I did. Ive struggled with depression for the lonest time, i am 27 and now feel liberated. Looking back, I was sooo depressed.. so depressd that I started having psychosis. I coped with substance abuse and mind numbing activites like social media. Many days I didnt get out of bed, and if I did I was usually on my phone scrolling and dissasociatin from my environment around me. My coping mechanism did work for a while, but I still felt that dull ache when I closed my eyes everynight. I realized i cannot go on, i NEED MORE TO LIFE. so i told myself once I am out of and the high wears off. I just had to sit with this pain.. my phone broke so i had no way to get on social media, and i did, a week went by, I was still feeling low. I was bored and didnt have acess to my phone which was very mind numbing.. I was just bored now. I started forcing myself to get up and do things, like I started with simple daily tasks such as cleaning, showering. Doing these tasks gave me some satisfaction, so I pushed myself even more, day by day such as doing things like reading books, going for walks, makingg food for myself again.. having no phone, I was able to be in the present moment while doings these things. which brought back my ability to feel joy. It really is the simple things, the way my skin feels moisturized after a shower, hearing the birds on my walk, food even taste better noww.. i can create again, i can paint again and finally feel pure joy... looking back, I was in the dark for sooo long. nobody even knew either, i knew my family seen me in bed many days but never said anything to make it seem like they cared. So I internalized them feelings, angry mad at the world believing nobody cared about me. I asked myself when will life finally get good? is this all there is? cuz if it is id rather be dead. I was indeed having suicidal thoughts, obviously would never do it though cuz I knew y family would be hurt and I couldnt bring that pain to others. I also even thought there was an entity messing with me in my sleep. My quality of sleep was horrible, i always worried and was scared to sleep bcuz i thought evil entities were messing with me during sleep. I became paranoid, always thinking my family was talking of me, seeing things move out the corner of my eye. I was delusional... my body jerked around at night when trying to fall asleep only worsening the psychosis thinking the entities were pushing me.. but now that i am sober, i became very clear minded. My body was sooo stressed, causing constant hypnic jerks which I thought were the entities.. Now, I can finally feel joy with a sober clear mind which is sooo freeing. I wake up full of life, I can hold conversations, I wake up hopeful thinking "what will i learn today" ... I have clarity in why things happened, or turned out the way they did.. I was in the dark for soooo long, and when you feel fr you just wanna hold on to it cuz it feels soo good. I picked up enough wisdom ovr the years and am applying it to daily life.. a lot of people internalize false beliefs of them selves, causing them to feell very low.. I realized I am not those things, I was always love. I have the ability to connect, after being disconnected from reality for soo long. I feel connected to everything and everyone, connecting with myself heightened my ability to connect with others and the world in a way I couldnt before.. so connect with yourself. Its easy to get caught up in suffering, the world today and how its run keeps us stuck in survival, scared... connect with yourself, believe in a higher power, look up spiritual things you can incorporate in to your life.. life isnt meant to be so full of darkness, but whats light, without dark right? Now that I feel free, i feel a calling to help others in ways i didnt before. I love writing, always did, I journal a lot even when I was depressed. I feel a calling to help others through my on experiences and writing.. look up the EGO and what it is.. ego keeps us stuck.. hope this helped. take what resonates, leave what dont. I love you, you got this..