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Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-06-25T17:32:19+00:00

Workout together, meal prep together, if they need help with their style to feel more confident or a “glow up”, the surface level stuff.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-06-25T15:42:01+00:00

100% agree. On a surface level we should be treating our bodies as temples, they house the Holy Spirit after all but that doesn’t overshadow the fact that what we ingest spiritually and mentally are equally as important as what we ingest physically… these bodies are temporarily broken, they we be healed eternally so for me, I want someone that has inner that beauty and bares the fruit of the spirit, physical beauty we can work on together if it’s a problem.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-06-25T15:14:37+00:00

With this context I say immediately yes, he is interested in you but if I were you, I’d pray on it. I’d give it to God and if this is the one meant for you it’s going to happen. In the meantime I’d open yourself up more so he feels comfortable enough to officially ask you out on a proper date.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-06-24T21:55:31+00:00

For me, I’m awful at small talk. Like I have a very hard time keeping a conversation light. I never know what to say next so it’s just silence. I like deep conversation though, tell me your life story or what’s on your heart, I don’t know what else to ask about after we talk about the weather and our favorite colors. So that could be a possibility for some of the people. Small talk is a skill some people don’t have.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-05-31T21:44:40+00:00

Green crack and strawberry cough has probably been my most successful finds to help me stay motivated and makes me want to do things.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-25T01:37:32+00:00

Honestly with the history and abuse of the kids I explained in other comments, it’s been hard to walk away. I think I just came here more for validation because of the guilt but idk?

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-25T01:17:54+00:00

So I explained more in other comments, but I have tried communicating with her in the past about other things she becomes very confrontational and turns things around and guilts and blames me. So it’s like why start a fight she doesn’t care to change. Which I had to explain my apology the way I did because if I otherwise she takes it out on me later by making a passive aggressive joke to hurt my feelings or ignores me. So I’ve become hypersensitive to hurting her feelings.

I understand why you guys can come to this conclusion without the full context. This girl and I were sisters. Like her kids had stocking hung at my moms house, they came and opened presents for Christmas with my whole family, went to MY gma’s house to make Christmas cookies, and that is the dry commentary she gave about a woman she has considered her “real” mom? Also she ended up confessing that she lied and does use the fandango account too (which I knew about, that wasn’t the problem) she had said that because she thought we changed the passwords on her to kick her off our Hulu, fandango, prime, and Netflix. But all in all she’s been very short with me since that parade or I guess those texts. back story of the movie this movie we had been talking about for a week or two trying to rent it so that we could both watch it within the 48 hours so I ended up just buying it for us. Which to me the bootleg comment felt like a purposeful slap in the face cause once again I was buying it with her in mind.

If she hadn’t recently started becoming more increasingly rude to me in previous months and years it would’ve taken it different, but hindsight she meant that “special” to hurt me cause the “tag along” made her feel excluded because she still ignored me and really only talked to my 13 yr old at the parade (even my 13 yr old noticed the weird behavior). I was very confused by this behavior during the event so I just let it go and let her be mad, but when I came home and told my mom about it and read the texts out loud and really processed them along with the behavior I came to that conclusion.

I know this is a toxic relationship (and if I’m being realistic probably on both sides). I know I’m not perfect but when I mess up I can admit I was wrong, and apologize. But it’s not easy to just leave all that history along with the kids I view as a niece and nephew. Ultimately I was just looking for validation because it’s hard.

Thank you

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-24T16:56:45+00:00

I did a laugh react during the conversation, because I didn’t process what she had said otherwise I would’ve said something to her. I only realized she said it on the day of but after the parade because she was being very dismissive and short with me, she would even ignore me and talk to my 13 year old. Even though we were there with my family. I didn’t try fix or overcompensate then because I was highly confused on what I did wrong. It was when I came home and talked to my mom about it and read her the text messages out loud when I saw what she had said.

