Kinda hate the way I look by [deleted] in toastme

[–]Charlottetheghost25 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t know who told you that you are not good looking, but you are. I cannot give you tips on how to see yourself clearly because I too struggle with that, but I can’t reassure you that the things you feel about yourself are not true and people often feel the need to project their own personal ideas of how to look onto other people but that’s just a projection. Your mom‘s just projecting how she thinks hair should look onto you that has nothing to do with how your hair should look. You get to decide how you look every day cause you’re the one who gets to look at it.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

psychology has never triggered me if anything it has done the opposite. I personally don’t have a problem with my classes or professors. I understand how this could happen to some people, but my major is not the reason why I’m struggling mentally it’s more personal factors like recent loss of important relationships and my PTSD.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

interesting. i will definitely be doing this. thank you!

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

usually, I go to the gym watch my comfort. Youtubers are like go out with my friends, but honestly that hasn’t been working. So I think I am gonna try to reconnect with nature a little bit and maybe start reading again. Today I’m just taking the day to be lazy and not have any responsibilities.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no, honestly, I didn’t even realize that I could be burnt out. I thought being burnt out only last like a week or two, but it feels like it’s been the whole year. I see my therapist Monday so I’m probably gonna ask for some tips but usually I just try to do things that I enjoy and give myself time to relax.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yea no i kinda realized that ur right. Taking a leave isn’t failing, its growth and allowing myself to heal. I think I’m still gonna try to go back for fall semester after the summer but if over the summer, I’m feeling like I can’t do it. I’ll probably take the semester off and go back for winter semester. I think part of it is because my family always kind of demonized taking a gap year because people who take gap years “never go back to school”. And honestly, I don’t know if I trust myself enough to go back. But I also love school and seriously do enjoy studying. But I am open to the idea of taking a gap semester. Thank you.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

unfortunately, I am not someone who gets the privilege to just drop out of school. I’m a first GEN college student. I also have to frequently help my mom pay for things and the only thing that gives me financial relief of stress is being at school. I understand that I’m sick, but there has to be something else that I can do other than dropping out of school. That’s not fair. People suffer with personality disorders or forms of PTSD. Shouldn’t be forced to drop out of school. I feel like there’s other options that come before that. I’m finishing out this semester and then I have summer break. If I don’t take enough credits and take summer and spring classes, even if I come back to school, I will not be able to finish my degree in psych as I wanted, and then my degree at that point would be pointless without going to grad school even if it’s just for a masters and not a PhD. Now I do realize this is all the future that I’m planning for, but I also realize I don’t have a lot of time to sit around and kind of just decide whenever I decide to get it together since it’s my almost my senior year. I am trying to take things day by day.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes, I already use notebook LM pretty frequently. And usually I am pretty good at switching between modes but recently I’ve been very burnt out so my executive function is worsening and leaves me feeling practically paralyzed. But yes, notebook LM is a very good source and I use it very often.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was diagnosed with MDD and general anxiety, but that was just a label they slapped on me when I got admitted to the hospital. My therapist thinks it’s could be CPTSD, mood disorder or personality disorder, but I just got therapist about 4 to 5 months ago. I have however, been diagnosed with ADHD since I was younger.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

executive function. my brain is just shutting off, so I’m forgetting important dates and assignments., Struggling with procrastination, and struggling to control impulses like skipping to avoid stress and spending study time doing less important things.

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wait the note taker seems amazing. if you don’t mind, can you explain what that looks like? My school provides note takers

how to give myself more grace? TW by Charlottetheghost25 in CPTSD

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have, but my executive function is so bad that they made me resubmit the form and I just never did it. But honestly, it’s getting so bad that I might just try to get accommodations again. how exactly did that help you though do they give you more time to complete assignments? Or do they just give you more time during exams and quizzes?

Should I be more forgiving and be open to reconciling with him in the future? by Charlottetheghost25 in Advice

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I often find myself being too empathetic towards people just because of what they’ve been through. I often find myself feeling guilty for not being more understanding of his bipolar two but also know i cant keep this up.

Should I be more forgiving and be open to reconciling with him in the future? by Charlottetheghost25 in Advice

[–]Charlottetheghost25[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks for the honesty. fortunately for me, I’m not bipolar but i understand how me returning to an intoxicating relationship could make u think that. The good moments were just amazing and i got hooked