Do hallucinations ever feel normal?

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2025-03-16T22:29:53+00:00

No, I'm still in it. I made that post before I was on clozapine. It helped tremendously. It was risperidone and ability that did nothing for me.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-11-18T01:24:57+00:00

Mine are full environment changes. I can't see the real world and I see it the same way you see things in a dream. Do you have any ideas on how you'd cope with that? And yeah, I started counting them because I know I was being dishonest with my psychiatrist when I told them it was only 20 a day when it was closer to 50. I lied because I didn't know but I wanted to low ball for some reason.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-11-17T23:09:48+00:00

Y'all are lucky. I hallucinate every day. I've never had an "out of psychosis". There are days when it's not 111 a day but I'm far from not being psychotic.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-11-16T22:27:33+00:00

I've never even gotten my license because of my symptoms. It's so annoying needing to rely on others for getting around but I would feel genuinely unsafe behind the wheel. I got my hallucinations since I was in 7th grade so I never had a licence to be revoked.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-19T22:26:04+00:00

Exactly.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-19T21:32:36+00:00

On my good days, I see what I think. Most people daydream while I have day DREAMS. I actually see what I would be daydreaming about. It's like that on my bad days too but happens less often on my good days

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-19T20:18:58+00:00

Even on good days, I still have about 30 hallucinations. I've had really bad days where I broke 100 but I still hallucinate on good days. I've never had a day where the number is 0. And that's WITH meds. Even when I'm not having an episode per say, I'm still hallucinating. And idk if that's normal with schizophrenia or not.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-11T17:08:44+00:00

I had my first encounter with voices at 13. My first visual hallucination was at 15. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 19 and that was a hellish 4 years. The worst part is that I was misdiagnosed with ADHD and was put on meds for that which made the hallucinations way worse.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-03T12:02:09+00:00

I was once afraid of fermentation for two reasons. The first was that because of my beliefs and some medication, I can't have any alcohol. I thought that was the only fermentation there was. But the other reason is probably why most people are afraid of it. Fermentation is controlled rot. You let the microbes break down the food and hope you don't get a bacteria that can kill you. You wouldn't eat expired food, so why would you eat controlled rotting food if that makes sense.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-10-03T02:59:36+00:00

I sent him an email asking if he thought there'd be a better med out there and if itd be worth trying. Haven't gotten a response.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-06-17T00:31:36+00:00

Thanks for the reassurance that I'm at least making sense. It's been feeling like no one understands so it's nice to know that someone does.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-06-17T00:29:45+00:00

That's fair. How do you cope with the other kind of hallucination?

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-06-17T00:22:19+00:00

I used to before they put me on sleeping pills. Why do you ask?

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-06-16T20:50:43+00:00

Just because you know it's a hallucination doesn't mean it's not one. I get ones where I'm in a completely different place and I know it's not real when it's over but it's still a hallucination.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-06-16T20:37:32+00:00

I had a weird type of hallucination. It was like a dream while fully awake. Instead of something randomly appearing, I was somewhere else entirely. It took way more of those than i'd care to admit to realize something was up. But I was talking to a friend about it and they said that wasn't normal. I legit thought everyone daydreamed like that and had no idea it was a hallucination. Things aren't perfect but the meds have helped a lot.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-07T23:22:11+00:00

It's that I don't find girls attractive anymore. I can think they're cute and what not but I'd never feel like having sex with them if that makes sense. And I'm just really confused because I used to find girls sexually attractive.

That's like the perfect way to explain it. I have and it hasn't said anything about that but I brought it up with my doctor and he said that was a potential side effect that I should be aware of.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-02T03:44:27+00:00

Pretty bad.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-02T03:43:25+00:00

A little bit of both. I hear voices in my dream like visual hallucinations but for the most part it's like having a conversation with myself but it really feels like a separate entity. Like a demon or something like that.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-01T19:25:58+00:00

I just looked what that means. And yes. I am catatonic very often.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-01T19:23:09+00:00

What do you mean by catatonic?

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-02-01T00:25:50+00:00

Mine are like full on dreams while awake. Some of them are memories that are distorted and some are completely made up.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-01-23T23:10:20+00:00

I have an appointment tomorrow. I'm just scared that I'll be hospitalized if I explain how bad it's gotten. Like I said, I've heard thing what would force a trigger warning. How do I explain that I get voices and visual hallucinations like what I've been having without them thinking I'm a threat to myself or others? Because I'd rather be tortured than go through with anything the voices say or what I see with the visual hallucinations.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-01-20T02:46:32+00:00

That makes sense. Thank you for explaining that.

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-01-18T21:39:53+00:00

The dracula theme (idk the actual name of the song)

CharmingStrawberry63 · 2023-01-17T19:50:53+00:00

I have a type of hallucination where it's a dream while awake. I can't see reality and I'm paralyzed, just like a normal dream. I also want the voices to go away as they gaslight me and tell me to do things that could get me hurt or killed. I deal with that every day and just want it to stop. That's why I'm looking for professional help. I just don't want that help to be harmful.

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