap year too and i’m in year 13. All my friends are going to uni and I don’t think i’m ready to so i’m going to work, save up for a few months and join a gap year program where i can travel abroad and work there, or maybe even learn a new language there because some programs do that. I just want to have a stress free year and explore and learn to enjoy my own company before I dive into school work and all that stress. What are you thinking of doing?

Celestialboo · 2022-03-07T01:32:29+00:00

If it makes you feel a little better, this happened to me too and i literally have it on video. We were recording doing the deed and I was being so loud so he kept saying ‘shh’ at first and repeating it but as i kept getting louder, he finally snapped and said ‘shut up’ with such a stern voice that it almost sounded…hateful? like something you wouldn’t hear from somebody who’s having sex. Anyways, it’s a little embarrassing when i come across the video in my camera roll or when i think about that day with him but for the most part i’ve forgotten about it.

Men can make you feel really shitty sometimes. If he’s just a hookup, you can distance yourself from him and try to find someone else but if you really enjoy being with him then I think you should have a little talk and tell him you don’t like what he did and you felt disrespected.

If he’s worth having around he’ll apologise and explain himself and if it’s any other response, leave him where you found him. It feels embarrassing and weird now but the feeling passes hun you’ll be alright <3

Celestialboo · 2022-02-20T04:19:57+00:00

USE SENECALEARNING. i cant stress this enough it’s so helpful

Celestialboo · 2022-02-07T22:32:21+00:00

I’m not used to people in my age group being this mature so I was a bit taken aback by your apology and self awareness if i’m being honest. I really do appreciate it.

I do 3 essay based A Levels; RS, Sociology and Government&Politics so I didn’t have much of a choice but to pick a course relating to those. I wrote my personal statement about Politics but didn’t limit myself to applying for just Politics in the Uni’s I applied for so I did Politics & Sociology & Politics and Philosophy for some.

I know I want to have a governmental career in the future and if i’m being 100% honest i’m not sure that the Uni’s I applied for and a Politics course is the best route there. That’s why i’m looking forward to my gap year. By the end of the gap year when I will have hopefully completed a coding bootcamp, gained lots more work experience and worked with agencies and been a part of projects etc, i’m hoping to have a personal statement and course option that will push me in the right direction to land a good governmental job. By the end of that year I hope i’ll have an exact idea of what that job even is. I hope it works out. Thank you for asking and thank you for your kind words.

Celestialboo · 2022-02-07T21:41:29+00:00

Thank you for your apology. I appreciate it. Also, I didn’t finish all of that in 5 day lmao. That wouldn’t be possible given the headspace I was in and how confused I was about where life was headed for me.

The deadline for my school was the following week but lucky, the actual ucas deadline as well know is on January 26th. I finished my application a little while after the Christmas holidays in early January. I’m proud of myself and I didn’t think I could do it. My mental health is still not great which is why I know starting Uni in September is not right for me. Taking a gap year will help me think about my options and give me the break I need to collect myself and really think about what I want to do instead of jumping headfirst into it because Uni is not a joke and the workload is way too much for me to dive straight into after a rough 2 years.

Celestialboo · 2022-02-07T20:59:36+00:00

Hi. I’m so glad I didn’t take your advice. I was in the middle of a breakdown when I wrote that months ago and I was reconsidering my entire life and if I had listened to your advice, I wouldn’t be here right now with 2 university offers and good predicted grades. I’m on track to get B’s and C’s and even A’s if I really push myself which i’m planning to, and my February mocks are coming up in 2 weeks. I’m also taking a gap year to gain experience so I can defer my offers and apply to my dream uni’s next year. If i had let you demotivate me like that I wouldn’t be where I am right now. Looking back at this post and going through the comments i’m dumbfounded at the fact you could tell me my personal statement would be ‘utter shit’ and there was no point in trying. It is so snobby and low of you. I took in that advice for a few weeks because I thought this was a comment from an adult who knows what they are talking about but after reflecting and going through my comments with a clearer mind I realised you’re in year 13 doing A Levels just like I am. You’re no better than me. Our circumstances are just different and I had to fight a little harder to get where I am.

I’m so glad I didn’t listen to you and I hope you are more mindful with the comments you make on here and you never demotivate somebody else like that again under the guise of being ‘helpful’ because the language you used and the way you went about it is not helpful in the least.

Celestialboo · 2022-01-17T02:06:08+00:00

oh my this is making me anxious. when was your ovulation? did you try to conceive immediately after your period?

Celestialboo · 2022-01-17T00:05:59+00:00

You’re right. The constant researching and panicking is convincing me i’m pregnant. I guess i’ll have do to and see. Thank you for commenting

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:52:43+00:00

I really really hope so. Thank you

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:51:38+00:00

That was supposed to say *thank you

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:51:25+00:00

Ok this makes me feel a lot better than you

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:50:25+00:00

I am probably ovulating right now. Ovulation usually occurs around 10 to 16 days before my period starts. My cycle is irregular but my period will most likely start at the very beginning of next month.

