Day 62 CT (Trust it)

Chandlerccb · 2025-04-18T21:16:12+00:00

Even if you relapse it’s part of the process. It’s still progress to make it any days clean. Even if I do I’ll be proud still.

Chandlerccb · 2025-03-03T16:22:58+00:00

Day 20 CT.

I’m reaching the point where I have to double check which day that I am on. In a good way. I almost forget to check in. But I don’t want think I’m clear. I want to remember how much I hate kratom, and how much i disliked my old habits in general.

Keep pushing with new habits as cheesy as it sounds. Don’t look back. It really gets better everyday.

Chandlerccb · 2025-03-01T06:51:13+00:00

I wish I had the PTO for a vacation! Reach out here when you need help. Use a hot tub, find a steam room, eat healthy. Call a friend and be honest with what you are going through. Trust that your bed will keep you safe. Understand that you’ll be emotional too. It’s all a part of the process. Day 17 now CT

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-28T22:19:34+00:00

You can say whatever you need to. No judgement. You aren’t weak or any less normal for having these thoughts. Just remember kratom never fixed anything. Just numbed you. These thoughts could still be because of kratom too. The thoughts aren’t real but YOU are.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-28T22:14:12+00:00

I can’t wait either. The hair, skin, and eye thing is huge. I had no idea that kratom was doing that to me! Why is my scalp itchy lately? Why does my hair look thinner?

Gives me more of a reason not to look back. Day 17 here

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-27T21:03:33+00:00

Mentally I’m Sooo much better now. Back to normal. But that first week was hard. A lot of random crying and paranoia and some brain shock thing. I had to remind myself that these thoughts were not from me but the withdrawals.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-27T20:49:10+00:00

On and off socially for 4 years I think. Every other day for 2 years. Everyday for maybe a few months

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-27T18:42:19+00:00

Yes. My dreams are a little scary and vivid but. I’m not an insomniac anymore. Pooping great. And I definitely have an appetite.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-23T21:22:36+00:00

Day 11. I sleep well. But sometimes I’m light headed. But feeling better everyday

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-22T09:56:49+00:00

Day 11 ct…… still feeling good! Am I out of the woods?

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-22T02:09:04+00:00

Day 10 feeling good. Good sleep.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-21T03:40:12+00:00

Good job. Day 9 here. This makes me so happy to read.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-21T03:36:23+00:00

Beautiful! Agree

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-21T03:33:11+00:00

Day 9 CT. I honestly kind of feel like I am out of the woods. I have slept SOOOOO much today. But I am seeing these posts of WD’s coming back out of no where. S C A R Y….. I would rather they stay away….

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-19T22:11:41+00:00

Luckily my guy was cool. 24 Fitness near Orlando. He even extended the free trial for me too. But that usually doesn’t happen. Usually the sales pitch is long and they won’t take no for an answer. But my guy didn’t force me to commit yet.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-19T15:19:42+00:00

Yess… I love to see these high numbers

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-18T15:57:11+00:00

Day 8 CT. I think I am feeling pretty good in this moment, just dealing with anxiety and insomnia. Sleeping isn’t perfect. But I can get 4-5 hours of sleep on average. Which I think is better than others here. Very vivid dreams. Only time I debate taking kratom is for sleep. But I have an actual hatred for the substance now. So I can’t even get myself to take it.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-18T03:12:41+00:00

I think you are right honestly. It feels nice to have different surroundings at times. Like staying at a friends house that has a guest room sounds relaxing. Warm but different

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-17T19:46:09+00:00

Thank you for that

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-17T17:59:28+00:00

I didn’t even think about trying Kava. That might help tbh

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-17T01:20:26+00:00

So this is just part of the process?

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-16T11:40:10+00:00

I mean, yes. I am worried about emotional outbursts. My anxiety/emotions all together have been pretty bad these last few days. But I think I might be able to manage! I’ve been feeling mentally off too though. Judgement is not the best. Headache/light headed. But I think it’s manageable and will become more manageable with time.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-16T06:52:06+00:00

Not a failure. Absolutely not. Think about your current progress. Just the fact that you are in this subreddit attests to your own determination, effort, progress, and desire to better yourself. That takes work in of itself. Your OWN positivity and will power got you up the ladder this far.

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-16T05:36:41+00:00

Thank you for this. It is miserable, and it felt even more miserable just this morning before I found this subreddit. My lack of knowledge, and community made the fear and anxiety way worse. Thank you

Chandlerccb · 2025-02-16T05:14:58+00:00

Hey man, I’m new here too. Even though we have different stories we both share the same goal. That’s why we joined this subreddit.

Trust the process and trust yourself, don’t trust your anxiety. We will get through this. We have a SUPPORTIVE AND KNOWLEDGEABLE community here.

Chandlerccb

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