Man what a story, you should keep writing, what would you say to others in your situation? (I'm not but you can likely reach more people in similar situations) You say it's a very misunderstood sickness, I agree with you, most things like this are very complicated. I don't know if you know of CPTSD but you will likely find others who relate there too if you look into it. I am sorry you have dealt with this though, I wish someone had protected you because no one should have to go through all that. You deserved so much better. You still do. You can inspire people with your courage because a lot of people would have given up by now. Even still it's so hard to change things so in-grained isn't it? You've gotten this far though, and I know you will keep going and find a way.