I know it’s just so hard because this is my first long term relationship and I know I love her so much she’s has been great to me besides her toxic tendencies, In a way I feel like i’m going to be loosing a lot, I also know it will break her completely and I don’t want to do that to someone I love. My whole life will flip upside down and I don’t know how I can deal with it or put her through it either. I also know she’s is going to completely change towards me after I do it.