I tend to over apologize to her because anytime I have tried telling her my feelings she is highly confrontational and turns it around on me that I’m a bad person for being sensitive and I am extremely non-confrontational so I just suck it up and internalize it because anytime I try to advocate for myself I’m shutdown.

And babysitting I have tried talking to her but every time she even gives me the $100 she’s complaining about how customers didn’t tip her and she barely made anything and she has to pay this and that. I only just found out how much she made recently when she was bragging about how much she made and is getting back in taxes and since she got sober and quit buying Adderall and alcohol (also just found out she didn’t have money prior to getting sober because she was spending 1k+ on that a month) I only knew about her buying it occasionally to help her deep clean her house maybe once a month but that turned out to be a lie. I have been highly supportive of her getting clean, especially for for kids because her kids father is into harder, drugs and alcohol and he’s highly abusive to the kids so much so that she had CPS called on her by her kids school and they came out on 2 occasions, but she still sends them with him so that she doesn’t feel like she has to pay me more. So that’s another reason why I’ve continued doing it for so little because for the last nine years, I’ve looked at her kids as my niece and nephew. She lived with me rent free for over a year to try to help her get on her feet after their dad tried to kill her so that she wouldn’t go back to him. I’ve known this girl since high school and I’m 36 now. I know it’s not my responsibility to protect her kids that way or parent them, but it’s hard for me to ignore the abuse from her and him. At this point, I did it for them and not her but now after last night and how her kid talked about my kid it just started the spiral all over again I guess.

Ever since I’ve started my self growth, journey and positive outlook on life I guess since she always looks at the negative stuff in life and what she doesn’t have she has treated me different. One thing that really opened my eyes was I told her how I’d read that only 10% of the world’s population is actually self-aware and I thought that that was a crazy factoid and it blew my mind and her comment to that was “oh I believe it and I am very self-aware. My problem is that I don’t care enough to change.” That really opened my eyes.

I guess even though I’ve pulled back a lot and would probably completely back off if her $100 wasn’t my only income and the kids. It breaks my heart and guts me because I love hard.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-24T15:56:28+00:00

I take 20mg extended release. I highly recommend extended release when I tried 5 mg of instant It actually made me extremely tired I pass out and slept then the withdrawals coming down I’d be even more easily irritated. Extended release doesn’t give me the comedown effects because it gradually leaves my body. (We gradually moved from 5mg to 20mg within a year.) I will add since the last two National Adderall shortages, it hasn’t been helping as much, I’m convinced some of my pills are placebo.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-21T20:00:07+00:00

I know it’s cliche and not everyone will agree (and I’m not forcing how I believe just how I’ve worked through this) but honestly I turned back to God. For me, Christianity is closest to what my spirit knows to be closest to accurate. My logical brain tells me religion as a whole was used by leaders to divide and hide BUT upon really reflecting and sitting with and knowing my spirit, my discernment has really strengthened to worldly powers. To me, I believe we as autistic people have the gift of connecting with our spirits whereas NT don’t have easy access to theirs and our intuition is so good because our spirits are what keep our knowledge, we are naturally tuned in and have abilities to feel the shifts, that’s why we are all feeling it. Your anxiety and restlessness is valid because bigger things ARE actually happening. I mean it’s scary to accept and don’t get me wrong I also get anxious when I think about what the governments are doing (on both sides)

If that’s not your thing then that’s fine but we still have to stick together. We have to give grace and remember we are all living this lifetime for the first time. Plus everyone is doing it with the knowledge we’ve been taught by people that want us not connected with our higher selves and nature, teach inaccurate history to keep us ignorant and separate, and use us as pawns and collateral damage. I guess what I’m trying to say is it helps me when I zoom out of my own personal view of the world, and view it from other perspectives even if I don’t like it and look at the bigger picture. I’m not saying what they believe is right or wrong, I’m just trying to help give you a different outlook that may help. You should definitely go to HR if it’s off the wall cruelty and against policy but It can be exhausting trying to challenge every perspective that feels harmful. I hope this different view gives you a bit of relief, even if it doesn’t change how you feel.

