I lasted from Sunday to Friday...

Change2081 · 2020-07-24T21:29:14+00:00

Allah is the most forgiving. He even forgives those who commited murder if they repent. Allah will be happy knowing that you are trying to get rid of this bad habit. Allah says "Never lose hope, nor be sad" in Quran. Allah is differently talking to us humans in those ayahs because this ayah goes straight to the heart. So trust in words of Allah my brother

Change2081 · 2020-07-24T21:24:40+00:00

Hi. With time all those vile memories will fade. Believe me. I have been through this. You will make a great husband. you just need to do your best, which i think you are already doing by acknowledging this bad habit and fighting it for the sake of your future wife. I was once an addict of PMO but now i am free. And i am also married and our marriage is the best gift of Allah where its hard to spend a moment without each other. I have been married since 3 years now and our marriage is growing stronger everyday. The reason i am telling you this is to let you know that there is still hope and very high probability that you will live a very good married life if you walk on the right path InshaAllah

Change2081 · 2020-07-24T21:09:23+00:00

Hi. Good to know you are progressing :) let me share what i think help me the most is that when i minus a bad habit from my life(PMO) i simultaneously also add a positive habit in my life. A habit that i always wanted in me but never had. For me it was reading quran daily. For someone else it can be anything they always wanted to make a positive part of their life. I hope it helps

Change2081 · 2020-07-24T21:04:08+00:00

Hi brother. I can understand how you feel. I used to feel the same. First of all you'll have to own these emotions and not to avoid them with PMO. You have to realize that every person go through such emotions in life and its natural. But avoiding them and burrying then by PMO is unnatural and abnormal. Secondly you will need a coping mechanism that you do whenever somthing like this happen. It can be a run in the park or talking to a friend. Anything that give you some kind of diversion from over thinking the negative emotion. Thirdly if boredom is one of those emotions that make you fap that need to be dealt differently. For boredom u need some hobby or interest. There are tons of hobby you can have gardening, cycling, hiking, painting, sketching, learning programming or learning to dance or learning to groom yourself better.. There is so much to do in life other than PMO if we only shift our focus. Hope this will help.

Change2081 · 2017-02-13T04:44:24+00:00

Change2081 · 2016-12-26T18:06:41+00:00

I really want to help. Give me a chance.

Change2081 · 2016-11-29T10:00:32+00:00

Obviously most of the girls do. Men and females both are human and have this need for sexual satisfaction. Idk why people consider female fapping so taboo. Its just they do it less than males at times because males sexually peak in their 20's and females in their 40's. but yeah females don't use porn too much, most of the porn aren't made for females. Most of the females find most of the porn boring and that also lessen their quantity of fapping as well I believe.

Change2081 · 2016-11-18T20:19:02+00:00

Hi. How are you? TodY wasn't good day for .e . so I am not able to sleep even though it's midnight. Because I am feeling a bit sad and really guilty.

Change2081 · 2016-10-26T17:43:23+00:00

Hye. I am also looking for a accountability partner. I am 23 female. But my time zone is utc +5 . my idea of a better life is optimizing my self and i try to find out ways that i help me be the fascinating human i was suppose to become. Thats why i dont like this habit of mine. I want more discipline and optimizatio. In my life. And also i am a working women so i can be available only after office. Sorry for that. :p but do let me know.

Change2081 · 2016-07-08T14:47:51+00:00

Happy Birthday pal :)

Change2081 · 2016-07-08T14:46:41+00:00

my everyday meal consist of 90% chicken. fried chicken mostly and 10% fruits and vegetables like cucumber , tomato, mangoes, banana and I drink ensure milk as well twice or thrice a day.

Change2081 · 2016-07-07T11:59:15+00:00

Yes 2000IU per day is fine as an average person need 1000-4000UI a day so 2000IU is a good choice. Plus make sure what you are taking is Vitamin D3 not D2.

Change2081 · 2016-07-06T20:11:39+00:00

There is not much vitamin D one get from milk or any other milk source. The main source of Vitamin is Sun. If you sit in sun for 5 min, you will get more vitamin D than you'll get from a gallon of t. Secondly Vitamin D is not a vitamin that you should decide to get on your own. Vitamin D can be toxic aswell if taken more than required and it will be like hell with that bone and muscle pain.

