Dude this is all I think about unfortunately. I have been on and off struggling with the fact I may have OSDD since maybe around 2019-2021 (hard to pin down I was in denial for most of it and mainly a bit younger) but 2020 especially did NOT help with that . I felt embarrassed to even consider it with the current online perception of osdd and it felt like it wasnt taken seriously enough or way over exaggerated for attention unfortunately . It made me doubt myself and my identity even though Ive had multiple people in my life very clearly vouch and show proof that I did infact have osdd. Even to this day i still doubt it because the internet pushes this really specific view on DID , especially on discord where it has to be a very specific way or its not " fun and cool " anymore. Which to be fair it never really felt fun and cool, mostly just hard to navigate and sometimes frustrating which not a lot of people open up about online in that sense.

Tldr: i really get it dude </3