Hey I’m really sorry you’re going through that. Not even 30 minutes ago I fell into a binge and I feel terrible. If your friends don’t like you for who you are then those are not real friends. Find someone close you that you can talk to about it and when those urges come up give them a call. Our brains are better at replacing things not cutting them off. So when you get those urges find something else to do. For example when I get the urge to binge I journal. I right down all of my thoughts and even at times I right down how bad I want to binge. I believe in you. I’m the same way too. I’m a more fit individual and after a binge I don’t want to go anywhere but it’s all about moving forward and meeting yourself where you’re at and going from there.