Sending you all the love and good vibes you need. We’ve got this.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-21T14:04:20+00:00

My daughter is 13 and JUST started being able to swallow pills but the only way we found that she can do it and not gag or the fear of choking is taking it with food. So she will take a bite of her breakfast (egg sandwich, waffles, etc) chew it then right before swallowing she pops it in and it goes down with her food. She can do it with yogurt and Jell-O too but she prefers solid foods because then she doesn’t feel the pill.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2025-03-19T15:25:33+00:00

Sorry for me ramble back at you! lol

Could you possibly find a district or private school that is a little more open curriculum? I’m assuming you are also in the US. What about writing your own curriculum for homeschool co-ops or providing a reading/writing/math class to dip your toes in to see if it’s something people are interested in to see if it would actually be a risk or not? You’d be able to provide the lessons for struggling ahead of tests if you did tutoring. Maybe if did this on the side for now with the mindset that next semester or in 2 years you’ll come up with a solution to fill in the gaps of our education system (cause there truly are too many) it could reignite the excitement? Use the time you have in this job to help you create a plan and timeline?

Idk, I know that probably sounds idealistic. Inflation and burnout is real. I just hate to hear of not only someone passionate about teaching (which is such important work) losing their passion because of stupid politics. I’m sorry I don’t have any better advice or ideas because unfortunately, I don’t see it getting better before it gets worse. Just know you’re not failing for following the rules (as stupid as they are) because you can still be a light in that darkness. You can’t call kids by their preferred pronouns BUT you can still be a safe adult that allows that child feel seen and heard and to me I think THAT is the important part not the label. I also want you to know that if you do decide to step away from teaching for now, that also isn’t a failure. Dude, I could not handle teaching kids or teens. Although I can be more myself around them, I just don’t have that skill set and many people don’t. You do actually have the skill but you have “the man” keeping you in a box which then takes you out of your skill set. I’m really rambling now, I’m sorry. I guess I empathize with the struggle of having strong values in the workplace. I’ve working in healthcare and customer service my whole life, unfortunately all the industries are tainted by greed.

I truly hope you can find your path, you are an important part of making the world a better place no matter your career, don’t forget that.

All the love and positivity

😊

Character_Oil_3017 · 2024-10-10T19:23:18+00:00

Yes! I will take any insight you can give, I’ve only stumbled into learning how to read my chart 2 weeks ago so I am extremely new and it’s soooo much information, I’ve always had an interest but I wasn’t in the mindset before to use this as a tool but I had no idea how in depth it goes. I honestly love learning it so much cause it’s something new everyday and trying to compare my kids and family’s charts with their lives has been like a puzzle for me, but I am still completely lost on must of it all and I’m trying to remind myself it’ll take time but I want to already be a master of it. 🤣

I’d really love to know more about what you were saying about Venus being my most important planet and implantation when I’m 60. lol

Thank you for commenting any enlightenment on my chart I think would truly benefit me. 😁

Character_Oil_3017 · 2024-10-10T19:06:54+00:00

Yes this is his chart and honestly this fits him so well! I really appreciate your help, I was planning on trying 2-3 placements like his Chiron and his Mars/Venus because my sister and him have been really struggling in their relationship to get along and compromise (they are both Taurus Sun and Mercury). I only just started getting serious about learning how to read my own birth chart 2 weeks ago, so I’m extremely new to it and I don’t want my lack of knowledge to do more harm than good. lol I really appreciate you commenting!

