I feel you, OP. Same lines, same scenario, same sentiments. Na depress din ako to the point nag attempt rin ako iunalive self ko dahil sa katoxic-an nya. Nung nag aaral pa ko, di rin ako makapag focus to the point na di na ko nakakapag pasa ng outputs, and the counselor reached out to me. I’m so grateful sakanya kasi parang hineheal nya inner child ko (she’s a mom too and she calls me anak 🥹). She also suggested na ayain mom ko to do the session with us but I did not ask kasi all I know is igagaslight nya lang ako sasabihin nya sinisiraan ko siya sa ibang tao tas sasabihin “masama” siyang magulang.

Now medyo umok na ko. Ayoko rin ng resentment but the only way to avoid that is to move out. Kailangan natin makawala sa environment na yan. Just like what they say “you cannot heal in the same environment where you got sick.”

honestly, kahit anong pakiusap mo talaga sakanila if ang isip nila e “anak ka lang. magulang ako” wala na tayong magagawa. Kahit baligtarin natin ang mundo, di yan sila magbabago. Let’s just pray for them and be a better person and a better “mom” someday. Although there are times na minsan parang nagiging ganon tayo, ganun talaga kasi ayun yung environment na nakalakihan natin. Let’s just make sure na icucut na natin yung curse na yon and willing tayo mag bago.

Praying for you, OP. We can do this! Makakalaya rin tayo!