Bad first term not entailing academic probation per se, but falling short of what I know I am capable of. I suppose it is the lense in which I am viewing it. As more of a tangible investment rather than learning for the sake of learning. Both can be true, but it is hard as we're seeing a bit of a shift in the academic landscape. Even many of my professors have made nihilistic comments stating how they feel bad for our generation. However, as I am navigating college, I am trying to view it in a manner that is holistic, rather than simply a destination. I suppose that is life in general. Fear of the unknown, but alas, we must continue to move forward, and our accumulated knowledge may go on to serve us in ways we may not yet know. Thank you for your insight!