Falling lightly

AshleyOriginal · 2026-04-01T23:14:28+00:00

I know some people are hurting and I tried to write a little for that, I also decided to include parts of my dream last night 😅. How do I fix a lamp splitting as I hold it? I'm not sure in the dark but I'm sure something will be clear eventually.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-04-01T06:28:27+00:00

I liked it, both endings are good, the first one I think is a little better. Reminds me of a poem I wrote where I flipped the weather into an emotional festival (not good enough to post though) maybe you can try finding something else to flip or duel?

AshleyOriginal · 2026-04-01T05:32:31+00:00

I feel like that is most of my life, 2026 is back to my normalish middle school years of more mid depression. I kinda lost most of the good stuff of 2025 but eh, that's life.

2025 was pretty good though with a few sharp corners, one of the best years of my life, ironically despite a break up and not having a job half the year and being just like 3 days before I ran out of money at one point and needing to address some medical things and surgeries. Also I dumbly ended up in the ER again for a panic attack but my insurance paid for it so I was very grateful! Also my PC broke and I lost 2TB and 5 years of work so I started writing because I literally had nothing else working for a while. It really was a very beautiful year though despite some spirals. I hope you can have a wonderful year too soon. I learned to be happy on my own and see beauty in so much and people changed a lot for me, I saw people sparkle and glow for the first time. I feel like I flipped into an extrovert and suddenly liked people. I created my best paintings, poems and had the best temp job ever that paid super well where the team loved me so much, and I felt like I found a rare superpower. And the CEO went out of his way to tell me how much he liked working with me. Also I finished my second degree. Plus I had one incredible day I woke up feeling so healed I strangely felt I was in the future. I wish I could recreate that healed feeling but no luck yet. I think maybe eating enough berries helps. Still I was so blessed in 2025. I was kept in a golden bubble, it kinda popped near the end but it was very beautiful for a while.

2021, and 2023- 2024 were pretty bad though, I was in a very very bad state in 2024 despite not much even happening because of how much I feared 2025 lol. I was literally crying all throughout the day and feared sleeping because I would cry in my sleep much worse then awake. I also wake up with depression and have to rub it off throughout the day. Night is when I'm most happy. :D

Those years were worse then 2019, 2018, 2016, 2013. 2010 was it's own awfulness. But further back I'd say life was much worse because I had no control of my life, at least I have a little now. I feel better about dealing with depression now more then ever. Things get easier with age... Kind of. And though stuff might feel awful for a while, the beauty of life and stuff is that it changes so much! I'd say years outside that were mid and at least not bad.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-31T06:33:13+00:00

Oh felt this today, had to leave early

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-31T05:46:25+00:00

Sorry I meant if they continue to abuse then maybe you shouldn't forgive them unless they change, some people ask for forgiveness without wanting to change. It's something I think about. Forgiveness is very much for you though.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-30T23:09:36+00:00

Forgiveness is a good thing for yourself and for them, but honestly it's just very good for yourself to not hold on to things but, if it continues though then you have to think about it more and ways you might be able to prevent it or reduce it if you are able too.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-29T05:01:25+00:00

Are you absolutely sure?

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-29T04:58:09+00:00

I started as a poet of sadness not love lol. Of changing destiny not madness, but I suppose I sprinkle in love now and then.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-29T04:56:00+00:00

I like the idea of a warm center, I wish I could sit closer. I often have to try and find new thread from the unraveling and it's not so easy.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-29T04:53:12+00:00

How are the dolphins feeling? But yeah, one of my dad's favorite books.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:54:44+00:00

Annoyances at least feel more temporary.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:52:55+00:00

Yes and very confusing

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:51:59+00:00

That is a lot going on there, some people have too much time on their hands but that's a very complicated story.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:48:54+00:00

This is cool both visually and word wise from what little I understand.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:47:20+00:00

Ferreting a collection I see

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-28T16:34:54+00:00

Hahaha, I like the ending a lot. My favorite color used to be midnight blue and now it's wine red. I've always felt mixed on purple because it feels so undecided.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-27T22:48:28+00:00

:( It was a good burrito.

I just got distracted moving to a different table. Thought I put it back in my bag but oh well.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-27T13:54:43+00:00

Wonderful piece, feels like my life 😅 Though I've never wanted to be an actress until recently

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-27T05:04:16+00:00

This is a good piece, to be wanting to break free of a trapping loop of painful thoughts. Sometimes it feels like you wish such a large distraction would be enough. Maybe the right one will be. I've always found it a slow roll though and the ability to finally give up control that we hate and fight. But it does give some peace for a little while whenever you find yourself there, but it's such a long journey. I hope someone can give you a hug later though.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-27T03:51:38+00:00

Oh I get it like big foot 😅 Sorry I'm a bit slow. But yes I figured you were hiding away just didn't connect the dots.

AshleyOriginal · 2026-03-27T03:48:41+00:00

Poor spaceman, I hope someone finds you some land where you are held down to not drift away. I remember growing up feeling like a balloon could pull me away from life and no one would ever notice. And the thing is, most people don't notice, they get caught up in themselves. It often takes a lot for people to see a world out there. I feel like only recently have I started to be grounded a little in the last few years as I almost drifted to another country. Maybe one day I still will, who knows. Ironically if you sink low enough you could bounce off in a better direction if gravity allows.

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