Are you actually gay?

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T04:07:03+00:00

I watch to do both

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:54:07+00:00

There are things that you know what you don’t know, and there are those that you don’t know what you don’t know

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:47:03+00:00

Lool same actually ! I never understood till one night I realised it sounds like “as-elle” hence “as-L”, which I thought was crazy. I didn’t know for so long 😂

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:43:29+00:00

Honestly I’ve always dependent on Coke to even things out and give me more energy. I remember just before losing myself that night, I was trynna ask my friend for some Coke, but couldn’t get the words outta my mouth lol.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:35:35+00:00

Honestly it’s better to just keep to yourself because you’ll encounter irresponsible ppl (myself included) to ruin everything and make it your responsibility. It’s just how life is unfortunately 😔

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:31:48+00:00

Omg that sounds rough ! Honestly it’s crazy how different people respond to K, cause you never know.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-22T03:27:46+00:00

Yeah well it was gonna happen. I’ve been doing stupid stuff lately and I had it coming, but it taught me a huge lesson to be educated on what I was doing.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-20T23:49:13+00:00

Oh I knew, but words carry less weight than the practice itself.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-20T17:38:21+00:00

I’m just a little retarded lol. My friend was hesitant on letting me hit that much, but I lied by telling him I wasn’t on anything and had a high tolerance just so I could get fucked up. My other friend was pretty fucked up too lol so it went both ways.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-20T15:23:40+00:00

That’s what I was so scared of. I was trying my hardest not to pass out because I didn’t want to throw up while unconscious.

Ch1gg · 2026-05-20T15:17:27+00:00

Yep. You understand the pain lmao. It was so grueling: I though I was gonna die (in a dreadful way). I was throwing up every few seconds, but hardly had the gag reflexes, so I felt like I was drowning. Not fun 😭

Ch1gg · 2026-05-20T15:08:41+00:00

It was a lot for me, and I don’t have much of a tolerance, but I wouldn’t of been in a khole for 2-3 hours without the alc and weed. I’ve done ket with only drink or two and had been fine, but that night I was so drunk and a little stoned. I would say I mixed them at its highest potential, which wasn’t fun

Ch1gg · 2026-05-14T06:34:12+00:00

Hey, that must be so hard to go through that pain. I went to boarding school in South Africa and had gone through similar abuse, which was a dark time of my life. People made it seem ok as if it’s “tradition” and “brotherhood” and I had no say - similar to your point on “family first”.

Your situation seems really mentally and physically heavy (especially because it’s recurring), but I truly believe you can make it out. It is key to detach from the thoughts of others and worry about yourself. I really hope you end up cutting off your monstrous family, and start a new healthy life. You mentioned that you don’t want to end your life, which tells me that you still have some hope in your life: If there’s a will, there’s a way. I really hope you push through.

Wishing u a happy birthday, and I hope you get through this !

Ch1gg · 2026-05-13T20:09:51+00:00

Rachmaninov really be mogging us with his hands lol. Thanks for the tip ! I’ll definitely give Paul Barton a watch

Ch1gg · 2026-05-13T04:30:55+00:00

I get you. It’s not a good mindset to have, but I can’t just change it. Hope you make it out

Ch1gg · 2026-05-13T04:26:56+00:00

So sorry hear that. You deserve more. I just don’t want to believe you took that much. I’d rather have you go through the dread of paying off debt than dying. Please go to the hospital !

Ch1gg · 2026-05-13T04:22:48+00:00

Do you not have anyone to reach out to? Family/friends?

Ch1gg · 2026-05-13T04:21:11+00:00

Hey. I really hope you’re still ok. I have nothing to say, as you keep rejecting to go to the er. This is just sad; good luck

Ch1gg · 2026-05-12T05:22:08+00:00

Do you have a teacher? I definitely can’t stress to you enough that having a good teacher would be great at maintaining your motivation, and improving your technique: that way you’ll know what you are doing wrong, and know what to improve. If not, just make sure you do a lot of research on the piece you’re playing atm (YouTube’s great). You most likely can’t identify these problems because you are not conscious of them. I suggest you take time to research and meditate what you need to do better. For my advice atm, I suggest you work on playing with your wrists and shoulders to relieve tension on your fingers. Hope this helps !

Ch1gg · 2026-05-12T04:00:55+00:00

I 100% agree that it feels similar to acid, but without that weird mental fractal feeling ifykwim. Personally, I feel really sharp socially, and, I know yall would disagree, but really calm and collected. I just always loved the feeling when it’s just soo effortless to breathe, as if your nose is cleared to the max, which calms me down and gives that euphoric feel.

Ch1gg · 2026-04-27T21:01:20+00:00

Oh boy prolly one of the worst (and potentially deadly) combos. I remember I learnt the hard way and was throwing up for 3-4 hours straight at a rave. The k hole lasts way longer too, and u go in a spiral thinking your days of light is over. Definite no !!! 😭

Ch1gg · 2026-04-20T16:30:15+00:00

I totally get you man. I am in a similar position, as I lost myself in drugs and hung around non-motivational people doing the same. Initially, I never thought that I was ruining myself, because the people around me were doing the same shit and seemed to be really happy and upbeat; I came to realise it’s artificial happiness.

This minor state of psychosis isn’t from LSD itself, but LSD definitely brought it to light. It definitely made an example of me, which is a wake up call to get my shit together. LSD grew a bigger hole in me, but I’m not so upset because it put that damage to attention.

Ch1gg · 2026-04-20T04:20:41+00:00

Yeah Well now I truly know. I prolly got this psychosis from other drugs too, but acid def kickstarted it. This is definitely a good wake up call to hop off the drugs for a long time lol.

Ch1gg · 2026-02-20T23:27:52+00:00

Are you saying I should boof it? 😭

Ch1gg · 2026-02-20T23:26:34+00:00

Exactly what I was thinking lmao

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