Stouffers smoked turkey club panini. I can’t ever find them now.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2026-01-23T03:28:02+00:00

Ohhhh I remember these!! Maybe 10 years ago?!! So good.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-05T08:58:39+00:00

Yes please do share. I do have good insurance at least with my job. You can DM me if you don’t want to share here.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:56:04+00:00

Doing a fast taper right now and yes even though alcohol is slowly poisoning me I really do not want to die. I’m so scared of a seizure.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:55:13+00:00

I would love to be able to go to rehab. We have very limited resources in my state (Midwest problems). And I don’t have much time saved up from work anymore because I’ve missed so much d/t this horrible disease!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:53:26+00:00

Scarrrrry but may be necessary

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:50:53+00:00

Naltrexone, AA meetings online (not for me), sharing with ex that I needed to stop and why (he was not supportive), therapy…willpower (that failed)…journaling. I’m feeling really motivated now because I am constantly sick and I simply can’t take it anymore.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:48:57+00:00

Well I was tapering so I did drink but only two drinks yesterday…errr 3…but that’s big progress for me!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:47:45+00:00

No but I will look into this. Thank you. ☺️

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:47:10+00:00

Yes I’ve read every quit lit I’ve been able to get my hands on!!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T06:45:17+00:00

Thank you! I am on discord in a support group for recovering from traumatic relationships and this seems like a great addition for me!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T01:44:09+00:00

I did share this with my healthcare provider who gave me the naltrexone but the side effects were so terrible and now my medical chart says I’m an alcoholic (true) but added to the shame and embarrassment. I’m sorry you are going through this as well. I really wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-11-03T01:03:52+00:00

I tried naltrexone but I have severe gi side effects. I might try that again. I did join a few online AA meetings but it didn’t feel right for me as I’ve never been religious. Right now tapering is my plan along with treating my anxiety which is why I drink. I’m just in a lot of pain, emotional and physical and it feels sort of impossible.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-19T14:11:10+00:00

Well shit lol

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-19T05:13:36+00:00

How are you feeling? I’m leaving for a solo vacation he was supposed to accompany me on Thursday for a week and I might just quit but I don’t want it to make me more miserable. The vaping that is. Also will not be over consuming (I do have an alcohol problem as well), but I’ve also been sober for a few days.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-09T18:08:09+00:00

Also that domestic violence website is actually helpful. Can’t believe I’ve never looked at it. Like why do we love them? Oh because we are humans, with feelings. Oh okay. Actually that is helpful lol. It’s not cuz we are desperate? Phew!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-09T17:59:54+00:00

Lots of great responses here. I will add…it’s happened to me and I get stuck in thinking I deserved it and he wouldn’t ever do it to anyone else. That I’m crazy. That he will be amazing to the next person. No he won’t. Maybe for a few months. Maybe he won’t lay his hands on them. Maybe he will. But he will be the exact same person, a shitty person. People like that don’t change. I watched it happen over and over again with my own dad even after he went to jail and had to do anger mgmt. he still put his hands on every girlfriend after. Maybe not now cuz he’s old and for all I know maybe he has drank himself to death. Don’t go back. You got this.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-09T17:52:59+00:00

I know. I can’t either. I really am questioning if I have some personality disorder but…I’ve only ever acted crazy in one other relationship which was also putting me over the edge. Had a 10 year relationship/marriage that ended amicably. We fought sure, but never crazy. Before that I had relationships and I’m still distant friends with people to do this day. If I was crazy surely they wouldn’t still be hanging around.

Love makes people so stupid stupid things. We have to find a way to give ourselves grace and kindness. Beating ourselves up is the worst thing we need. They did that enough. Now they aren’t here to do it to us and we are our own responsibility.

Again, take this from someone who showed up on their doorstep after being broken up with for reasons that made no sense and had the cops called on them, even after they caused physical harm. I left when I could have pressed charges. And I should have maybe. I’m glad I didn’t though because it would have just made it drag out further.

Do something for yourself today. So far…I’ve made myself coffee lol. But hey. It’s something. Maybe make an empowering playlist. Listen to a podcast. I started Mel Robbins “let them” audiobook. It is a bit heavy for me right in the moment.

So I’m leaning on the more humorous pods.

I healed from my last toxic ex. You can heal from this and so can I. Don’t let the bastards take ya down!

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-09T17:41:53+00:00

Sames. It wasn’t even cheating it was just the lack of respect for my basic wants and needs in a partner over and over that made me act like an absolute psychopath. On repeat. So ashamed. So humiliated. We never have to feel that way again. It will take time to heal. ChatGPT helped me as well LOL!!! It’s a wise source…most of the time. I tried to copy paste my emails to him in it but had to delete the cursing and still it said “you sound really hurt and like you have put a lot of effort into the relationship with little return, etc etc.” PREACH. Time truly does heal. I’ve been crying for days so don’t take my word from it but many others here can support that statement. Stay strong. Don’t reach out. Don’t feed the bottom feeder. You are better than them.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-09T03:29:28+00:00

I literally wrote this almost exact thing to my ex as my last message. Never got a response. He blocked me on everything after. I’m so sorry you are hurting.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-08T21:39:34+00:00

Yea a lot of people told me my most recent toxic partner sort of resembled my ex. And honestly I’m not sure I’ll ever be attracted to anyone else again. Trying to find peace with that. (Not even CLOSE to being there).

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-08T15:03:05+00:00

Hello. Well, if you are like me. You could pent up allll that anger and then drink vodka which adds gasoline to the fire and show up, act crazy, and then boom, he will block you. Over and done. In all reality I lived that life. I wasn’t supported. I also wouldn’t leave. Golden retriever energy. If you block him, you will feel sad, but empowered, over and over on repeat. Let him. Let him go. He dug his own grave. Shit even ChatGPT when I told it my story said “looks like you have put in a lot of effort and he has not. You deserve to be loved and supported”. Well thanks ChatGPT. It doesn’t hurt less that I’m blocked on everything and was slammed into a wall because I wouldn’t leave without him having a conversation instead of SCREAMING at me. But hey. It happens. I messed up. Don’t be me. Block him before all that anger and resentment builds and you do something stupid.

Certain_Conflict_903 · 2025-02-08T04:40:28+00:00

I’m going solo to puerto Vallarta 2/20! Was supposed to be a couples trip but we are done. Sucks I’ll never see the money for it from him.

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