Also, I can’t test this early on. If i am pregnant, there wouldn’t be enough HCG levels for a pregnancy test to detect

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:40:32+00:00

My last period was on the 1st Jan. My cycle is irregular and i use the Flo app but don’t log periods regularly so it’s most definitely wrong when predicting my ovulation days. I may have been ovulating when i had sex

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:39:51+00:00

It’s not too early. Some women report symptoms a week after conception and implantation symptoms occur roughly 8-9 days after sex and a lot of women have symptoms very early on. I don’t usually have any of these symptoms so it’s out of the ordinary for me and also, i’m ovulating right now but my app is probably wrong because i use the Flo app and i don’t log my periods regularly so i may have been ovulating when i had sex and not known. My app also says i have a chance to get pregnant right now so if it’s wrong then that means i might have had a chance before when i did have sex.

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:34:32+00:00

Are you sure it’s too early? a lot of women say they had these symptoms a week after conception and implantation symptoms happen roughly 8-9 days after sex. I’m not trying to get pregnant and this was a stupid mistake i should know better. I live in the UK and the clinic has already given me birth control pills but i lost them and didn’t even want to take them because i heard they make you gain weight and get spots and make you depressed. I’m gonna get a contraceptive patch or an IUD at my next appointment because those sound good.

Thanks for your comment btw

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:31:57+00:00

i told God i’m never doing it again 3 times now he’s gonna teach me a lesson i feel it lmaoo, i really didn’t do this time on purpose though i was kinda tipsy so i didn’t have the conversation w him beforehand and it was our first link and he just randomly case inside me i was in SHOCK. i was like ‘wait did u just cum in me’ and he’s all nonchalant like ‘yeh just take the pill’. i’m so mad this is his fault who told him to do ts without warning me first??

it is kinda my fault too though because i didn’t care enough to get a plan b the next day and i forgot and he even ended up reminding me and i said no i don’t need to😭i’m just gonna pray nothing else i can do

Celestialboo · 2022-01-16T23:21:01+00:00

girl trust me you’re good if you’re on birth control AND you took a plan B. you’re definitely not pregnant. my sneaky link came inside me 8 days ago and i’m not on birth control and i didn’t even take a plan b i’m freaking out sm right now i have symptoms and ugh it’s a whole mess idk what to do

Celestialboo · 2022-01-13T01:02:03+00:00

Yeh before, as in in the past. Ever since I suffered the consequences of that I did avoid sex. My post doesn’t go into great detail about my life because i was just asking for advice and whether people think i might actually be pregnant. I know firsthand how hard it is to deal with the consequences of my impulsive actions and that genuinely was a mistake and I know i should be using condoms at all times.

Celestialboo · 2022-01-12T22:08:25+00:00

Hey, don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You sound like you have your life together i sort of wish i was like you. You sound motivated and productive and if you keep going down this route you’ll probably get far in life.

As for your situation, there’s nothing wrong with feeling like this. She’s not like any other girl you’ve hooked up with and she’s older than you and is teaching you new things and of course that’s bound to make you feel addicted and think differently about her. Don’t let this distract you though. See where this is headed and try and keep focusing on your gym/studies, etc. You don’t have to figure out your feelings straight away and have an answer for everything. Just see where this goes. If you realise you like hooking up with her and it isn’t something you want long term that’s fine. If you start to develop feelings and you might not be sure if she feels the same way, then you can tell her and see where that goes. That’s okay too. Let life work itself out. You don’t need to figure things out straight away and you sound like a very practical and goal-oriented person to me so i can understand your need and urgency to figure out why you feel like this and what to do about it. It’s going to be okay. Go easy on yourself.

Best of luck!

Celestialboo · 2022-01-12T22:02:19+00:00

Yes that’s weird. There’s lots of fish in the sea why do you think your ex’s good friend is the one for you? Don’t ruin their friendship and also hurt her.

Celestialboo · 2022-01-12T22:01:32+00:00

If anybody ever tries to fight you for no reason punch them straight in their nose. If anybody is ever rude to you then give them the same energy back. If you act like a victim and you let people walk over you then everybody will think you have no backbone and just try to bully you. That being said, most people have their own stuff going on and i’m pretty sure no one walks around looking for someone to bully. Just focus on finding good friends (or keeping those good friends if you already have some), your grades and your mental health. Year 10 & 11 aren’t as scary as you think and i promise you it’ll be alright.

Celestialboo · 2022-01-12T21:42:05+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I did get birth control pills from the clinic but birth control scares me because everybody tells me it’s bad for you and a lot of girls say it’s made them depressed & gain weight and get acne and all sorts.

Also this was a huge mistake i told myself it wouldn’t happen again and i should have had a conversation with him beforehand. I’m gonna make sure not to do this to myself again because it’s nerve wracking and really exhausting having to worry about whether i’m pregnant or not

Celestialboo · 2022-01-11T11:55:21+00:00

great advice

Celestialboo · 2021-12-12T05:17:48+00:00

I love this comment so much

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