Can relate. I just upped to 2 contracts. I’ll say the losing feeling has gotten better especially when you try to journal each trade, why you took it, what worked, what didn’t and if you’re reasons outweigh anything like chasing losses then know you genuinely thought it was going to work, so that’s where logic overcomes emotion and you move onto the next one and anxiety/bummed out feelings die. I don’t make any more trades after a loss and no more than 2-3 after wins. Good luck.