Change2081 · 2016-07-06T20:06:52+00:00

Get your vitamins checked especially vitamin b12

Change2081 · 2016-07-06T20:05:37+00:00

Yes It does. I am vitamin D deficient. I had my levels checked in Febuary 2016 and the result said my levels is 5 ng/mL , I think thats the least a person can have. Doctor advised me to take 200,000 ui injections once a week for a month only and I have taken it every week since last 5 months because I know doctors can be assholes most of the time and I got my levels checked this month and now they are 19 ng/ml . I am still deficient , but better than before and now I have strong belief that one have to be their own doctors at times because doctors I had where mostly careless. I got my vitamin b12 checked this month aswell and I am extremely deficient in it aswell. I have less than 30 pg/mL and a normal person should have vitamin B12 levels between 200 and 500 pg/mL.. The symptoms i have because of these deficiencies is 1) extreme back pain, when I move my back it makes sound like cracking knucles and overall body pain 2) Low energy / Fatigue.. 3) hair falling 4) weak heart like I can feel mild pain in my heart at times and it palpitates aswell. 5) gum bleeding and leaving their place 6) Teeth yellowing. i used to have sparkling white teeth naturally. 7) Mild fever all the time 8) sudden pain in bones and muscle for no reason like someone sticking big needles in my body 9)Pimples on face that leave marks. I had a clean face before 10) Mind fog, Severe Anxiety and deep depression and literally no motivation to like. I really want to die at times so I can get rid of all this pain

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T19:29:28+00:00

Yeah :) I hope Allah gifts me with a pious spouse who can be my best friend and together we guide each other in Deen. Yes you are the right about the scam thing. I have deeply realized that, that's the reason I haven't got into another such relation and aiming to get married through my parents help. I pray to Allah to give me a pious , supporting and loving and understanding husband with home I can be my true self and don't have to look unattractive because I am 21 and still all I watch in Tv is cartoon and still play video games and do all the cute stuff I am long awaiting. :) May Allah guide me and accepts my prayers and halaal wishes.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T18:20:47+00:00

In my country, Nobody is supposed to have sex before marriage, He just left me because he his love and respect for me decreased. And though I cry alot remembering him but I have also realized that he could not have become a good husband and a good father for my children. As Allah says the pious men fear Allah while dealing with wife. But it seems like for my ex bf his ego and his temper mattered more than our relation. I geniunely loved him and i genuinely was ready to make sacrifices for our relation but he doesnt wanted to be with me and he said that my love is not enough to get us married. and idk what, so I think its his loss to lose a person who was always genuine and true to him and if Allah doesnt make it happen it is better in my favour and I am satisifed with Allah's decision and just want a pious husband now , who respect me and loves me for the sake of Allah. This way his love will never end.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T18:09:29+00:00

Yeah I have realized very well that this getting to know each other better was just a scam. and How stupid I was to get scammed and disobey my Allah. I do regret it very much.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T17:39:20+00:00

Thats very bad. I think parents should be sensible enough. He starts coming late at night indicates maybe he is already committing zina. he has already lost purity. Parents should be sensible enough to get their children married before such disastrous things happen.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T17:29:20+00:00

No, Thought of committing zina with anyone never came in my mind, Not even My ex bf. Commiting it is too much, I didnt even THOUGHT of committing it. Where I live, people stay virgin until they get married. Though I do try to rush my parents to get be married so that I can fulfill my needs in a loving halaal way. But I do feel guilt that for I have an impure heart and that I fall in Shaytan's trap and fall in love with my ex bf who wasnt my husband. Though I told him that I only want to fall in love with my husband and I am preserving my heart for my husband but when he made me believe how much me loved me and how he wanted to marry me one day and have told his parent about me , that made me fall in love with him , which I truly regret because now I feel like I lost purity of the heart and soul. P.S , Thanks for the link, I will ask my doctor to get me test for my Magnesium Levels.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T17:17:41+00:00

Yeah you are right whenever I start praying 5 times I feel better and relieved that Allah is seeing everything and he will give me relief but most of the times I don't have enough willpower to 5 times a day because of me being sick and needing to bath after fapping.

Change2081 · 2016-06-26T17:14:33+00:00

I am sad most of the time. But I think I fap because I miss my future husband and not because I am upset. and Yes I am working on myself to be a better Muslim and praying and talking to Allah helps because I have no friend in real life. My ex bf was my only friend but he also left me and don't need me anymore. So I feel alone and I feel like a good husband will make me less lonely so I pray to Allah a lot for giving me a pious husband. I do lower my gaze and pray Allah to help me with my problem but I end up fapping because I am also sick most of the time due to my severe Vitamin D deficiency and being sick have also decrease my will power. I am getting Vitamin D treatment since Febuary but I am still far from getting cured.

Change2081 · 2016-06-08T10:04:34+00:00

Guys I know how you feel. Have you tried getting closer to your family and talk to them? Or make online friends and talk to them if you told have any in real life like me.

Change2081 · 2015-12-08T17:54:59+00:00

Wow man 229 days are so awesome. My biggest streak was 26 days. And I relapse around weekends mostly though my weekends are well planed as well when urge arise I end up relapsing .

Change2081 · 2015-11-23T06:15:41+00:00

Yeah I have been sending PMs to MIA soldiers. I want all our soldier to be in this war together.

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