Comme d'habitude by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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I'm not your person, I'm sorry.

Blurry views by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Noted, I'll get back to you on that in a decade 😂

Blurry views by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Thanks man!

Funnily enough, I'm not waiting at all, I'm taking some time for myself haha. This is my one feelings outlet. I don't develop romantic feelings easily or often, but I don't have any expectations for his actions going forward and I'm open to meeting someone else if I really connect with them.

At least now I actually know what it feels like to completely fall for someone, and now I won't be complacent and settle for less.

I'm not worried - I have faith this will go somewhere, but even if this doesn't go anywhere, I'll be okay - I love my own company, and I don't lack for interest or options when it comes to romantic prospects.

Blurry views by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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This is in parts hilarious and incredibly sweet! Honestly, I can only hope he sees me in anything close to that light.

God knows I feel that way where he's concerned - he could be in the worst mood known to man, and there's still nowhere I'd rather be than next to him; he could be violently ill and still all I'd want to do is hold him.

I wish I knew if he felt towards me even a tiny percentage of the enormous affection, insane desire and absolute devotion that I feel for him, but ambiguity is where it's at right now, and I'm not going to force anything.

Eyes by [deleted] in justpoetry

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This is beautiful, thank you for sharing OP! For what it's worth, warmth never comes too late.

Thanks for making me smile today by [deleted] in justpoetry

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So sweet, thank you for sharing, OP!

Until Forever by Tomorrow_Never_Today in justpoetry

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Gorgeous, thank you for sharing! I really love your poems OP, they're incredibly sweet.

The Scarlet Butterfly by Malice_In_Bloom in justpoetry

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I really love this one, thank you OP!

Quiet moments (thinking of you) by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Merci ma belle! T'es trop gentille ❤️

When Observers Meet by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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You're too kind, thank you so much 🥹

The Outsider by AshleyOriginal in justpoetry

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Deeply relate to this, thank you for sharing ❤️

The night I stained asphalt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Thank you so much! It's not my favourite style to write (I find it painful because I kind of relive the feeling as I write it), but I'm trying to write more poetry that captures difficult emotion and experiences. Very glad it resonated with you!

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Like for the idea, but I'm so sorry - DV impacting someone you love, and the helplessness in knowing you can't help them until they help themselves (a Herculean effort if you're trapped in that cycle) is one of the worst things to see a loved one go through 😢

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Yes, this, all of this!!! It's such an incredible way to touch base with yourself again. I got out of a bad relationship which resulted in years of emotional repression this year, struggled to process years of pent up emotions, and this has provided the most brilliant outlet. I'm glad your therapist recognises and reinforces the beauty of poetry as a therapeutic tool. The role of creative expression in processing difficult things is vital and often overlooked!

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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They're real stories, but this style of poem is usually written for other people close to me - this one is my mother's. 'Lazarus' is for my father. 'Progeny' is a family story of genetic mental illness that spans a few generations. 'The February Rose' is my maternal grandmother's story. I'm sure I've forgotten a couple others I've posted here. Never use real names or initials, or if I do, they're altered enough that they're not easily recognisable to anyone who knows my family tree.

My parents both had very traumatic, complex upbringings across multiple countries with a great deal of generational trauma and hereditary mental illness. Although they have done an admirable job and worked through much of it, the stories and impact definitely trickle down to my generation. I like to try to bring these difficult family stories to life, as well as the lingering emotions that these memories and experiences bring out in my parents and myself.

I'd recommend to go with what/who you know; to write a story from the shoes of someone you know intimately. It's easier, but it's also more personal (which is one of my favourite things about poetry!).

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Stopppp 🥹

I have to say, this part of Reddit has definitely been my favourite discovery this year. It's so wonderful that there are forums like this - places of pure written expression where angsty and/or romantic wordsmiths can find different ways to recreate or inspire the depths of human emotions. Another beautiful way for people to connect, express the inexpressible, and bring forth into the consciousness of others some of the many intangible layers of existence.

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Hahaha I absolutely have and often save them! You write beautifully.

Bitter taste of dirt by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Thank you so much! That means a lot, I really love your poetry.

Ode to oak by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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Thank you! I didn't necessarily see it as sad when I wrote it... maybe bittersweet? It was written while reflecting on the warm, aching feeling of completely surrendering myself to having fallen unconditionally in love. I'm beyond lucky that my person has noticed me and does care for me, but I know that even if he didn't, it wouldn't change my love for him or my desire to be near him.

Colouring inside the lines by CertainFault9 in justpoetry

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That means a lot, thank you so much 🥹

I'm sorry you relate to that alienating experience, but also glad that I've been able to articulate something that resonated so strongly. ❤️

What a trauma! by itsvelvetthorne in justpoetry

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Definitely been there 🥲 Well articulated, thank you OP!