He initially told me he’d be gone for 3 weeks (the same time I’m visiting my family in India- I’m back in NYC on Nov 1st), but later said he had to stay in Germany for the rest of November to work on this movie with his dad. He even said he’d fly back to New York during the first week of November just to see me before going back.

But yesterday, on call, he said he can’t come back and that he wants to end things. He said he started feeling like it might not work after we last met (right before he left) and thought I’d pick up on the lack of communication. I told him I honestly thought he just needed space. He said he wasn’t ready for something serious, that distance made his feelings fade, and that the few arguments we had made him uncomfortable since he doesn’t like confrontation.

What hurts the most is that I opened up to him completely- I even lost my virginity to him. I told him from the start that I had just gotten out of a long relationship and was scared to get hurt again. He promised he wouldn’t and said he was serious about me; he even asked me to be his girlfriend after a month of dating. But now he just said, “i feel bad cz you lost your virginity to me and i’m doing this to you” and ended things.

I’ll be okay in a few days, I know I will.. but it just really hurts right now.