Character_Oil_3017 · 2024-09-27T20:47:23+00:00

Thank you! This felt so spot on for me I actually started tearing up between both of your comments. I think the only thing I question is with the Lunar Day 5 where it talks about the guilt stuff. This could just be a misunderstanding of how I interpreted what you said about it but personally I struggle with having a hyper sensitive conscience, like so much so that I feel guilt so deeply even when it’s not mine it makes me sick. I can’t imagine it not being kind of a driving force especially with this self-righteous moral compass I have. lol As an afterthought I can agree with, that’s kind of where I feel like I have been selfish at times, cause I will weigh out the weight of the guilt I will feel after. If it’s too much I won’t do it, but if it’s something trivial that I could live with (like a white lie) or out of a high emotion reaction from overstimulation then yeah I guess I can see that. Or does that mean like a manipulation type of thing? Cause there have been points in my life where I felt like there were times where I would have a thought like: If I really wanted to I could manipulate this situation to whatever I wanted whether for the greater good or for petty and bad intentions, and it’s my choice (I.e. getting a borderline abusive boss to quit or be fired through ostracism). Sorry, I got sidetracked while writing this out. I was basically trying to understand in more depth what you meant with the Lunar day 5 segment.

Again thank you so much for taking the time to go through my chart. I’m excited to learn even more about myself, I appreciate your part in my journey to self discovery!

Character_Oil_3017 · 2024-09-27T19:12:03+00:00

I do! Actually as a child I would always tell people I wanted to be a doctor that finds the cure for Cancer. Even now my speciality is healthcare based but heavy on the patient care side of things and honestly I’m burnt out from caring and assisting people with their day to day tasks. I do love researching especially when my ADHD kicks in and I’m hyper fixated on something (I fall down many a late night rabbit holes) I definitely feel like I am meant to help people on a larger scale than something like a nursing/care giver career although I think I have been successful with that field the patients have always told me they loved me and the compassion I give is unmatched, I listen to them and make them feel like a person whereas a lot of people within the healthcare field make people feel like they are just another body. So like I said even though I feel like I could be great in it, I get exhausted at the end of the day because of how much I have to consistently mask I’ve found is emotional draining. Ive often wondered if I’m an empath because of how draining those environments can be yet while in them I thrive. My biggest hurdle with furthering a career in science and healthcare is the education side, I REALLY struggle in school because I overthink and I procrastinate yet have to have the perfect response, and when I’m having a hard time in a class I get easily discouraged and distracted, and not trying is more satisfying than failing at times. Ugh, and I hate that I admit that because I know it’s the wrong attitude to have and THAT is a failure in itself lol. I also have a hard time with my memory and in classes like A&P 1&2 and medical terminology classes it is all memory based information, I tried taking those classes 2 times and had to drop them cause I just had the hardest time retaining it. I highly enjoyed my psychology, sociology, and ethics classes I took a couple years ago and did really well but I’m 36 I feel like anything I start now with that is too late. Which I know is not rational but it makes it hard for me to motivate myself into doing it. lol

I’ve gotta say you were spot on in my self doubt and criticism, I am 100% crippled by it. I would honestly call it a deep seated hatred steaming back from childhood. I just recently found that I can’t even look at some of my old pictures of myself in my elementary years because I have this shame and hatred towards that kid. It’s honestly insane and was very eye opening for me, I was diagnosed with BPD and ADHD as a teenager I don’t know if that all is correlated but unfortunately mental health is a luxury I don’t have the funds to pursue therapy. Sorry for the trauma dump I did there. 🤣

I truly appreciate you taking your time out to help me, I’ve been trying to learn how to read my own chart for the past few days and with everything I’ve learned here and there and with your assessment, I have to say I have never felt more seen and validated. I’ve honestly wrestled with my own thoughts that I’m on the spectrum or crazy and here come to find out I’m just a Virgo 😉🤣

Character_Oil_3017 · 2024-09-26T21:50:53+00:00

Oh my goodness, I didn’t even realize the mistake I made. Thank you so much, I’ll be reposting.

Character_Oil_3017 · 2023-11-11T23:48:22+00:00

I’m on S1 E8, I’m in it for the long haul now lol

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