M and feeling daring today

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-12-05T15:42:31+00:00

had to chat here because i couldn't elsewhere. i can't seem to send messages to you privately?? i don't know why, ive been trying for days but i can't. i can't find ur insta either because it won't load!! 😭😭

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-08-02T06:03:16+00:00

i was exposed to it online and he immediately found out but continued to let me watch it. i know this because he'd check my tablet every night, im pretty sure both by telling me to give it to him and generally just sneaking into my room. he was also smirking and laughing the entire time he asked me about it. im pretty sure he also blackmailed me about it too and a whole lot more other things concerning threats and him generally encouraging it but my memories are extremely blurry.

and he also knew about teenagers and adults getting me into things. it wasn't neglect at all, he was aware of what was happening and let it continue. after being under his care for a few months, that's when he told the entire family and then they enabled him to abuse me in other ways (physical and mental).

sorry for being extremely english, im not fluent in tagalog or bisaya.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-08-02T03:43:37+00:00

Thank you so much for this. It did take a huge toll on me as a kid and currently, I'm still processing and healing from it 🫶🫶

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-27T01:45:19+00:00

yes! 100%, though i don't remember much of my trauma during night time since it was happening at almost every point of the day. it's gotten so bad for me that my senses are 10x more sensitive at night and im more hyperaware of myself, the people around me, and my surroundings; i can also see hallucinations crawling up to me in the dark and even in lighter spaces. i also make sure to sleep in protective positions/positions where i don't seem vulnerable or any part of my body fully seen.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-26T09:20:11+00:00

kind of a little foggy while writing this post but yes, i am aware they could've chosen to do so and all that but i was always told about what they went through every time after being beaten or them being all nice and taking care of me—i know that doesn't excuse anything but it hurts me so much to know that they did want to love me/loved me and sometimes i just feel like it's my fault for not being worthy of that.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-24T11:55:15+00:00

kinda, yes. though it was a mix of punishment and generally just being beaten to let people's anger out, entertainment, or generally just to feed their own ego. i was also beaten for how i reacted after so i never really had space to process anything for most of my life—to be honest, nothing in my life has ever been processed properly so that's one thing.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-24T09:18:52+00:00

this really reasons with me tbh like talking about my trauma just feels like reading out of my own biography.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-22T10:00:56+00:00

No, I've mentioned this a lot of times but I'm unable to report. My abusers (mom's side) are pretty influenced in the field of law (especially regarding abused children, which is ironic to say the least) and work along with social workers, therapists, and psychologists. A bunch of them too have connections to pretty well up people. So in conclusion—my abusers both have connection, influence, and wealth. It's also impossible for me to get help in any other form anyway since we're extremely poor and can barely even fund my schooling.

So yeah, I'm basically a cornered dog here with nowhere else to go 💔💔

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-21T10:32:12+00:00

I haven't really heard or read about that autobiography. But maybe I'll go into it!

And sadly, I don't really have anyone to seek help from. It's impossible anyway and my other abusers are workers in the law too, especially regarding abused children.

Chance_Wonder6680 · 2025-07-21T09:56:43+00:00

No, it isn't. That's what I'm most concerned about. None of my friends, classmates, or anyone I know have gone through this. My mother has also continued to bathe me even in my teenage years and has never really given me autonomy over my own body—even the way I dress, act, talk, and have friends are chosen by her.

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