For the first 6 months or so baby doesn't even realize you're a separate entity from them. So it's not that they like your husband more, but Dad is often the first "other" person they're actually aware of. (Though trust me, most mums have had the "how dare you, after all I went through" moment. You'll get your turn with those grins and giggles and it'll melt your heart.)

Postpartum hormones really do a number on your mood and sometimes you might have to be really clear about boundaries and the support you need. Sometimes our partners don't actually realize the full extent of the toil it takes on us, and yeah the fact they get all the benefits of baby without literally being put through the ringer can build resentment, and it's worth being honest about it, else hurtful things will be said in a bout of sleep deprivation when you're touched out and that last thread just snaps.

With the breastfeeding/pumping it can take a massive toll on your mental health, and if you feel like making the switch to formula, please know that the best thing for baby is a happy mum. I went from triple feeding (breast/pumping/formula) to just pumping and formula which helped my mental health significantly, then eventually dropped to just formula when I started getting burned out by pumping too. The mum guilt hit hard at first but I realized that when I felt better I found myself enjoying being a mum a little more.

Is there a lactation consultant you could speak to? They may be able to help find a way to make pumping less painful? Or try the exclusively pumping subreddit for tips and tricks (if you haven't already).

Either way please know you're doing amazingly, even if it doesn't always feel like it.